Resetting Lady - Chapter 161

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“…Kyaaaah!”

Karen slipped. Mud splattered everywhere. Tears flowed from her eyes.

“Sob… sob.”

Karen tied a rope to a tree and made a knot. This should kill me. Karen remembered the illustrations from the popular novels that the maids read. Even without her own identity, such memories remained. That was fortunate. Karen felt relieved as she put her head through the round knot.

Everyone can go to hell!

“Why…”

Karen fell down. The knot wasn’t tied securely. Her neck was injured. The rope fell to the ground. Karen stood up and cried. She was sixteen years old now. It had been several years since Mother died. Her memories were fragmentary and cut off, and she spent most of her time in a daze.

She looked up at the manor.

How long could she remain herself? Did seventeen years old refer to her birthday? If not today, would she succeed if she died tomorrow? But after failing, she was afraid to die again. Her throat hurt.

How long can I live as myself?

I entered inside the book.

To escape from inside the book, I must love. I must have true love and be united with him. This novel is a romance novel. If I achieve true love, I will obtain all happiness.

It’s okay.

It’s a garden where rain is falling. Karen shivered from the cold. Home, I need to go home. It’s cold. She almost tripped over the rope that got caught on her feet, but Karen went up to her room. Strangely, she could tell which room was hers.

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“I think Mother is a bit crazy.”

“Miss, don’t speak that way about Mrs. Catherine. She’s a good person.”

Nancy, who received a house, salary, and respect from Catherine, wanted to repay her gratitude in her own way. But Karen replied to Nancy in a fed-up voice.

“Then does our mother seem normal to you? Drugging and brainwashing her daughter?”

“…”

“See?”

She thought she understood the reason.

Catherine had also gotten too deeply involved with a powerful crazy man like Guiz. But at that time, Prince Guiz was the country’s top marriage prospect. He was the future king, handsome, and loved Catherine.

Catherine probably wouldn’t have been satisfied with any other man besides him. Karen knew well that choosing a man based solely on character was foolish. But Guiz was too crazy.

Catherine was tormented by him, and she too was mentally cornered by repeating death many times. And she must have felt disillusioned with the persistent fear of death, escape through pregnancy, and all of that.

Karen understood why her mother had acted that way. That didn’t mean she approved of her actions as the victim, though.

How many times did Catherine die trying to escape from him? Karen was curious about that.

“How many times did Mother say she died?”

“She never said such things.”

“…I see.”

“How many times have you died, Miss?”

Nancy asked. Karen frowned as she thought. How many times had I died?

“106 times, I think.”

“Even delusions… that’s really specific.”

Karen sighed as she looked at Nancy, who still didn’t believe her this time either.

Nancy did have affection for Karen in her own way. You could tell from how carefully she took care of her. But she also had arrogance. Her inferiority complex from her background combined with her conceit that she could manipulate Karen’s mind, making her subtly look down on Karen.

It wasn’t very pleasant, but she didn’t want to bother wrestling with a gun again over life and death. Nancy wouldn’t betray as long as she was properly bribed with money. She had tried this and that, so this much was tolerable. She seemed to have become quite mellow with age.

“Sigh…”

Karen flopped backward. She lay on the bed again and rolled around. What should she do first this time? She wanted to live more leisurely before Raymond came. Just knowing that this wasn’t the end and that someone remembered her made such a difference.

What should she do if she couldn’t succeed next time? Dying peacefully in Raymond’s arms like last time wasn’t bad either.

“Miss, what are you doing when you’re old enough to know better?”

“Playing caterpillar.”

Karen replied while rolling herself up in the blanket. Nancy was shocked and unrolled the blanket that Karen had wrapped herself in.

“Don’t act so childishly when you’re grown up. I didn’t raise you like this.”

“You know I came in already grown up. What do you mean you raised me?”

You know my nanny when I was little was Mrs. Deere. When Karen retorted, Nancy laughed awkwardly.

“Why do you remember even such things?”

“Anyway, I won’t cause any more trouble, so don’t try to brainwash me. As I said, I’ll give you more money.”

“Alright, alright.”

Nancy nodded. For her part, when Karen was showing such a stable state, she didn’t want to force Karen into brainwashing again, crying and wailing, and forcibly shoving medicine into her mouth.

Karen still talked about the delusion of being reborn (Nancy absolutely couldn’t believe it), but anyway, seeing her in such a stable state was really the first time in a long while.

Moreover, if she would give her plenty of extra money, Nancy was willing to betray the Lord and side with Karen. After all, it was true that she felt more attached to Karen, whom she had cared for.

“So what are you going to do? It’s almost your birthday and Lord Dulan will come. There’s an engagement ceremony then.”

Should she meet Dulan? Karen felt like a lump of lead was stuck in her chest. That bastard. Her teeth ground together. The biggest problem was that he couldn’t even remember.

And because he blindly believed in repetition and eternal life, no threats or torture worked on him. Since there was no answer, she didn’t want to meet him either. Even torture became halfhearted. After failing five times in a row, she thought she should just think of another method.

“Am I infertile?”

“Pardon?”

That was too out of the blue. Karen spoke to Nancy again.

“I think Dulan made me infertile. Do you know anything about that? Did Mother order such things too?”

“I don’t really… know.”

Not much help.

“It makes me sad when you look at me like that…”

“I’m the one who wants to cry, so don’t whine.”

“Oh my.”

Did Dulan make Karen completely infertile? Even though she was with Raymond for months, pregnancy failed. During that time, she ate only food that Raymond made, but it was still like that. She thought Dulan had put medicine in her food to force contraception.

But she thought she would get pregnant after spending that much time with Raymond at Tess Manor, so maybe what Dulan did to her body started much earlier than she thought.

Karen twisted her hair.

If Dulan had made Karen completely infertile, there was no answer. Raymond and Karen would be trapped in eternally repeating time. Neither he nor she wanted that.

Because there were two instead of one, she wasn’t desperate to die right away, but two alone wasn’t enough. They wanted to live in the world together, not be eternally submerged in a world of just the two of them.

But how did Raymond remember her?

Karen lay on her stomach, swinging her legs and resting her chin on her hands. There were too many mysteries.

“First, I won’t get engaged to Dulan.”

“Oh my, really? Even if you break off the engagement later, wouldn’t it be better to get engaged first? The invitations have already been sent.”

“Send word that it’s postponed again. I won’t get engaged to that guy.”

“Hmm…”

Nancy looked troubled and didn’t know what to do. Karen realized that she was ultimately just a maid who couldn’t even convey Karen’s intention to break off the engagement, so she got up from the bed. She had to speak directly to the Lord herself to settle this.

“Father!”

Karen flung open the door and deliberately shouted. It was a childish preemptive strike. The Lord sitting in his study opened his eyes wide and looked at Karen striding in. His expression was awkward beyond measure.

“…Oh, yes. Karen, it’s been a while.”

“Why has it been a while? We live in the same house.”

“…Lord, the Miss is… well.”

Nancy approached the Lord hesitantly and spoke. Karen looked at Nancy and put her finger to her lips. Shh, just stay quiet.

“I remembered.”

“…I see.”

When the Lord gestured to the servants behind him, Karen raised her hand and said absolutely not. If they made her lose her memory again this time, everything she had built up would disappear. That absolutely couldn’t happen.

“I’m fine now. My mind is very clear and stable right now.”

“…”

“…”

People stared at her. Karen smiled brightly and spoke again.

“I’m telling you it’s true. I’m really fine.”

It took quite a while to convince the Lord.

“First, I won’t get engaged to Dulan.”

The Lord shook his head.

“Dulan isn’t a bad choice. Your mother and I chose him after much deliberation. Considering age and kinship relations, he’ll be the next Lord. Thinking about that, marrying you would be the most reasonable. Also, he’s taken good care of you since childhood. You don’t know how actively he helped Catherine’s plan.”

She knew too well, and that was the problem. That’s why he fed Karen sedatives, contraceptives, and maybe even made Karen infertile. He even pushed her off the tower once. Thinking about that, Karen felt her head starting to ache again. Should she kill him one more time?

“He promised to gladly break off the engagement if you said you loved someone. Such an understanding young man is rare.”

Understanding? Karen had to try hard to stay calm. If she lost her reason in anger here, that would truly be the end. Behind her were men ready to subdue Karen at any time, and beside her stood Nancy, who would ultimately have to follow the Lord’s orders.

Calm down. Not getting engaged to Dulan was more important. She didn’t want to get engaged and then break it off either. She was sick of even seeing his face.

“That’s a bust.”

Karen answered firmly.

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