That Piece Of Trash Was Me - Chapter 231

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Chapter 231

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It was familiar paper.

 

“Do you remember this?”

 

“Of course.”

 

I continued slowly.

 

“That’s the 100 billion gold you brought when you proposed to me, Benjamin.”

 

“That’s right.”

 

Benjamin, who looked at me out of habit, took out a fountain pen. It was an expensive fountain pen decorated with gold and silver ornaments.

 

“Originally, I was going to sell myself to you with this money.”

 

“….”

 

“Though you didn’t accept it.”

 

“….”

 

He drew a cancellation line over the numbers. It was a resolute movement like slashing a heart with a sword.

 

“There was one thing I was curious about regarding you.”

 

Benjamin lowered his head and spoke while meticulously drawing lines through all the numbers.

 

“If you didn’t like me, you could have just rejected me normally, so why did you hurt me so severely….”

 

His voice was calm.

 

“No matter how much I thought and thought again, I couldn’t find an answer to that question.”

 

I watched Benjamin’s golden long eyelashes as he canceled the proposal. His beautiful eyes were covered by dense shadows, casting a desolate light.

 

“Did you invite me to ask that? Benjamin.”

 

“No.”

 

“…?”

 

“That doesn’t matter anymore.”

 

Benjamin smiled slowly.

 

“I’m going to buy you. Lady Tulia.”

 

I looked down at the paper placed in front of me. And soon, my vision gradually became distant.

 

Because the enormous number of 100 billion gold had all been changed to different numbers with one additional stroke each.

 

 

 

-999, 999, 999, 999

 

 

 

* * *

 

 

 

Benjamin Fluas.

 

He gazed observantly at Tulia, who was silently staring at the paper. Her wide green eyes.

 

He was pleased with such a change in her. Being surprised by someone meant wariness had arisen, and wariness meant feeling fear toward that person.

 

And humans generally only feel fear when they fall to the position of prey.

 

Prey and predator.

 

She, Tulia Frazier, had always been like a predator to Benjamin. More precisely, she was like the sky to him.

 

He thought it would be fine to mortgage his entire life, no, he wished and wished for it—even a priest begging God for salvation wouldn’t be more desperate than this.

 

Tulia Frazier asked.

 

“What is this money?”

 

Benjamin smiled.

 

“I will buy you with this money.”

 

Benjamin captured in his eyes the entire sequence of her doubting her ears and lifting her head.

 

“I want to buy you as my master. Lady Tulia.”

 

Even speaking from heart to heart, his throat choked up.

 

He belatedly realized that only these words were his true feelings.

 

That was right.

 

From a very young age, Benjamin had only wanted to say these words to her.

 

Sell yourself to me.

 

Sell yourself to me and own me.

 

The twisted tree swelled its body into a grotesque shape within the small box.

 

Sometimes he had such thoughts.

 

What if there had been a little more sunlight in his life? What if there had been a little more fresh rainwater?

 

But there were no “what ifs” in life, and thus in Benjamin’s life too, there was only Tulia Frazier, this woman.

 

Benjamin lowered his head and laughed.

 

“I know. You wouldn’t have such feelings, Young Lady.”

 

He didn’t want to read more closely the complex sympathy that passed through her eyes.

 

In truth, Benjamin too had given up on many things long ago.

 

“In the past, I wanted to be with you even in this way.”

 

A dregs-like bitterness remained in his chest.

 

“Now it’s fine. After that day, what I want from you has changed.”

 

“What do you want from me? Benjamin.”

 

Benjamin wore a gentle smile.

 

“I wish you would die.”

 

Tulia looked at Benjamin for a moment. Then she asked.

 

“Why?”

 

“Because you don’t love me.”

 

Benjamin couldn’t guess what she might be thinking.

 

Would she be resentful that he didn’t know gratitude? Would she think she shouldn’t have saved such a monster? Would she think that after spending money to care for him, he dared to climb above her head?

 

He smiled quietly.

 

None of it mattered anymore.

 

“Lady Tulia.”

 

Benjamin took out a small glass jar from his chest.

 

“Do you know how I prepared this enormous sum?”

 

How wretched, cruel, and impoverished he had been to gather this money.

 

Sometimes it was money he had earned by selling even his dignity and life, but Benjamin didn’t want to explain all of that in detail.

 

He simply took out a small glass jar from his chest.

 

A honey-like gleam flickered and disappeared in the small glass jar.

 

“Unethical, immoral. I’ve done all sorts of dirty work. I took on anything that paid, without discrimination, to grow my trading companies.”

 

He wanted to ask if she was disappointed in him.

 

“Thanks to that, I also obtained such a rare mysterious potion.”

 

He wanted to ask if he looked base to her.

 

“They said it would be easy to understand if I called it something like the original version of the love potion that appears in legends….”

 

Click.

 

Benjamin opened the cork of the glass jar.

 

Into one of the two identical teacups, the half-empty one, a colorless and odorless liquid mixed in.

 

Benjamin pushed the teacup mixed with the mysterious potion toward Tulia.

 

“They said if you drink this, you’ll either love me or die from heartache. One of the two.”

 

 

 

“Mix it and feed it to your target. They will feel eternal love for the first person they see.”

 

“If they don’t love, they’ll suffer enough to die—it’s a sacred artifact. We only have a few bottles of this truly precious item.”

 

 

 

“Of course, you won’t drink it obediently. So I brought information that might interest you, Young Lady.”

 

Benjamin’s gaze wandered around Tulia’s neck area.

 

“I’m talking about your blue diamond necklace that stirred up the continent recently, Young Lady.”

 

Among the countless things he had traded, there were of course people as well.

 

“When that tremendous necklace disappeared, not only the Grand Ducal House but also the Imperial Palace dispatched soldiers on a massive scale.”

 

He had tried to obtain a better diamond necklace, but it wasn’t easy.

 

“But contrary to what is publicly known, the Knights of Grand Duke Frazier House also handle the duty of protecting children.”

 

Tulia’s expression changed slightly upon hearing that story. She seemed a bit surprised. She knew. The fact that Benjamin had noticed something.

 

Yes.

 

When would I ever see her make such a surprised expression again?

 

This much was enough.

 

The thought that this much was sufficient kept rising like waves, and Benjamin forcibly suppressed it.

 

“Lady Tulia.”

 

He cleared his thoughts and wore a faint smile.

 

He encouraged himself that there was no need to hide anymore.

 

He had endured for so very long.

 

He no longer had to pretend to be lowly or pitiful.

 

He whispered to himself several times that the opportunity to finally obtain her had at last arrived.

 

In truth, he had hoped some demon would possess him and whisper continuously. Only then would he be able to barely reveal his twisted desires.

 

“I’ve come to know an interesting business partner. They wanted me to sell ‘children’ of unclear origins.”

 

With his intellect, he couldn’t fail to deduce that Grand Duke Frazier House and that secret business partner were in some kind of chase relationship.

 

“That information, its source, even the exact location. I’ll give you everything. If only you would drink this mysterious potion.”

 

“…”

 

“Will you drink it? Lady Tulia.”

 

Light green eyes stared directly at him.

 

Benjamin gracefully tilted the teacup placed before him first. Then he smiled gently as usual.

 

Unless it was a special situation, he always wore such a smile. The more the beautiful prince smiled, the easier it was for people to feel favorable toward him.

 

Even the princesses who had insulted him blushed, and one of the King’s young concubines even secretly crawled into Benjamin’s bed.

 

Benjamin knew that the more frightening, scary, and unfamiliar a situation was, the more he just needed to smile. He had learned this quite early in life.

 

So Benjamin had smiled like a clown for very long days. When he threw away even his pride and kept smiling, quite a lot of things got resolved. He thought it was comfortable.

 

Did he really think it was comfortable?

 

So on the day when he would put an end to this long, long yearning, it was proper that he should smile.

 

Did he really think it was proper?

 

Weak strength entered Benjamin’s hands that had been placed neatly on his thighs. He struggled to erase the thoughts that kept rising intermittently.

 

Clatter.

 

Tulia pushed back her chair and stood up. Benjamin smiled and raised his head.

 

“Are you leaving?”

 

She moved her steps without a word. He thought she might slap his cheek like this, or perhaps pass by him and go outside.

 

However, he slowly fell into shock.

 

“…”

 

Because Tulia Frazier, that woman, was lifting and tilting the teacup.

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