My Body Has Been Possessed By Someone - Chapter 275

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Side Story Episode 6
This time, it is Kanna’s voice that poses the question.
“Alex, can you promise?”
‘No, I cannot keep that promise.’
Yet it had seemed possible.
At twenty years old, it had.
In those days when I knew nothing of defeat, when my mind was filled entirely with the glory of victory until it grew tedious, I had believed such things were within my grasp.
Not knowing pain, despair, or anguish—not knowing how terribly cruel such things could be.
That arrogant spring of my twentieth year had transformed all the years that followed into a desolate winter.
‘No, I cannot endure this any longer.’
I can bear sleeplessness, Evil Spirits, and short lives—all of it—but not this.
Not this desolation of having become something less than human, a mere beast.
I simply cannot endure it.
He stood motionless in place.
‘I can do no more.’
Kanna.
I promised to protect you.
I looked into your eyes, took your hand, and swore an oath.
That I would save you, so rest assured. Believe in me. I promised.
But I am sorry.
I cannot keep that promise. Resent me.
No, do not resent me. I have done all I could.
‘Let me go to Kanna.’
I will obtain a small amount of her blood and draw the spell formation that Seon-hee taught me. Then Seon-hee will come.
I will tell that woman I can do no more, that she must save her own daughter, and then I will escape this agony.
I had decided. Now only execution remained. The moment he took a step forward.
“See you again.”
A moan escaped his throat. He stopped once more. Despite the absence of any hallucinogenic substance, the voice that echoed made Alexandro want to scream instead.
“See you again.”
Why.
Why must you leave such cruel words behind, preventing me from even fleeing?
Must you destroy me this thoroughly just so you alone might live?
That is not all. You uttered an even greater curse. Did you not say we would meet in a future where we could reminisce about our shared past together?
You are cunning. You are selfish. So you could never have imagined the suffering I would endure. That is why you dared leave such sweet words behind like a curse.
If only you had left nothing behind, perhaps I could have escaped….
“Um.”
Then, from behind him, came the voice of that child.
Not a hallucination, not a delusion, but Kanna’s real voice.
“Are you alright?”
His breath stopped.
I couldn’t breathe at all.
For a moment, it felt as though I were being murdered.
‘Kanna Adis.’
You, that existence, you were destroying me.
“There, I….”
I ignored her. I walked away as though fleeing.
From Kanna Adis, from that destroyer who sought to annihilate his pride, his honor, his very soul and essence.
Only after I had fled like a coward for some time did I finally stop.
Alexandro Adis closed his eyes. He tried to hold back, but could not. Anguish surged up like molten lava, flowing down like blood across his cheeks. The skin burned with a throbbing, searing pain.
It was then that Alexandro Adis understood.
This suffering, this guilt would never be erased.
* * *
That night, he sought out the hallucinogen one last time.
Alexandro Adis gazed silently at the illusion, his chin resting in his hand. On the sofa across from him, Kanna Adis met his gaze.
Suddenly, doubt crept in.
At twenty, he had certainly loved this woman. He believed he still loves her. He believes it, and yet….
Did he truly?
Was it truly love?
Or was it obsession over the promise he had sworn?
Perhaps what remained was lingering attachment to a first love that had vanished like foam, clinging like stubbornness. For he, who had possessed everything from the moment of birth, had lacked only one thing.
Perhaps if he had turned his eyes to another woman afterward, he might have lived a different life now.
Whether this was love, obsession, or merely a curse-like promise that remained, he did not know.
What was certain was that in this moment, she alone remained his only one.
Kanna Adis was his only passion, his only lingering affection, his only tenderness.
And so for the past several years, he had created a phantom of Kanna Adis and spent time with her.
As a lover. As a refuge.
Tenderly. Sweetly. In secret.
It was madness.
Alexandro Adis now realized that he had spent time worse than a beast.
That woman lived in reality as the eldest daughter of Adis.
“I will keep my promise.”
Alexandro Adis murmured, gazing at her.
“But with you, this ends here.”
That day, Alexandro Adis killed his first love.
He buried her deep and created a grave.
And he never unearthed it again.
* * *
After that, he no longer sought out the hallucinogen.
Yet enduring without any rest amid the Evil Spirit and sleeplessness was a difficult task.
“Create a drug that will rob me of consciousness.”
“Alexandro Adis, that’s even more dangerous than a hallucinogen.”
“I don’t care.”
Time passed in this manner. By now, I no longer felt even the urge to abandon my promise.
‘It’s already too late.’
I had crossed too many paths to live a proper life anymore.
Alexandro Adis no longer regretted or agonized over anything. I simply walked forward in silence.
And so, at some point, saving Kanna Adis began to feel like my very purpose. In truth, I couldn’t endure without thinking of it that way.
Rather, I would believe I was born to save Kanna Adis. She would erase the World Tree and seal the Black Rift in the future.
So perhaps I was born to protect the woman who would save the world.
Such a fate wouldn’t be so terrible.
So it’s no longer because of love. It cannot be because of love.
The world would never permit it, and more than that, I could not permit it myself. I could never forgive myself.
Alexandro Adis avoided meeting the real Kanna Adis as much as possible. Every time our eyes met, I felt like a repulsive monster and couldn’t bear it.
But someday, the day would come when I must meet her gaze. The day I encounter Kanna Adis from the past once more.
Imagining that day, a corner of my chest froze with a chill. As if suppressing a heat that roiled from the depths, coldly.
Suddenly, I grew curious.
What is the nature of this heat?
Is it fear, anticipation? Or perhaps resentment?
Or is it still….
Alexandro Adis laughed bitterly.
Well, I don’t know. In truth, I didn’t want to know. I would understand once we meet again anyway.
Then everything would become clear.
Whether I would come to regret and resent this time I endure so harshly, or whether I would even be grateful for this suffering—I would know then.
But one thing was certain, whatever it might be.
“Please wait for me.”
Alexandro Adis was waiting.
“In a future where we can reminisce about the same past together.”
“Until we meet again.”
For that day.
For that future.

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