I Became the Wife of the Hero Who Killed Me - Chapter 154

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#Episode 154

 

“Hmm, doing this doesn’t seem particularly seductive though…”

 

I spat out the rose I had been holding in my mouth with a “ptui.”

 

Even a tangled ball of yarn would probably be neater than the inside of my head right now.

 

With my first experience ahead of me, all sorts of thoughts crossed my mind, but none of them were particularly useful.

 

Feeling deflated, I just flopped down on the bed.

 

“To think I would have this kind of relationship with Edwin.”

 

In the past, I truly couldn’t have imagined such a thing.

 

And it was only possible because the current Edwin was a completely different person from the Edwin of the past.

 

Despite having the same name and the same face…

 

In a world where everything except me was the same as the past, the only thing that had changed was Edwin.

 

To be precise, he was the only being who had changed regardless of my intervention.

 

‘After my lord received the ducal title, there was a rebellion by the Royal Guard during his first campaign. Half the personnel were slaughtered in the process of suppression.’

 

‘I am the sole master of Lombard, and that’s not a position that can be proven by something like a small ring.’

 

Even before I became ‘Elisia,’ the time he had walked was very different from what I had known.

 

“What could have happened in this life?”

 

Edwin had a tendency to be overly protective of me. I understood his feelings well, but the degree was excessive.

 

There were times when he seemed to have lost something very precious in the past and been left with an indelible trauma.

 

‘Surely it wasn’t a woman, was it?’

 

My fists were about to clench involuntarily, but I composed myself.

 

Actually, it wasn’t as if I had no idea what it might be.

 

From what I had heard, his personality had changed greatly after the death of the Former Duke Lombard… that is, Father.

 

It was consistent testimony from the long-time close associates who had stayed by Edwin’s side.

 

It seemed that the previous generation in this life, unlike the past when he was utterly cold, had been a warm and good father.

 

“Sigh, I don’t know.”

 

This was all just speculation. There were many parts about the current Edwin that I didn’t know.

 

Nevertheless, I had decided to love him and made up my mind to become a true married couple with him.

 

Nothing else mattered.

 

“Still, I suppose it would be better to hold the rose in my mouth after all.”

 

I slyly picked up the rose I had spat out.

 

* * *

 

Edwin walked slowly through the deserted corridor.

 

He wanted to give Elisia, who would be waiting in the bedroom, time to organize her thoughts, and at the same time, he wanted to calm his heart that was beating as if it would burst.

 

Tonight, they would become husband and wife.

 

After wandering through countless worlds to get her back, after an eon-like passage of time, they had finally come to share the same feelings.

 

‘Will I be able to become a good husband?’

 

Whether his deficiencies might disappoint her, whether he might fail to protect her as he had in the past when he was powerless and knew nothing…

 

Anxiety that led to more anxiety sometimes caught Edwin by the ankle.

 

‘I chose you. No other reason matters at all. I simply love you.’

 

So these words were like salvation to him.

 

Elisia loved him. And she truly wanted to become husband and wife with him.

 

Since she had been brave first, he no longer wanted to run away cowardly.

 

Edwin, standing in front of the bedroom, knocked gently.

 

“I’m coming in.”

 

Edwin, who had entered inside, unconsciously stopped walking.

 

He could feel her scent filling the air.

 

Though he had always liked Elisia’s body scent, given the current situation, it felt dizzyingly seductive.

 

His gaze moved to the bed where moonlight was scattered.

 

Edwin discovered a small silhouette lying demurely on top of it.

 

“Elisia?”

 

As he approached closer, she was for some reason sleeping soundly with a rose in her mouth.

 

It seemed she had finished preparing and fallen asleep while waiting for him.

 

Normally he wouldn’t have bothered to wake her, but tonight was different.

 

It was their wedding night.

 

“Elisia, I’m here.”

 

Edwin carefully removed the rose stem from between her lips and kissed his wife.

 

After waking her with a sweet kiss, he planned to proceed with their wedding night slowly and gently so she wouldn’t be frightened.

 

“Please open your eyes now.”

 

It was the moment he was about to kiss her again while whispering her name.

 

Her shoulders trembled faintly.

 

“St-stop…”

 

“Elisia?”

 

“No, that can’t be. You couldn’t have… betrayed me, no.”

 

A pained voice flowed out intermittently. Something was strange. She seemed to be having a nightmare.

 

Edwin hurriedly shook Elisia’s shoulders.

 

“Elisia, wake up. Elisia!”

 

“N-no!!”

 

Her eyes that snapped open had no focus.

 

She struggled wildly, trying to tear away Edwin’s arms that were holding her.

 

She scratched with her nails, drawing bright red marks on his hands, but she didn’t stop in her panic.

 

“Aah, don’t! No!!”

 

“Elisia…!”

 

“Filthy traitor, I gave you everything!!”

 

The more Edwin called her name, the more violent her resistance became.

 

When she finally began clawing at her own neck and chest as if tearing them apart, the startled Edwin quickly got up from the bed and stepped back.

 

“Please, don’t hurt yourself. You can do anything to me, so please.”

 

“…Ah.”

 

Had her senses finally returned?

 

Elisia, who had been dazed for a while, bit her trembling lips.

 

But her eyes looking around the bedroom shrouded in darkness were rippling with indescribable anxiety.

 

Edwin hurriedly lit the lights in the room.

 

He removed the decorations that had been softly covering the candlelight and added firewood while working the bellows on the dying fireplace.

 

As the view brightened, Elisia seemed to realize that everything had been a dream.

 

He could see her tense muscles gradually relaxing.

 

“Elisia, are you alright?”

 

“S-sorry… I had a bad dream. I had a scary nightmare.”

 

Even while shaking her head saying she was fine, her tongue kept stiffening as if the aftereffects of the nightmare remained.

 

Edwin’s gaze fell to her nape. The places she had wildly scratched while rejecting him were swollen bright red.

 

He wanted to check the condition of the wounds in detail.

 

But he couldn’t readily reach out his hand for fear that Elisia might be frightened.

 

Even though he didn’t want to know what nightmare she had, why she had so desperately pushed him away the moment she woke up, he couldn’t help but know.

 

He felt as if his heart was being carved up.

 

“Would it be better if I disappeared from your sight?”

 

“….”

 

“I’ll call Elisia’s servant. Perhaps talking with someone else might help you feel better.”

 

“In my dream… you became a terrifying monster.”

 

Edwin stopped in his tracks.

 

Elisia struggled to sit up, hugging her knees as she murmured.

 

“You were truly a terrifying monster. So horrible I don’t even want to remember it again.”

 

“Did that monster hurt you?”

 

“…Yes.”

 

A single tear dropped from Elisia’s pale cheek.

 

“It completely shattered my body and soul.”

 

Edwin could no longer bear it.

 

The one who had destroyed her was his past self. Because he was incompetent, he couldn’t protect her, and in the process, he inflicted irreversible wounds.

 

Just as he turned away, trying to disappear from her sight, a pitiful crying voice reached him.

 

“Don’t… don’t leave me alone…”

 

“Aren’t you afraid of having me by your side?”

 

“The you in my dream and the you standing before me now are completely different people. So you should comfort me. Where are you going?”

 

No, they were actually the same person.

 

The scoundrel who shattered you completely in the dream and the deceiver who now whispers love before you, pretending to know nothing, were the same person.

 

He wanted to run away.

 

He couldn’t bear this guilt any longer.

 

Yet Edwin couldn’t resist Elisia’s tears. Putting on the expression of a hypocrite, he approached her, pretending as if he had done nothing wrong.

 

“Come up here…”

 

Helplessly drawn by the weak force pulling at his wrist, he climbed onto the bed and embraced her.

 

Edwin’s chest slowly became wet with Elisia’s silent tears.

 

“Shh, it’s alright.”

 

Edwin held her trembling body even tighter.

 

In this moment, he wished he could just die.

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