A Blank Slate Regression for the Idol That Lost His Original Mindset - Chapter 561

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A Regression Guide for Idols Who Lost Their Original Intent Episode 561

“Then we’ll take one last question and wrap up the OA live stream.”

“Since it’s the last question, Eden hyung, choose a question you want to answer.”

Ryu Jaehee handed me the phone showing the OA live stream. I skimmed through the questions flying up at a speed too fast to read properly and picked one that caught my eye the most.

“Someone asked whether this solo album was made as rapper Yoon Eden or as idol Yoon Eden.”

Before answering, I paused for a moment due to a sudden thought triggered by that question, then smiled naturally as if nothing happened and answered smoothly.

“I’ve maintained the same consistent stance since I appeared on DTB. I am Rev’s main rapper Yoon Eden, and this is Rev’s main rapper Yoon Eden’s ‘solo’ album.”

Previously, I pursued heavy and minority real hip-hop, but through Rev activities, my music style has changed to appropriately embrace both musicality and popularity.

Since this album contains 10 years of time, all the musical paths I’ve walked are contained within it, making it impossible to express this album’s identity in one word.

The intention behind this question was probably the same.

What exactly is this album’s identity? Which Yoon Eden is the speaker of this album?

There was only one thing I could answer. This is ‘my story’ containing both my past as a rapper and my present as an idol.

“Well, if idol Yoon Eden wasn’t in this album, about two-thirds of the bragging material in the 【Explicit】 lyrics would have disappeared, right?”

Most of the bragging material in those lyrics were things achieved as Rev. I mentioned that to conclude my answer.

“Yes, this concludes both the album introduction and Q&A. As for cookies… yes, we’ll find another way. See you at music shows next week, Daydream.”

As the closing remarks ended, we all waved at the camera in unison. Soon the camera turned off and the OA live stream ended.

Returning to the dormitory, we continued our celebration time by eating the solo debut congratulatory cake that appeared in the OA live stream.

Of course, Seo Yehyeon didn’t eat the cake, wondering how much sugar and butter went into it, and only drank water. Still, not stopping us from eating was Seo Yehyeon’s way of celebrating.

“But hyung, why did you buffer for a moment at the last question in the OA live stream?”

Though I thought I naturally passed it off without being noticed, Ryu Jaehee, who was sitting right next to me, seemed to have caught my brief hesitation when I suddenly fell into contemplation.

I ran my hand through the back of my hair awkwardly and said.

“I just wondered if this album could have come into the world if I had continued living as underground rapper Yoon Eden.”

After releasing my first solo full album, I suddenly had that thought.

Could the me who gave up on idol debut and returned to the underground have achieved as much as my current accomplishments?

Without facing Jiwon hyung’s direct bitter criticism about rap skills, without even having a chance to feel desperate about composition and producing, would the Yoon Eden who lived intoxicated by his own arrogance just like in childhood have never experienced failure?

My past self regretted choosing and staying on this path, but wouldn’t I have regretted it even if I chose the other path between the two?

Even the current me grew while being forced to live in a group with guys who were damn incompatible at first, but wouldn’t underground rapper Yoon Eden, who lived only with people compatible with him in an infinitely kind and finite world, never have come to his senses?

Yeah, I suddenly had that thought.

“Thank you, Jun.”

When I gave thanks to Gyeon Hajun, who had become a milestone at the beginning of this successful path I’m currently walking, Gyeon Hajun nodded with a somewhat awkward face, seemingly guessing the reason for my gratitude from context.

Come to think of it, if I had debuted with KICKS, I probably wouldn’t have faced such hardships at all, so I expanded the scope of gratitude to our members who gave me the first human relationship hardships of my life, helping my mental growth.

“Thank you, everyone.”

“Why us? For appearing in the music video?”

Kim Dobin, the second contributor to my hardships, asked in bewilderment.

“He finally realized that Rev has more than just one member named Hajun.”

Seo Yehyeon, the first contributor to my hardships, shook his head and spoke the wrong answer as if it were established fact.

Once I thought about the past, I couldn’t stop the memories from before regression from flowing like opening floodgates.

And the end of that was thirty-year-old Gyeon Hajun I saw at my funeral. Gyeon Hajun who pushed my back, who was trapped alone in memories of the past.

So I think I didn’t want to believe that I had pushed unbearable past memories onto Gyeon Hajun. And the truth that Gyeon Hajun willingly accepted them.

During a moment of brief contemplation.

Seo Yehyeon went into his room first, and while Kim Dobin and Ryu Jaehee were cleaning up trash and dishes, I converted the memories into debt and asked Gyeon Hajun.

“Hey, Jun. If I asked you to take on my debt, would you take it on?”

Though I threw out the question as lightly as possible wanting to hear his honest thoughts without burden, Gyeon Hajun, who seemed to take it seriously, thought for a moment and answered as usual.

“Well, it would depend on the amount, right?”

Then what amount of debt did 7 years + α of memories approach you as for you to willingly take them on?

Why did I push those memories onto you, and why did you take on those memories?

Did you back then also have memories of the first round where everything went wrong, like Seo Yehyeon who came with the 【All night or right】 sheet music he drew himself and mentioned auditions with a desperate face?

I just hope I’m not trash who practically forced memories onto you when you knew nothing.

Rather than feeling lighter, my heart became heavier, so as I was lost in thought with my eyes downcast, Gyeon Hajun quietly added a word.

“But I won’t co-sign for you.”

I never planned to ask you to co-sign in the first place, man.

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A week quickly passed since revealing all tracks of the album, and the first music show date approached.

I tried making cookies a couple times, but even adjusting the recipe, somehow only cookies with terrible taste were born, so I just outsourced to a bakery.

Even if it looks like it lacks sincerity, what can I do? I have to offer cookies that Daydream can actually eat.

Ensuring fans don’t go hungry came before showing my sincerity. My handmade cookies would mold and rot, so they can’t even be kept as mementos and would end up in the trash anyway.

Instead, I succeeded in reverse fan service with alphabet insertion using photo cards taken with alphabet props and hand shapes.

“We haven’t even had a comeback but it feels like we’ve come to music shows quite often this year. Don’t you think?”

“Just last month we came to support Hajun hyung. This time we’re coming to support Eden hyung.”

“Let’s speak correctly. Did you guys come with pure hearts to support Jun? You came to watch the three-way battle between KICKS, Parachute, and Hajun.”

“Hyung hyung, how about freestyle hip-hop dance to match the song as a first place promise? If freestyle is too hard, I’ll choreograph it for you right now. At a level that even hyung can master in 3 minutes.”

The members came together to support just the first day of music shows. This time there wasn’t a big event like a three-way battle like with Gyeon Hajun, so there was no need for everyone to swarm here.

When bored, I could just chat in waiting rooms of senior and junior acquaintances, so I wasn’t particularly bored either.

Standing completely alone on stage was truly the first time since DTB 4 finals round 2.

Filling over 3 minutes entirely with my own voice felt unfamiliar, but it was a complete opportunity to release that long-accumulated desire within me, making it approach even more intensely.

“M Countdown’s fifth week of May glorious first place goes to… Yoon Eden! Congratulations!”

I received the trophy from the MC and gave my acceptance speech.

“I’m truly honored to get first place in my first solo activities, and I’m grateful to everyone who accompanied me on the path to completing this album. Our Daydream who always supported me, and our members who came here to support the leader’s first broadcast, I sincerely express my gratitude. I’ll repay you with good music in the future. Thank you!”

Seeing the members applauding enthusiastically in the cheering section, I waved the trophy and smiled.

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Eden told me to put in retirement pension

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Seeing music show photocards expressing condolences on social search, I was momentarily flustered about how alphabets could randomly turn out like that, but I felt relieved thanks to Daydream who somehow interpreted it positively.

Just as I felt relieved about safely releasing the full album to the world without any issues.

“Don’t you think Yehyeon Hyung seems a bit depressed lately?”

I blinked and asked back at Gyeon Hajun’s question.

“Huh, really?”

Lately, DTB filming and solo activities overlapped, so I didn’t have time to pay attention to Seo Yehyeon. Of course, even if I hadn’t been busy, whether I could have caught Seo Yehyeon’s depression was questionable.

“Did he look at a convex mirror or something? Maybe he saw that and mistakenly thought he gained weight and got depressed?”

No matter how much I thought about it, that was the only reason I could think of for Seo Yehyeon to be depressed.

“Is it burnout? Yehyeon Hyung has had a lot of individual schedules lately.”

Gyeon Hajun, who habitually ignored my words, made a worried face and seriously speculated about the reason.

“Or maybe he saw some malicious comments about his looks? If someone who manages themselves like Yehyeon Hyung encounters appearance hate comments, it would really make him hate the world.”

I think even Seo Yehyeon would feel that kind of hate comment was bullshit after looking in the mirror once.

“No way…”

“Do you have any idea what the reason might be?”

When I suddenly frowned and muttered at a thought that came to mind, Ryu Jaehee asked with a half-believing face.

“Isn’t it because he wants to release a cool solo album like me? But he realized the gap between his imagination and reality and got depressed.”

The two didn’t even respond to my perfect deduction and were busy sharing opinions with each other, trying to figure out the reason for Seo Yehyeon’s depression.

Is this how a breadwinner feels when ignored at home?

I missed Kim Dobin, who at least played the role of agreeing with me by my side. It was regrettable that our reaction specialist fake youngest member wasn’t here because he was filming Travel Trouble.

“Will we get an answer by talking among ourselves all day like this? We should just ask the person directly.”

In the end, I decided to take charge as the breadwinner and leader and have a serious consultation with Seo Yehyeon.

Hmm, it’s not a serious reason, right?

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