Black Killer Whale Baby - Chapter 284

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Side Story: Act 9
I held my breath for a moment.
“…I’ve truly made a terrible mistake.”
“What?”
“So please, don’t abandon me.”
I blinked.
It had been a long time since my mind came to such a complete standstill. I thought seriously about this.
…What? When did I ever say I was abandoning Hauser?
‘There’s a possibility I lost my memory for a moment…’
As if that were possible.
Hauser buried his face against me, holding me from behind. As if he didn’t want me to see his expression.
I pressed down on Hauser’s head repeatedly.
“Wait, just wait. Let’s talk about this for a moment…”
“Don’t abandon me.”
“No, I understand, so let’s just talk about it?”
“Don’t abandon me.”
“…”
I stopped pushing and sighed instead. Then I gently patted his head.
“You’re absolutely shameless…”
Once he realized I was letting him be, he subtly tightened his grip on me.
‘Cunning bastard…’
This is where Hauser and Levai’s ways of loving differed.
My strategist, who usually boasted of his schemes and manipulations, was surprisingly straightforward when it came to love.
“There are two people who never lie, and the Princess is one of them.”
He had deceived me by pretending to have no memory before. But now I understand. That was simply how he packaged his fear.
Fear that there might no longer be a place for him within me. Fear that our past would remain only as the past.
…Fear that he alone would be left behind.
I once truly believed that erasing the past and looking only forward was the right path.
Even now, I don’t think that belief was wrong. I simply came to acknowledge that the memories of my third cycle also compose who I am now.
I died having suppressed too much resentment and sorrow to simply forget and move on. Those shattered lives still surface whenever I close my eyes.
It will remain that way until I die.
‘It’s ironic. My deaths in the first and second cycles don’t bother me at all.’
Yet I fear I’ll never forget your deaths for as long as I live.
I gently stroked Hauser’s hair.
“Only acting like a child when it’s disadvantageous.”
“…”
When my fingertips touched the back of his hand, Hauser’s hand flinched.
“…That’s the only way. You’ll look after me, won’t you?”
“So you’ve been watching me with that desperate gaze every single day?”
“…You knew?”
“You knew.”
You would understand what period I’m referring to. We must be thinking of the same thing.
“And you knew it too.”
“…I knew it far too well.”
A sigh escaped through his throat.
“How could I not know the years the Matriarch pretended not to understand my feelings while knowing them all along…?”
“…”
“In this life, I went to find Lineius because I wanted to be more helpful to you than anyone else.”
Hauser seemed to clench his mouth shut for a moment.
“Who could have known that damned Dolphin Retainer would cling to you from childhood?”
“…What?”
“If I’d known it would be like this, I would have sought you out the moment I was born.”
“What what?”
It wasn’t a misunderstanding. Hauser was grinding his teeth in frustration.
I was dumbfounded.
“Why do you always burn with rivalry only against Levai…?”
I have four husbands. Yet he constantly bickered with Levai and displayed fierce competitive spirit.
“Isn’t that only natural?”
“What’s natural about it?”
“Because now I know well that only he and I share something special with the Matriarch.”
I paused for a moment.
“Besides, I learned too late that the Matriarch is weak to cute things. No, I suspected it, but…”
Hauser didn’t give me time to think long.
I pulled my arm away from him and turned around.
“What are you talking about now?”
“I thought you preferred strength more. This is the worst mistake of this life.”
“That’s exactly…”
“If there is a next life, I will follow you then as well.”
“…”
I was momentarily at a loss for words.
I have lost the power of time now. It means I will no longer repeat regression.
Since we cannot know what happens after a person dies, we cannot know what the next life will be like.
Yet Hauser spoke of the next life calmly. As if it were the most natural thing.
“…What if you don’t remember?”
“You will still be the Matriarch.”
“Why don’t you just change your name to wolf. So devoted…”
“If the Matriarch liked wolves, I would gladly wear a mask. I can endure the stench of mainland creatures…”
“Don’t take it seriously—it was a joke.”
“I was joking too.”
Even as he spoke peacefully, his sunken eyes never left me.
An obsessive gaze that never changed, even across lifetimes.
I couldn’t help but laugh softly.
“In the next life, I might not remember you at all.”
“Then that would be even better.”
Hauser stepped closer.
His sharply defined jaw came into view.
In nature, the Orca was a benevolent creature—a gentle force that willingly aided other animals.
Yet watching him retaliate mercilessly against those who threatened his young made one acutely aware of his power.
I’d always thought he was a mutant among Orcas.
But one thing was certain.
He showed no mercy to those who touched what belonged within his domain—that instinct alone drove him.
“Since all those wretches have vanished from the Matriarch’s mind.”
“….”
“Then, all I need to do is carve myself into your memory.”
I lowered my head and chuckled despite myself.
“I’ll suffocate from your obsession, you fool.”
Yet I reached up and caressed Hauser’s cheek as he drew near.
I closed my eyes slowly.
His lips found mine.
“…You will never know how fortunate this moment is for me—to be allowed such things from you.”
Even so, both Hauser and Levai were the type to cherish their comrades deeply.
Scars, large or small, would surely remain etched somewhere in their hearts.
As long as those scars existed, we would always share something extraordinary in our lives.
It wasn’t so bad.
Instead of answering, I gently toyed with Hauser’s cheek.
When I opened my eyes, the area beneath his eyes was flushed red. The face of someone holding back tears.
He still looked as though he had so much to say to me—in the past and now.
“This is enough. In this lifetime….”
He lifted my hand and pressed his lips against my palm for a long moment, then licked it before.
He gently bit my fingertips and suddenly pulled me close by the waist.
“Gently, gently.”
“When was that ever possible?”
“…Insolent bastard.”
The face of Hauser looking up at me was flushed. That expression stained with desire and impulse was quite beautiful.
“…Will you bear the child of this insolent bastard?”
Outdoors isn’t my preference, you fool.
* * *
My stamina was being allocated to all the wrong places, wasn’t it?
‘Perhaps it’s strange that my back is still intact….’
I contemplated this seriously.
In the end, during the day I carefully verified once more that Cali was unharmed, then went to find Heila locked in the Prison and had a conversation with Agenor as he interrogated her.
After that, I headed to the Study with Hauser. The reason it was the Study was simple.
My husbands all kept such vigilant eyes watching each other’s rooms that it was suffocating.
I didn’t mind either way, but considering the aftermath, this was the better choice.
“Do you know how adorable I was in my childhood?”
Hauser said this. However, his lower half moving so vigorously was anything but adorable.
To say such things while moving so intensely…
“Ah, hah, y-yes, that would be true…? Ah, wait a moment. Mmph!”
“Since you’re a handsome man now, you must have been a beautiful boy back then.”
He whispered intensely with damp, fervent eyes about how adorable he was in his childhood.
That not seeing it would be a lifelong regret for him. Though he already had so many regrets that I wasn’t sure there was room for another.
“If only I could, I’d become young again right now and show you.”
“Ah… to that extent?”
As Hauser seemed dissatisfied and tried to change position while stretching his eyes, I quickly went along with it.
“Yes, that’s right! Cali would be happy to have made a friend…”
“…”
“…What? That wasn’t the right answer? Hey, hey, wait a moment! Not that far, mmph!”
It seemed that wasn’t the right answer. I thought my back was going to give out today.
Since Hauser also worried greatly about Cali, perhaps he was releasing all his pent-up anxiety here after confirming once more that the young boy was safe. In any case, he was passionate.
I slowly came back to my senses from my recollection.
Before my eyes was a small young boy sleeping soundly.
My daughter, who looks exactly like me.

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