A Blank Slate Regression for the Idol That Lost His Original Mindset - Chapter 562

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A Regression Guide for Idols Who Lost Their Original Intent Episode 562

Of course, Gyeon Hajun and Ryu Jaehee tried to stop me.

“Either I or Hajun hyung will try talking to him, so please just stay still, hyung. You staying still would be helping us.”

“That’s right, Eden. Don’t make Yehyeon hyung even more depressed and just leave it to us.”

The reason was that it wouldn’t turn into a serious consultation.

But naturally, when someone tells you not to do something, you want to do it even more. And if I succeeded in resolving Seo Yehyeon’s depression, it seemed like it would help establish my authority as leader.

So I chose the method of barging into Seo Yehyeon’s room late at night, just before he fell asleep.

Knock knock-

When I knocked and entered, Seo Yehyeon, who had already finished preparing for bed, sat up abruptly with a flustered face.

“What is it?”

Instead of answering, I pulled up a chair and sat down, creating a face-to-face setup with Seo Yehyeon. During my slump, we shared the same room so it was possible to have consultations lying on each other’s beds, but now we had separate rooms so that wasn’t possible.

“What do you mean what. I heard hyung has been feeling depressed lately, or it seems like it, so I came as leader for a consultation. I think the cause is me, but Hajun and Youngest Member think differently? So I wanted to ask hyung directly to be sure.”

“Who’s feeling depressed? Me?”

Seo Yehyeon asked with a displeased face. As his entertainment industry experience accumulated, even Seo Yehyeon, who couldn’t act, had become quite good at hiding his expressions.

However, if his voice had been filled with the same incredulous emotion as his expression, I might have been fooled into thinking Gyeon Hajun and Ryu Jaehee had seen wrong.

But unfortunately, Seo Yehyeon, who was terrible at acting, asked in a voice as calm and unperturbed as if reading from a textbook, so honestly that anyone could tell he was indeed the one who seemed depressed.

When I narrowed my eyes instead of answering, Seo Yehyeon returned his eyes to their normal size and asked weakly while patting both cheeks a couple times.

“…Did it show?”

Of course, I hadn’t noticed until Gyeon Hajun told me, but to appear as a reliable leader worthy of confiding troubles in, I nodded.

“Did it also show that the cause was you?”

“Oh, that was just a guess. Looks like I was right?”

“Damn… I figured as much.”

Seo Yehyeon’s face became gloomy as he voluntarily confessed that the cause was indeed me without me even having to ask.

“Surprisingly, you didn’t really do anything wrong.”

“Can you tell me why that’s surprising first? It’s really not surprising at all.”

“It’s not that I’m depressed… I just started thinking a lot more.”

“I’ll listen carefully, so spill it. Hyung listened to my story during my slump too. This is how we make it even.”

Thinking he might open up more easily to someone he felt psychologically indebted to, I casually brought up my slump period, and Seo Yehyeon quickly took the bait.

“Your solo album and solo stage were cooler than I expected.”

It was the reason I had predicted, but hearing it directly from Seo Yehyeon’s mouth made my thoughts complicated. Unaware of my feelings, Seo Yehyeon smiled bitterly and continued.

“So seeing that made me greedy too, but with my skills and capabilities, my greed seems like a luxury. That’s why I felt bitter. I wasn’t depressed.”

Among Rev’s five members, Seo Yehyeon was the only one not recognized for music.

As for me, well, I was skilled enough in rap to win a hip-hop survival show, and I’d proven my composing ability with my work so far.

Ryu Jaehee and Gyeon Hajun proved their skills through vocal competitions and solo song chart rankings.

Kim Dobin lacked vocal skills, but his dance ability to express music with his body was better than any of us. When people thought of idols who danced well, Kim Dobin was mentioned in the top five.

If given a song that matched Kim Dobin’s vocal range and abilities, he could easily dominate a stage alone with just his performance.

In Rev, a group recognized for musicality, only Seo Yehyeon had no musical talent he could showcase.

It was a fact everyone acknowledged that Seo Yehyeon contributed greatly to the group with his looks. Strictly speaking, Seo Yehyeon was definitely a core member who couldn’t be missing from Rev.

No one dared tell Seo Yehyeon he was a useless existence in Rev. Even antis who attacked rap, vocal, and dance skills acknowledged Seo Yehyeon’s face.

And Seo Yehyeon himself knew this fact very well. That’s why he was so obsessed with calorie and skin care.

“Wasn’t hyung not particularly interested in music? I thought hyung didn’t like it much because of the suffering in the recording studio and practice room.”

So I had assumed that Seo Yehyeon wouldn’t feel inferiority or regret about music, where he contributed less.

But Seo Yehyeon…

“Just because I’m not good at it doesn’t mean I can’t like it. I just have fewer things I can do, but it’s not like I had no affection or desire for it.”

He might have been more serious about music than I thought.

My mistake was mistaking his eyes shining with longing for my music as longing for me as a person.

I thought Seo Yehyeon had finally lost his mind. Or that my solo album was such an amazing masterpiece that it even influenced Seo Yehyeon.

Come to think of it, now and even before regression, there were so many places that called for Seo Yehyeon without requiring dance and song – luxury brand ambassador, corporate and bank commercial model, various CFs, photo shoots, award ceremony MC, brand launches and opening events, fashion shows, etc.

Even if he left the group, he wouldn’t have to practice choreography anymore or face his unenhanced skills in the recording studio and re-record repeatedly.

Looking back, there really was no particular reason for Seo Yehyeon to stay in Rev. Actually even less than me, who had contemplated leaving in the past.

“Why do you think I came to LnL, an idol agency, when I had business cards from modeling agencies and acting agencies? For reference, back then I thought I’d grow at least 5 centimeters taller and that my acting would improve just by attending acting academy. I didn’t come to LnL because I lacked confidence in those two options.”

Today I learned for the first time that he didn’t continue as an idol because everything was mediocre, but simply because he loved music.

We’ve been in the same group for over 10 years including before and after regression, yet there are still new things to learn…

“You used to tell me not to abandon you alone on the cold stage.”

“If I said I wanted to do solo activities, you’d definitely come up with songs and guides that suit me somehow. The problem is I can’t digest them 100%. So I just pretended I had no solo ambitions.”

It was the same vein as giving up on the follow-up song 【One Chance】 choreography practice because there was too little time and he was afraid of making mistakes on stage. Hesitating to even try if it couldn’t be perfect.

Looking at it this way, Seo Yehyeon was also truly consistent without losing his original intent.

“Ugh, I tried my best to manage my expression because I didn’t want to reveal this, but you caught on exactly. Usually you’re so oblivious.”

Seo Yehyeon groaned and roughly messed up his hair.

I didn’t notice. Gyeon Hajun and Ryu Jaehee were the ones who noticed. If you want to resent someone, don’t resent me, resent those two.

“I want to do cool solo stages like you, Hajun, or Youngest Member, but that’s my ideal, and reality is cold. Rev’s music image might get damaged because of me. I was just facing reality.”

My deduction that he wanted to release a cool solo album like me but became depressed after realizing the gap between his imagination and reality was ultimately correct.

Unless Seo Yehyeon raised his skills to match his ideals and made them reality, this was something I couldn’t help with. What could I do when he was facing reality too well?

“Want to switch rap skills with me, at least when hyung does solo activities?”

“Say something that makes sense.”

Seo Yehyeon grumbled that it was nonsense, but the system had already switched rap and vocal skills between me and Gyeon Hajun before.

So switching rap skills between Seo Yehyeon and me was theoretically possible. How would I know if that item might come out when opening random tickets?

If I said it was for the group’s survival, maybe the system would throw me an item or two?

Even so, it wouldn’t be Seo Yehyeon’s genuine skill, so the bitterness he felt wouldn’t disappear. And I’d definitely be furious taking on Seo Yehyeon’s rap skills.

“All our members are good, but everyone lacks confidence.”

How does it make sense that except for me, only Kim Dobin didn’t have confidence issues? Actually, Kim Dobin might have been the most brazen among us.

When I grumbled, Seo Yehyeon nodded in agreement.

“That’s really a mystery to me too. If I had Youngest Member or Hajun’s skills, I would have lived fearlessly. How can they lack confidence with those skills?”

“Hyung lacks confidence even with that face. It’s the same thing.”

“It’s different, okay? I’m plenty confident in my well-managed face, okay?”

While Gyeon Hajun and Ryu Jaehee are at least humble about their skills, should I really be worrying about this guy who overflows with confidence in areas he’s confident about?

Isn’t this the normal attitude when facing your own shortcomings?

“Cancel, cancel. Hyung really overflows with confidence. I’ll make you overflow with confidence on solo stages too.”

Looking at it this way, it was a pointless worry. I just need to make Seo Yehyeon digest it 100%.

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D-5 until DTB airs.

Seeing the team mission interim check approaching, I really felt that the first episode’s air date wasn’t far off either.

Among the five teams, the one who won the DTB team music mission producer interim check right was none other than Choi Hyeongjin.

With a lineup that could never have won if they had called the team leaders like in my time and made them compete with stage votes, but this time they changed it to a matching mission, perhaps because there wasn’t enough time until the air date to spare time for the team leaders’ stage preparation.

The format was to write down the producer you wanted to handle the interim check, and if that producer matched the producer who made the team beat, they’d give you the interim check right. Luckily, my beat was selected and Choi Hyeongjin, who persistently wrote my name for the interim check producer, won.

I couldn’t help but look forward to the work from the team that took my beat, even if the leader wasn’t necessarily Choi Hyeongjin. Because I had deliberately made it a high-difficulty beat that would only show its true value if utilized well.

The day before the team mission interim check.

[Choi Hyeongjin- Yo tomorrow I’m gonna fucking grill our team members so they can’t even breathe] 6:30 PM

For some reason, a text arrived that reminded me of my scheming during the team mission two years ago. I raised the corner of my mouth crookedly at the predictable situation.

That is my specialty, after all.

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