My Body Has Been Possessed By Someone - Chapter 274

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Side Story 5
It must be my imagination. Kanna Adis is still just a baby without teeth.
‘Is it because of the severity of my injuries? I don’t seem to be in my right mind.’
I’m exhausted. Worn down.
Alexandro Adis exhaled a long sigh and lifted the baby into his arms. Then he murmured.
“Let’s go back.”
To Adis.
* * *
Fight and endure.
Fight and endure.
Such was the endless cycle of my days.
Then, at some point, insomnia found me—a side effect of my body’s time standing still.
Insomnia ravaged my life swiftly. My head began to feel perpetually heavy, like cotton soaked in water. The passage of time itself felt dull and sluggish.
“Ah, hello there.”
“….”
When did she grow so much?
Alexandro Adis returned to the Valentino Estate as soon as he recovered from his injuries. It had been half a year since his return.
And at that moment, the child was speaking.
‘When did she start talking?’
The last time I remembered her, she could only babble things like “aba, abububa.”
“How old are you?”
“Th-three years old….”
Already three years old? Suddenly, something felt terribly wrong.
“You….”
Just as I was about to say something.
“Kill her. Kill her now.”
“Go ahead and kill her. If you don’t kill her now, you’ll regret it later.”
When will I ever get used to this?
Alexandro Adis clamped his mouth shut. The relentless curses and voices scattered my thoughts. Because of them, I began to struggle in conversation with others.
‘At this rate, I’ll become mute.’
Alexandro Adis ultimately turned away without saying a word to the young girl.
My head throbbed as if it might split open. And damn it, this pain had already become routine.
“The hallucinogenic drug.”
“But Alexandro….”
“It’s fine.”
By now, I had become completely addicted to and dependent on the hallucinogenic drug. There was no helping it. It was the only pillar supporting me, the sole thing that allowed me to endure.
“Alex, how was your day?”
Perhaps because of my addiction to the hallucinogenic drug? The Kanna Adis in my hallucinations could now speak.
“It was awful.”
I willingly surrendered myself to the drug’s grip.
“A finger was severed. It took a week to grow back.”
“You’re a monster.”
At Kanna Adis’s words, Alexandro Adis let out a short laugh.
“That’s rich coming from you. This happened because of you.”
“Thank you, Alex. I think I might be able to love you again.”
“Don’t talk nonsense.”
“I’m just saying what you want to hear. You know I’m nothing but an illusion.”
“….”
“I don’t exist in this moment.”
“I know.”
Kanna Adis approached and stood beside him. Alexandro Adis gazed up at her intently before letting out a rueful smile.
“Then which moment do you exist in?”
He reached out and grasped at her hair. Yet all that met his fingers was the transparent warmth of white light.
He stared blankly at her hair—those black strands he had never once been able to touch.
Suddenly, a question arose within me.
Why do I go to such lengths?
Is it because I cannot forget her, so I strive to keep my promise?
Or do I strive not to forget her in order to keep my promise?
Now I could no longer discern which came first. Yet one thing was certain—if I did not do this….
“If you find you cannot continue, call for me anytime.”
Alexandro Adis shut his eyes tightly.
‘No. No, that’s not it.’
He forcefully shoved that fleeting desire deep into the darkness.
Back then, he had boasted to Seon-hee.
That such a thing would never happen.
“Thank you, Alex.”
But finding solace in false sweetness was acceptable. It would be acceptable.
“Save me, Alex.”
Alexandro Adis’s lower lashes trembled with a spasm. The hallucination whispered at his ear.
“Let’s meet again.”
* * *
Time passed.
Gradually, everything crumbled and grew numb. He slowly adapted to his shattered, ruined life.
Had he not seen Kanna Adis’s hallucinations, he could not have endured even this much.
Almost every night, he sought the hallucinogen. He called for Kanna Adis.
“It’s all because I match your taste.”
Kanna Adis laughed brazenly.
“If I hadn’t been shaped to your preferences, you wouldn’t have been able to endure like this.”
“Perhaps not.”
“It’s because I’m beautiful.”
“Yes.”
“Honestly, you’re quite difficult. I’ve known since you were picky about food.”
“Is that so.”
“This is boring. Even if I’m just a hallucination, you’re barely engaging in conversation.”
Kanna Adis frowned with displeasure, and even the wrinkles between her brows were beautiful. Just as the hallucination said, she was his ideal from head to toe.
Alexandro Adis sometimes found that fact pathetic.
“You’re truly a fool.”
The hallucination scraped deep into his inner self.
“Only idiots devote their entire lives to a woman they spent a single moment with.”
“Yes.”
Alexandro laughed at himself bitterly.
“I’m broken.”
The hallucination grew increasingly hazy. Its potency was waning.
Watching the fading hallucination, Alexandro closed his eyes.
“Alex. Don’t give up on me. Only you can save me.”
The hallucination whispered one last time.
“Until we meet again.”
It was sweet.
It was agonizing.
* * *
Alexandro summoned Kanna Adis’s hallucination every single day.
Sometimes, when fatigue clouded his mind, he forgot she was merely a hallucination. It felt as though she were beside him, sharing the same moment in time.
Thus time slipped away.
“Um.”
Alexandro turned his body.
“Over there…”
A young girl with black hair hanging messily. It was her.
“Um, um, I wanted to ask you something…”
Staring down at the stammering child, Alexandro thought to himself.
‘Was she six years old this year?’
It seemed about right.
Then the child suddenly lifted her head. Her bangs slipped to the side, revealing her eyes.
The moment his gaze met her large, dark pupils, Alexandro’s breath caught.
“Um, well.”
The child’s beauty mark stood out starkly beneath the sunlight.
That mark belonging to the woman he loved so dearly…
“What kind of person is my mother?”
…was on this child’s face.
Alexandro’s eyes reddened. Emotions that had been building slowly began to churn violently. Shame and self-loathing drove him into thorns.
Damn it all.
“…Kanna Adis.”
O Divine One,
Why, in all the heavens, do you inflict such punishment upon me?
“Never again, before my eyes.”
In that moment, it seemed as though I heard the Divine’s answer.
Child, why did you walk into hell with your own two feet?
“Do not speak of that woman.”
With those words, I turned away. In that same instant, a searing pain tore through my chest, and my expression crumbled.
The child’s face bore Kanna Adis’s likeness.
Of course it did. They were the same person, after all.
Why did I only now truly comprehend that obvious truth?
‘Yes. They are the same person.’
I had known. I had acted knowing this. I had convinced myself it was acceptable because I sought no reward in return.
But it was not.
It was not acceptable.
Years ago, when I had created an unwanted child, that same self-loathing had consumed me—a feeling bordering on self-destruction that now twisted my visage.
Filthy. Repugnant.
A rotting rag would be cleaner than I. The revulsion was so overwhelming that I wished to end myself then and there.
Suddenly, Seon-hee’s voice echoed in my mind.
“Alexandro, you really can do anything, can’t you?”
‘I cannot.’
Alexandro finally admitted the truth, though far too late.
‘I cannot.’

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