That Piece Of Trash Was Me - Chapter 287

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Side Story Chapter 5

He found it amusing how twisted his own thoughts were. He had called everyone who desired him monsters, yet he wished for her to desire him.

That this was his true, innermost feeling.

“Tulia Frazier…”

He murmured.

No matter how many times he called her name, it wasn’t enough. Whether it was thirst, hunger, or some other kind of emptiness.

Ferdinand wanted to grow. He desperately wanted to mature.

For her to desire him properly, to explore him freely. He earnestly wished to feel something other than guilt about such desires.

He had always wanted to escape this form, but this was the first time he had wished for growth as intensely as he did in this moment.

Earlier, it had been the pain of every bone in his body being reassembled. He would gladly endure that several more times.

He simply wanted to grow. He wanted to have the solid body that young men of this age possessed.

So that, so that he could kiss that girl, embrace her, and lay her down somewhere quiet and intimate…

Thump.

Suddenly, truly suddenly, pain struck. Agony that felt like his heart was being twisted seized him, and Ferdinand involuntarily let out a groan.

He could no longer continue his thoughts.

Ferdinand nearly screamed from the pain that felt like his entire body was burning in flames.

He lost consciousness just like that.

How many times did that happen?

No, how many dozens of times did that happen?

Every time Ferdinand barely regained consciousness, the brightness outside the window kept changing.

He lost consciousness again while looking at the night sky that was simply dark.

Then when he opened his eyes, the sky was already growing pale, and after fainting and regaining consciousness again, everything before his eyes was tinged red.

It was so agonizing that he thought he might die like this, but he didn’t even have the strength left to pull the bell rope.

He fainted again while looking at the dawn sky, and then…

When he finally opened his eyes. Ferdinand let out a rough breath.

His entire body ached as if it would shatter, but there was something even stranger than that.

The bed that had always been spacious, the ceiling that had been so high, somehow felt strangely narrow and small. The thought that fleetingly crossed his mind quickly disappeared.

Knock knock.

“Your Highness, it’s time to wake up…”

The servants who entered cautiously approached the bed. As soon as they saw Ferdinand, they fell into shock.

Their expressions were as if they were looking at a sun that had stepped wrongly into the world.

They soon let out shrill screams and retreated. No, it was closer to fleeing because they couldn’t handle this tremendous news.

“What’s that about now.”

Ferdinand frowned and sat up in bed. He wondered if Empress Carmi had given some other novel order.

He habitually ran his hand over his face, then suddenly stopped.

“…?”

He blinked several times while looking down at his hands.

“Why are my hands…?”

The boy’s hands that had remained merely elegant and slender no matter how much he gripped and swung a sword had completely changed.

Large hands that seemed like they could grasp both of Tulia Frazier’s hands at once and still have room.

Ferdinand stared blankly as his gaze dropped to his lower abdomen.

His muscled stomach and solid thighs, and above all, his elegantly elongated calves…

Ferdinand jumped up a beat late. Without even putting on slippers, he ran barefoot to the mirror and muttered in a daze.

“Is this a dream?”

But the figure in the mirror was no lie.

A complete young man with chocolate brown hair and red eyes stood there with a stunned expression.

Only after quite some time had passed did Ferdinand realize that he wasn’t wearing a single thread.

The silk pajamas he had been wearing seemed to have torn as his body grew throughout the night. His underwear was the same…

Ferdinand let out a hollow laugh and walked back to the bed. Naturally, there were no clothes in the wardrobe that would fit this body.

Only the pure white blanket could cover his lower body.

Then, as if the news had already spread, the Chief Attendant of the Crown Prince Palace came running. He too was one of Carmi’s pawns, but his expression changed when he saw the grown Ferdinand.

The Chief Attendant looked like he had finished his calculations in an instant. Since Ferdinand had lived observing people’s expressions from childhood, he could quickly guess what the Chief Attendant was thinking.

If he was going to change the leash he was holding, he was willing to offer it gladly.

“Your Highness…”

It was a respectful voice tinged with awe, but Ferdinand was concerned about something else.

“How much time is left until the banquet?”

“Three hours remain…”

“First, make sure those who just ran out keep their mouths shut.”

“Understood, Your Highness.”

The Chief Attendant then bowed deeply and said.

“I’ll hurry to get suitable clothes.”

Glancing down briefly, he calmly gauged the size and added.

“I’ll also find underwear that fits as best as possible. However, I probably won’t be able to get them right away…”

Ferdinand was momentarily dumbfounded, but servants who had worked in the palace for a long time had different brain structures.

The Chief Attendant, having decided to change masters, hurriedly guided Ferdinand to the bathtub.

“Your Highness, shall I send someone to inform His Majesty the Emperor?”

The Chief Attendant was wise. Having decided to betray his old master, he didn’t even mention Empress Carmi.

Ferdinand was still half in a daze. Anyone would be like that if they suddenly experienced such a thing.

Seeing his body that boasted a distinct volume even in the bathtub filled with hot water, a strange thrill suddenly ran up his spine.

He had grown.

His body had truly grown. Like a lie, he had escaped from being a boy and become a young man.

Now that he had a body that suited her, Ferdinand felt like he was dreaming the entire time.

No, wasn’t this actually still a dream?

Wasn’t he dreaming the dream he wanted to have?

Ferdinand finally tried slapping his own cheek, and only after feeling the sharp pain several times did he come to his senses.

The Chief Attendant was quietly bowing his head and standing guard beside him. Before long, Ferdinand returned to his cold Crown Prince demeanor and gave orders.

“There’s no need to inform anyone. I’ll tell His Majesty directly later.”

“Understood, Your Highness.”

Ferdinand soon fell into contemplation. Until now, he had always attended banquets dressed in attire befitting a boy. But now…

“…Damn it.”

When he visited the Frazier Mansion, when he impulsively proposed to Tulia Frazier, he should have asked.

What she would be wearing today.

But there was no time to ask now, nor was there time to tailor clothes accordingly.

In the end, Ferdinand had to try on all the hastily prepared clothes one by one before choosing the best one.

Among them were expensive clothes that Empress Carmi had prepared to mock him, so Ferdinand pondered for quite a while.

“Your Highness, you should start heading to the Golden Hall soon.”

Ferdinand nodded at the Chief Attendant’s urging.

He knew that clear nervousness had crossed his face reflected in the mirror.

Had his body grown while his heart still remained that of a boy?

His tense nerves were focused on one thing.

What would that precious daughter of the Fraziers think of his grown appearance?

Would she like it?

Would she think it was fine, not bad?

Ferdinand walked down the stairs slowly with a very nervous heart, but with an expression that looked infinitely cold on the surface.

Countless faces colored with shock passed by like mist.

“Lady Tulia Frazier.”

Ferdinand stopped before the girl he had searched for so desperately in his dreams.

“Dance the first dance with me.”

Please, may she find his appearance pleasing.

With the earnest heart of a boy, he prayed and prayed again.

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