Let’s Make Saving a Habit - Chapter 147

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Chapter 4
The day after I somehow made it through the night with Elysion.
I boldly dumped my work on Ron, my aide, telling him I’d be taking a leave of absence for a while.
He protested, struck by this sudden thunderbolt from a clear sky, but….
What could he do? When your superior says to do something, you do it.
After taking some time to rest, think things through, and clear my head, I visited the clinic with only Raspi, my escort, in tow.
It was a different physician than the one I’d seen yesterday.
I’d gone to confirm whether the previous diagnosis might have been wrong, but the result was the same.
I was pregnant.
Even though he was a different physician from the one who’d examined me yesterday, he smiled and congratulated me on the pregnancy just the same.
I accepted the congratulations in a daze and left the clinic.
Though I was hearing it for the second time, I still couldn’t quite believe it.
Because I’d traveled some distance to keep the people of the Papiope Household from knowing I’d visited the clinic, I was in the midst of the carriage ride back when it happened.
“Lady Tania, it will soon be lunchtime. Is there anything you’d like to eat?”
“I don’t want to eat anything, but there is something I’d like to drink.”
Color rose to Raspi’s face.
“If you tell me, I’ll procure it as quickly as possible.”
“I want to down a shot of coffee loaded with ice.”
“Lady Tania, that….”
“I know, I can’t have it.”
I replied petulantly, slumping back in my seat.
The fact that I had to give up coffee, which I’d drunk without hesitation until yesterday before hearing about the pregnancy, felt utterly despairing.
“Raspi.”
“Yes?”
“Do I seem like I’m not happy about being pregnant?”
“….”
Raspi seemed at a loss for words and didn’t speak readily.
Then he opened his mouth with careful deliberation.
“Perhaps it simply hasn’t sunk in yet.”
“So it seems like I’m not happy about it.”
“No, that’s not it. If you truly disliked the child, you wouldn’t be troubled like this. You would have thought to rewind time from the start, wouldn’t you?”
“Hmm, that’s true.”
In fact, among my saved timepoints, there was one saved before I became pregnant.
This was because, after promising Elysion I wouldn’t carelessly turn back time with him, I’d been restraining my use of it as much as possible.
In other words, if I wanted to, I could undo this at any moment.
But since I had no intention of abandoning a life already conceived, I’d naturally excluded it from my options.
As I fell silent, lost in thought, Raspi added as if to comfort me.
“Time will resolve it.”
“I hope so.”

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A week had passed since I learned I was pregnant.
I still couldn’t settle my restless heart.
By now, my worries had begun to multiply.
Did I truly want to have this child?
Was it right to bear a child with such ambivalent feelings?
I even began to suspect that because I grew up without parents, I lacked maternal instinct entirely.
The thought terrified me—that with such a mindset, I could never become a good parent.
I confided these anxious thoughts only to Raspi, the sole person who knew of my pregnancy.
Given the circumstances, my worries had inevitably infected him as well.
I was the one carrying the child, yet Raspi was the one consumed by unease.
These days, he insisted on staying by my side at all times, except when I used the privy or slept.
As my guard knight, he was always near me anyway, but his intensity had grown considerably.
Even when I could walk alone, he fretted and tried to support me.
If I had no appetite, he would fetch this and that, urging me to eat.
Elysion, my fiancé and current lover, could hardly have failed to notice such changes.
While I read in the garden, he appeared suddenly and began to whine.
“Tania, aren’t you spending far too much time with that bastard lately?”
“He’s my guard knight, so of course he stays close. How else would he protect me?”
I understood Elysion’s jealousy well enough.
But even if I replaced him with another guard, I would still need constant protection throughout the day.
At that, Elysion pouted and rubbed his face against my neck.
“Why can’t I be your guard? I want to stay by your side all day long.”
“What about your duties?”
“Mmm, you could just support me, couldn’t you?”
His shameless reply drew a hollow laugh from me, and I grabbed his shoulder firmly.
“Sion, supporting you for life would be nothing for me.”
“Tania…!”
Apparently not expecting such a reassuring response, he gazed at me with wide, glistening eyes.
“But the Magic Tower people need you to survive.”
“…Would the Magic Tower really collapse just because I’m gone?”
“It seems it would.”
…
Elysion fell silent, recalling the time before he joined the Magic Tower.
The current Magic Tower Master and the mages had virtually no sense of finances.
Whenever money appeared, they recklessly poured it into research without a second thought, perpetually suffering chronic deficits.
“If you left the Magic Tower because of me, the Magic Tower Master might not even grant us permission to marry.”
“Ha, what does it matter whether that old man approves or not?”
If the Magic Tower Master heard that, he would surely weep—or collapse, clutching the back of his neck.
“Old man? You should call him Father.”
I shook my head and habitually brought the mug to my lips, gulping down what I thought was coffee.
Only then did I realize, belatedly, that what I’d drunk wasn’t coffee at all—it was plain water.
It was nothing serious, yet my mood plummeted into the depths in an instant.
Yesterday, I’d even rejected the wine Elysion brought, insisting on setting the mood.
Why does everything feel so impossible lately?
Fatigue seemed to accumulate rapidly, and my emotions swung wildly without reason.
With such turbulent feelings, I couldn’t seem to organize my thoughts at all.
Just as irritation threatened to surge from the hormonal chaos, a brilliant idea struck me like lightning.
If my hormones were preventing me from thinking clearly, couldn’t I simply return to a point before the pregnancy and reconsider everything from there?
Having made the swift decision to spend my vacation elsewhere, I seized the moment and opened my mouth without hesitation.
“Elysion, I have a favor to ask.”
“Hmm? What is it?”
“I want to take a vacation.”
At that, Elysion’s face bloomed brilliantly, like spring flowers in full bloom.
“What a wonderful idea! Should we think of it as a pre-honeymoon and go somewhere with a nice atmosphere?”
He seemed to be misunderstanding something.
I firmly pushed him away as he leaned toward me and spoke.
“No. I’m going on vacation alone. The reason I’m asking you is because I’m planning to travel to a different point in time.”
In other words…
“Please give me permission.”
The old me would have simply shifted the timeline without asking permission.
But since I’d made a promise with Elysion, it was only proper to ask for his consent.
Elysion blinked, clearly not understanding what he’d just heard.
Then, in an instant, his expression hardened, and he asked seriously.
“Tania, did something happen?”
“No.”
“Don’t lie. Tell me honestly. You promised to rely on me if anything came up.”
Elysion’s eyes wavered with anxiety.
“Or did I do something wrong?”
“You didn’t do anything wrong. It’s just that my condition hasn’t been good lately, so I thought I’d take a break to refresh myself…”
Wait, was that really it?
Now that I thought about it, Elysion bore significant responsibility for my current state…!
I was contemplating whether I had the right to grab him by the collar when he quickly suppressed his worry and spoke in a rush.
“That period should have passed by now, yet you keep refusing me at night. Lately, you’ve been eating without really eating, and you’re spacing out more often. And now you’re talking about taking a vacation, which you never used to do.”
He knew everything.
I was struck anew by just how carefully Elysion observed me.
I hadn’t experienced morning sickness yet. But my appetite had diminished, so I was eating less than usual.
Still, thinking of the child inside me, I was forcing myself to eat, which was why I managed even this much.
Yes. No matter how I thought about it, all of this was due to hormones.
Yeah. No matter how much I think about it, all of this is entirely due to hormones.
“Then how do we resolve it?”
“Elysion.”
I grabbed both his cheeks and spoke rapidly.
“If you agree, you breathe. If you refuse, you do three aerial cartwheels.”
“What…?”
While Elysion was still stunned, I quickly brought my finger beneath his nose.
“You’re breathing.”
I broke into the brightest smile I’d managed since our conversation began today.
“Then I’ll take that as your consent.”
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