I Became a Leader in a Wretched Prison - Chapter 203

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Chapter 203

I was lightly flying over the grass field in the deep dawn.

Levitation ability was a power I rarely used since it consumed an unnecessarily large amount of Kia.

But I had no choice.

‘It’s still there even after using Healing Kia.’

The dull sensation and sharp pain that remained even after healing felt strange.

Should I stimulate him moderately next time?

But I couldn’t say I didn’t understand Helios either.

Earlier, I mentioned that compatibility between Kia users also affects sexual relationships.

Our relationship had excessively good compatibility. You could say it was a relationship that affected Helios more between the two of us.

The moment my Kia mixed in, Helios seemed to be swept up in extreme excitement.

“…I’m sorry, hah, I apologize. Haah… self-control, can go to hell.”

The sight of his usually restrained and ascetic, almost pure face becoming disheveled.

It was such a spectacular view that even after seeing it, I wanted to see it again.

‘I can’t miss that.’

I decided to just endure a bit more myself.

I could use all Kia abilities, but even so, there seemed to be compatibility issues.

Depending on the ability, there were some that imposed penalties like psychometry, and others that consumed too much Kia like levitation ability.

And there were abilities I knew I could use, but instinctively knew I would pay an irreversible price if I used them.

Even so, I couldn’t deny that it was a superior ability that held an advantage over all other ability users.

As I finished my thoughts, I landed softly on the ground.

“Nice night.”

The person who had only shown their back flinched and trembled. It was a thin back.

“Or is it dawn?”

The person slowly turned their head. Still a youthful face, scattered with freckles.

“…Brother?”

It was Seth.

Unlike Ged and Haira, this was the first time I’d seen Seth since I saw him when he was confined.

“I felt some Kia in the garden so I came to check, and it was a familiar presence.”

“Ah…”

Seth made a troubled expression, then hesitantly withdrew his Kia.

“I didn’t know I was using enough to stimulate you, Brother. I’m sorry.”

“It’s nothing to apologize for.”

I sank down onto a bench in the garden.

“When you feel Kia to the point of boredom, there are things you end up sensing even when you don’t want to.”

I muttered leisurely.

“Maybe it’s because I’ve seen so many dead people, but those who want to die scream from their Kia first.”

“…Me?”

Seth had a puzzled expression.

Come to think of it, when I was in prison, I thought Seth resembled something when I looked at him.

I don’t know what I felt he resembled. That feeling still remained.

I could only speculate.

The day I made constraints and vows to become stronger myself in order to save Mama, I wondered if it corresponded to the price I paid.

That didn’t mean I suddenly felt affectionate or attached to Seth before my eyes.

In my world, there was still only Helios.

However, since he seemed to be someone Helios cared enough about to bring from prison.

“If you have worries, don’t you have good colleagues?”

“…I can’t tell Brother Ged or Sister about it. No, I won’t be able to.”

Seth made a slightly discontented yet sorrowful expression.

“I really wanted to escape from prison. But now that I’ve escaped, it’s strange that this world is so peaceful.”

I tilted my head.

“How did I get released…? I feel like I’ll open my eyes in prison again at any moment. Everything feels like a dream.”

Honestly, it was something I couldn’t understand.

Come to think of it, didn’t they say Seth’s sentence was about 50 years? It’s not a life sentence, but it’s long.

“…Have you never felt that way, Brother?”

Even though he was no longer my ‘brother,’ Seth asked me like a child.

He survived so fiercely in prison, but now looking at reality where nothing had changed, he felt empty.

At the same time, he was afraid that all of this might be a dream.

Even hearing it again made me tilt my head.

“I see. Maybe it’s because I live more fiercely? I’m not sure.”

“As expected, strong people like Brother wouldn’t have such thoughts, right?”

Seth scratched his cheek and smiled slightly. He had definitely grown more than I remembered.

“I’m out, but I don’t know what to do. I don’t have goals like Sister Haira, nor do I have targets for revenge like Brother Ged. The organization that put me in prison has already disappeared.”

I don’t know why his eyes carried depression like someone about to die.

Though I had heard from a prisoner long ago. Some released prisoners suffer from depression.

“Brother, have you never wanted to die?”

I had stubbornly endured my whole life for survival. I don’t think I ever felt that way.

But.

“Hmm, well.”

I think it was like that until Mama died.

“After getting released somehow and killing the bastard who framed me.”

Would I really have any goals after that? Even though this was a book world, I had no interest in the original story.

If I hadn’t met Helios.

“After killing him, if there was nothing left to do, I think I considered dying too.”

Until I met Helios, Mama was the only existence I cared about in the world, and I had lost that person.

This was when all that remained was Mama’s will.

“What about now?”

“I’m happy.”

“….”

Seth looked down for a moment, then stared at me again.

“Could I become like that too?”

“How would I know.”

It was an indifferent answer, but Seth just smiled without any change in expression. As if he had expected as much.

As I quietly looked at Seth, I felt like I understood a little.

“Come to think of it.”

This too was probably an emotion I wouldn’t have realized if I hadn’t met Helios.

“Very occasionally, I do feel like I’ve returned to prison.”

It seemed to happen when I opened my eyes in the middle of the night. On rare days when I hadn’t been intimate with Helios.

Looking at the dark sky.

It wasn’t different from the darkness I saw in prison. It felt like I would have to go out to play the survival game again.

It was an abyss.

Come to think of it, it seemed like a sensation that could never be erased no matter what.

Since I suddenly opened my eyes in this world one day.

What if the world changed again one day?

What if Helios disappeared?

“Isn’t there a way to completely possess someone?”

“Excuse me…?”

Looking at Seth, I suddenly realized.

What I harbored and what I lacked.

“No matter how much I think about it, there doesn’t seem to be such a method.”

I looked at my wrist.

“That would be greed.”

I can see the faintly glowing blue string. Even though I’ve already given my life to Helios.

“Out of fear, I can’t control every move, every breath.”

Is it because my head is broken that I can only think this way?

I told Helios that we were both broken people.

But between the two of us, who is the one that’s irreparably broken?

I know very well.

“The sentiment of wanting to kill someone just to keep them by my side because I don’t want to lose them isn’t normal.”

“….”

“The desire to bind someone’s soul to mine regardless of their suffering, thinking I might suddenly disappear someday, wouldn’t be normal either.”

It’s already been over 10 years since I came to this world.

“Or we could die together on the same day. Then we’d never be separated.”

The possibility of me returning to Korea is low, but if that really happened. Wouldn’t there be a way to take Helios with me?

Would dying together before that be too extreme?

“…I feel like I heard something incredible after asking for advice.”

“Think of it as a consultation fee.”

“You didn’t even give me any consultation.”

I chuckled at Seth’s grumbling.

“…But are you really going to die together? You were just saying that, right?”

“Why, are you worried I’ll take you along?”

“You won’t take me, right?”

“If you want me to. I could send you on the path to the underworld.”

“N-no! I don’t want to die right now.”

“Then it’s settled.”

Seth’s eyes widened.

“In the end, you don’t want to die either, do you?”

“…”

Seth, who had been opening and closing his mouth for a moment, trembled all over.

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