I Won’t Pick Up The T*ash I Threw Away Again - Chapter 197

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#197

Before long, brilliant moonlight poured down onto the street where darkness had settled.

Kalian crossed that street quickly while holding Leilah’s hand.

When Leilah, who had been following behind with quick steps, seemed somewhat struggling, he adjusted his pace slightly. Still, his steps were faster than usual.

His face looked both angry and as if he had urgent business.

Those two seem to have something going on, don’t they?

Indeed.

The attendants exchanged glances as they watched Leilah and Kalian’s tightly clasped hands.

As soon as Kalian entered the inner palace, he opened the door to the first room he saw.

“Your Majesty, that place is…!”

The attendants following behind called out to Kalian in panic, but he paid no mind and entered the room.

Leilah, whose hand was still held by his, also followed him in bewilderment.

The attendants tried to enter as well, but before they could, Kalian slammed the door shut as if he might break it.

The flustered attendants stopped dead in their tracks.

They glanced at each other, then based on long experience, judged it would be better to step back a few paces and moved away from the door.

Meanwhile, Kalian, who had entered the room, trapped Leilah between himself and the wall.

The window was wide open, perhaps for ventilation. Cold wind swept between them.

Leilah stared blankly at Kalian without even thinking to tidy her hair that was fluttering in the wind.

Her cheeks were shyly flushed like peaches.

‘I want to bite them.’

What kind of reaction would Leilah show if he actually bit those cheeks?

She would surely be flustered, opening her eyes wide like a rabbit and moving her mouth like a goldfish.

Just imagining it made him want to laugh. He wanted to see it for real, but he held back, not wanting to ruin the mood.

There would be other opportunities.

Since he would be with her continuously from now on.

Had the word “together” always been one that made his heart race like this?

Kalian smiled faintly as he cupped Leilah’s cheek with his hand.

When he quietly met her gaze, Leilah’s long eyelashes trembled and drooped.

Leilah seemed to want to avoid his gaze, but Kalian wouldn’t allow it.

“What did it mean?”

He finally asked while looking straight into Leilah’s eyes.

Expectation filled his deep blue eyes.

“Why did you hold my hand earlier?”

Her jet-black eyes, wet with moisture, wavered.

Kalian moved closer to Leilah and asked.

“Why did you hold my hand?”

Leilah, who had been hesitating, let out a deep sigh and answered as if somewhat resentful.

“…You already know why I did that.”

“I do know.”

How could he not know when she looked at him with such desperate eyes?

To be honest, Kalian had long ago noticed that Leilah had feelings for him.

That’s why he had pursued her so boldly.

If Leilah hadn’t had feelings for him, he would have hidden his own feelings for life, even if he liked her.

“I know, but I still want to hear it directly.”

Kalian intertwined his fingers with Leilah’s.

“I want to hear directly from your mouth how you think of me.”

“…”

“Won’t you tell me?”

How could she refuse when he was pleading with such desperate eyes?

It’s just that she needed to prepare her heart to say it, so Leilah took a deep breath before opening her heavy lips.

“I… like Your Majesty.”

“Do you only like me?”

Really, why does he keep asking when he already knows everything?

He must be trying to make me uncomfortable.

Leilah glared at Kalian, finding him annoying.

“Why aren’t you answering?”

It was meant to tell him to stop, but unfortunately, he seemed to have no intention of doing so.

“Won’t you tell me?”

Though his body was that of a full-grown adult, his actions and expressions were no different from a mischievous boy.

As Kalian kept urging her, Leilah mustered the courage to say what she had always wanted to but couldn’t bring herself to say.

“I love… you.”

A stone had been thrown into a calm lake.

“I… love Your Majesty.”

No, it was a massive boulder that had rolled off a cliff.

For a moment, Kalian’s expression hardened as if his breath had stopped.

Why is he making that expression when he asked to hear it?

It made her want to laugh and tease him more.

Leilah finally understood why Kalian kept teasing her.

“Your Majesty.”

With mischief stirring, Leilah grabbed Kalian’s collar and smiled broadly.

“Kal.”

She called the name that was only allowed outside the imperial palace, whispering in a small voice.

“I really love you.”

As if he’d been struck, Kalian stood dazed before frowning and grabbing Leilah’s shoulders.

“…Again.”

It was a low voice like a beast’s roar. Dark desire dripped from his voice.

“Say it again.”

Someone had once said this. The first time is difficult, but from the second time it becomes easy.

‘I disagree.’

The second time was harder. The cold wind had sobered her up, making her realize she was doing something crazy.

Leilah’s eyes, with the heat slightly subsided, wavered. Leilah clenched her fists tightly.

‘I shouldn’t do this.’

Because I’m a woman who doesn’t suit His Majesty.

Holding onto him like this to satisfy her own greed would be a burden to Kalian.

“Leilah.”

Even though she knew she should stop now.

“Please say it again, hmm?”

Seeing him look at her as if she were incredibly precious and coax her like a child, her mouth moved on its own.

“I love you.”

“Ah.”

Kalian let out a short exclamation and leaned his head against Leilah’s shoulder.

Even though she was wearing a thick coat, she could feel his hot breath completely.

“It feels like I’m dreaming.”

His voice, dampened with heat, spread.

“I’m afraid that if I close my eyes and open them, everything will disappear.”

His voice, soaked in happiness, rang in her ears.

Leilah unclenched her tightly held hands and embraced Kalian’s broad back.

“It’s okay.”

The water had already been spilled, and her heart that had grown so large could no longer be hidden.

Since I’ve already crossed the line, let me gather more courage and move forward.

I’ll become a woman who suits him.

…I can do it.

No, I will definitely succeed. I didn’t want to let go of the happiness that had finally come within my grasp.

Leilah made this resolution while gently patting Kalian’s back. It was the same comforting gesture he had often given her.

“This isn’t a dream, it’s all real, so you don’t need to be afraid.”

Kalian lifted his head to look up at Leilah.

Their gazes met in the air.

“Is that really true?”

Kalian asked with a voice still tinged with anxiety.

“Of course.”

Leilah answered with a gentle smile.

“Then.”

Kalian cupped Leilah’s cheek again and traced her plump lips with his thumb.

“Will you kiss me?”

“Ah…”

“If you kiss me first, I think it will feel real.”

Asking her to kiss him first. It was an embarrassing request.

Leilah’s face turned bright red.

Now she looks like an apple.

Kalian smiled and gently pressed his forehead against Leilah’s forehead.

“Does it seem impossible?”

Leilah couldn’t look directly at Kalian’s face and nodded her head.

“It’s okay.”

Because I can do it.

The words scattered like a mirage and their lips touched. At the same time, his dark pupils disappeared beneath his eyelids.

Hot breath of unknown origin wandered over their lips.

Kalian gently bit the reddest part of the well-ripened apple.

“Ah.”

With a small moan, sweet juice flowed out.

Kalieun pressed their lips completely together as if he wouldn’t miss a single drop, going deep inside.

Leilah felt her mind grow distant from this intense kiss she was experiencing for the first time in her life.

An unknown thrill surged up from her toes, making her legs tremble so much that she couldn’t stand on her own strength.

Leilah leaned almost completely against Kalian as she received his persistent and intense kiss.

The air grew hot.

At first he had intended to kiss her lightly, but once he started, he couldn’t stop.

It felt like becoming a runaway carriage. His reason was screaming at him to stop here, but his body and mind wouldn’t comply.

“Mmh.”

Even the reason he had solely trusted completely flew away at some point.

His mind, turned completely black by growing desire, screamed at him to hurry up and have Leilah.

If there was something that was never enough no matter how much he did it, it was kissing her. The terrible thirst simply wouldn’t be quenched.

Kalian, who had been struggling in the sea of desire for a while to quench his thirst, suddenly came to his senses and looked down at Leilah.

Leilah’s eyes were completely clouded with hot passion.

The lips he had persistently tormented were swollen and plump.

And her cheeks were flushed red on top of that.

The spark of desire that had briefly died down flared up again.

Though he desperately wanted to do as he pleased, if he tormented her more here, that would truly make him trash, so Kalian held back.

“…”

But holding back is too difficult.

Kalian rested his head on Leilah’s shoulder with a deep sigh.

“You shouldn’t have accepted it so much, you should have pushed me away.”

He didn’t mean it. He was just complaining once because he felt like he had become too much of trash.

“Should I have done that?”

…This makes me seem like even more trash.

Kalian frowned as he looked up at Leilah.

Leilah, meeting his eyes, smiled brightly.

Seeing her smile, his crumpled expression smoothed out like magic.

The guilt accumulated in his heart deepened, but he ignored it.

Kalian firmly grasped both her hands. There was a scar on her right palm.

It was a scar from when she tried to burn the Molenze that Sisly had secretly planted in her garden.

Kalian knew that the reason Leilah had forced herself to burn the Molenze even while getting burned was because of him.

More precisely, it was to avoid causing him trouble.

Because if it became known that his aide was growing Molenze in her garden, his reputation would be damaged.

It would remain as a bad precedent, and when he tried to do something, the aristocrats would obviously keep interfering, so she had pushed herself that hard.

Kalian found such a Leilah admirable but also heartbreaking.

The fact that he hadn’t been able to protect her remained like a bitter resentment in his heart.

Kalian gently caressed the scar with his thumb.

“I’ll treat you well.”

Once was enough for regret. He had not even the slightest intention of repeating the same mistake.

“I’ll treat you so well that you won’t regret giving me your heart.”

Kalian whispered softly as he gently pressed his forehead against Leilah’s forehead.

“Thank you for trusting me and opening your heart to me.”

“…I’m sorry for giving you my answer so late.”

“Even now is fast enough.”

Though it would have been nice if it were a bit faster.

Eyes filled with deep affection met wavering eyes.

The wavering eyes soon regained stability and formed a beautiful smile.

“Then shall we go.”

“Yes.”

Before we go, let me tidy you up a bit.”

Kalian straightened Leilah’s disheveled hair and clothes.

Leilah, entrusting herself to his touch, suddenly looked outside the window.

Just a few days ago the trees had been bare, but at some point, fresh green sprouts had begun to emerge on the desolately withered branches.

Just like in her heart.

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