A Blank Slate Regression for the Idol That Lost His Original Mindset - Chapter 246

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A Regression Guide for Idols Who Lost Their Initial Intentions Episode 246

 

 

In the warm atmosphere, Kim Dobin raised one hand sneakily and asked.

 

“Would it be okay if I sleep on the studio sofa?”

“Yawn, wouldn’t it be better if we all go to the dormitory and get some proper sleep?”

 

Ryu Jaehee, who seemed quite exhausted from staying up all night, yawned while suggesting an alternative. I could guess Gyeon Hajun’s opinion without him saying anything, seeing his tired face as he pressed around his eyes.

 

The only person who was energetic in the dormitory this early morning was Seo Yehyeon, who had slept well.

 

Seeing Seo Yehyeon pressuring us to quickly decide whether to go for morning exercise or not, with his clear eyes while everyone else had drowsy, tired gazes and were blinking sleepily, made me want to satisfy that human’s longing.

 

I’ll definitely repay today’s nagging with several times the scolding.

 

“Especially hyung should definitely sleep. You kept saying you wanted to get some sleep.”

 

I grumbled toward Ryu Jaehee, who threw back the exact words I had said while guarding the sleeping pill bottle so he couldn’t reject that alternative.

 

“I want to sleep too, you know? Why do you think insomnia is called insomnia? It’s insomnia because you can’t sleep.”

 

I rubbed under my eyes where dark circles had settled deeply and pointed to the sleeping pill bottle placed neatly on the dining table.

 

“So I’m saying I’ll take one sleeping pill and sleep, but you’re treating me like someone who’s about to eat something they shouldn’t.”

“It is something you shouldn’t eat. You throw up every time you try to take it.”

 

Seo Yehyeon clicked his tongue and corrected my words.

 

“That’s why I’m saying I’ll chew it?”

“Then go ahead.”

 

Ryu Jaehee quickly grabbed Seo Yehyeon’s arm to stop him as he handed me the sleeping pill bottle directly with an indifferent face.

 

“Hyung! You should stop him, what are you doing?”

“It’s faster to let him taste the bitterness of the pill once and give up, youngest. Why do you think pills are made to be swallowed with water? From what I can see, Yoon Eden absolutely can’t chew that.”

 

Do you know how desperate I am for a good night’s sleep right now?

 

Still, thanks to Seo Yehyeon, I safely took out one sleeping pill and threw it into my mouth without water, with no one stopping me.

 

The bitter taste spreading as the coated surface of the pill touched my tongue was somewhat bearable, but the moment I bit down…

 

“Shit, it’s disgustingly bitter!”

 

[Profanity detected.]

[Initial Intention -2]

 

It was such a taste that made me curse involuntarily, so the point deduction for profanity was unavoidable. I covered my mouth and ran to the bathroom.

 

“See, I told you so.”

“Right. We should have just left him alone. We just had a pointless midnight power struggle with Eden hyung.”

“Ooh, Yehyeon hyung, you’re really like that thing. A beast tamer.”

 

The conversation coming from the living room was absolutely ridiculous. Calling me a beast tamer. Am I a circus lion?

 

The problem wasn’t that I’d throw up the sleeping pill after chewing it – I couldn’t even swallow it. This method failed too.

 

Even after spitting out every piece and rinsing my mouth, the bitter taste of the sleeping pill still remained like residue in my mouth, so I urgently took out a water bottle from the refrigerator and gulped down water.

 

This unpleasant bitter taste wasn’t unfamiliar for some reason. That day when I woke up having lost five days of memory, the bitter taste that remained in my mouth. Why is that sensation suddenly coming back to me?

 

‘Did I, no, did thirty-year-old Yoon Eden chew sleeping pills?’

 

Then are the past memories cut off in my head connected to the reason I can’t swallow sleeping pills?

 

It was too unsettling to dismiss as coincidence that the system shows warnings when I try to swallow sleeping pills, and that I saw memories from my past that I don’t remember in the vision I experienced due to an error after swallowing sleeping pills before.

 

Since the other regressor happened to be Cha Yeonho, I couldn’t even ask about methods to restore manipulated memories. Far from telling me, Yeonho would use that as bait to manipulate me and more.

 

Moreover, if Cha Yeonho was the one who transferred the danger level to me, it would be even more dangerous. He’s already performing rituals for my downfall, so why would he tell me the method for anyone’s benefit?

 

Going to the studio was fine, but at Ryu Jaehee’s suggestion to at least get some sleep before going, everyone went to their respective rooms.

 

“But when are we actually going to change our rooms?”

 

It was originally our rule to change dormitory rooms and roommates once every quarter, but at some point we stopped changing rooms.

 

“Moving rooms is such a hassle.”

“That’s true.”

 

The fact that no one had particular complaints about their current roommates played a part, but the biggest reason was that it was too bothersome to pack up and move all our stuff.

 

“Thanks to hyung, I feel like I’m doing miracle mornings too, so I don’t really have any complaints.”

 

Kim Dobin’s voice gradually became drowsy. He wakes up when the sun is high in the sky and then sprawls out on the sofa to sleep again, yet talks about miracle mornings.

 

Thanks to my lighter mood, I was able to get at least a little sleep, but the quality of sleep was still shit.

 

I could tell because I woke up immediately to bird sounds. I eventually gave up on sleeping and turned on my phone to check the music charts.

 

I looked with proud eyes at the ranking of , which had been pushed out of the top 50 but was starting to climb back up the charts, and made a light resolution.

 

If this continues until next week, I’ll tell Manager Hyung and go to the hospital.

 

* * *

 

As soon as we arrived at the studio, Seo Yehyeon discovered the bulk-purchased Chupa Chups and turned to look at me with fire in his eyes.

 

“Do you know how many calories are in Chupa Chups…”

 

Seo Yehyeon’s words trailed off as he faced the dark circles under my eyes.

 

“What calories. I memorized it knowing hyung would ask. 45kcal.”

“I didn’t say anything. Just brush your teeth properly.”

 

Seo Yehyeon stepped back while grabbing the back of Kim Dobin’s neck to stop him from immediately rushing toward the Chupa Chups container.

 

As I turned on the monitor as usual and sat in front of it just staring at the screen, Seo Yehyeon and Kim Dobin rolled up their sleeves and stepped forward. Now that I had become a toothless tiger, the studio no longer seemed to feel like a space of terror to them.

 

I should hurry up and resolve that guy’s longing.

 

“Won’t musical ideas come to you if you just press random keys?”

“This Billboard chart composer will bestow inspiration upon you, hyung!”

 

I held my throbbing head while watching Seo Yehyeon creating discordant sounds on the synthesizer keyboard that could hardly be called music but rather an experiment in the most nerve-grating pitches, and Kim Dobin excitedly composing music in the DAW that had more than a few problematic spots.

 

Did I bring them here for nothing…?

 

Still, the commotion that left no time to feel the absence of musical ideas seemed somewhat better than being immersed in silence and feeling that absence even more acutely.

 

“Hey, wasn’t that just now pretty good? It was good, right? Wasn’t it good?”

“Hyung, how is it? Listen to this quickly, hyung!”

 

No, maybe silence would be better after all.

 

After spending quite a while in the noisy studio, when Kim Dobin and Ryu Jaehee started nodding off, Seo Yehyeon woke them up and took them back to the dormitory.

 

“Jun, aren’t you going?”

“I promised to stay by your side.”

“To whom?”

 

Gyeon Hajun responded to my question with a smile instead of words. Since he didn’t seem inclined to tell me, I didn’t press further and plopped down on the seat next to the sofa.

 

“Sorry.”

 

Gyeon Hajun, who heard my apology that I bluntly spat out without deliberately looking to the side, asked.

 

“For what?”

“Losing was enough with that damn My Universe in our early debut days. You, Jun, you hated losing to KICKS.”

 

I think it was during our early debut days, while preparing for the song exchange stage with KICKS for the year-end award ceremony special stage, I remembered Gyeon Hajun’s eyes flashing as he told Seo Yehyeon that we could never lose to those bastards, so I felt particularly sorry to Gyeon Hajun about the results of this promotion.

 

“It’s okay, we won.”

 

Gyeon Hajun chuckled and shook his head slightly.

 

No, Jun. Billboard only means something if it’s the Hot 100.

 

“And don’t apologize. It’s not your fault.”

 

Like me just now, Gyeon Hajun spoke calmly while looking straight ahead without turning to the side.

 

“I don’t feel indebted to you anymore. You get along well with the members now, so I don’t need to mediate either.”

 

Gyeon Hajun pointed out the two biggest causes of the one-sided cutting of ties before my regression. Why, why does he always seem to know about things from before my regression…

 

When I whipped around to look at Gyeon Hajun, he likewise turned his head to face me and declared with his characteristically straightforward gaze.

 

“So I’m saying that I would never cut ties with you first from my side, unless you commit a crime or something.”

 

It hasn’t been that long since I directly witnessed with my own eyes that the future can change, so why had I been thinking until now that the future with Gyeon Hajun would flow exactly the same as before my regression, even though the problems between us had changed so much?

 

But, Jun.

 

“Usually it’s ‘even if you commit a crime,’ isn’t it?”

 

To my lukewarm question, Gyeon Hajun also replied with a lukewarm expression, trailing off his words.

 

“A criminal as a friend is a bit…”

“True…”

 

If he had said there would be no such thing even if the sky fell, I would have just thought it was lip service, but since he included such clear criteria when saying it, it was truly trustworthy.

 

“Eden, are you going to stay in the studio?”

“Yeah, in case musical inspiration strikes. Should I take you back to the dormitory?”

“Then I’ll stay a bit longer too. Being alone is lonely, you know.”

 

Hajun and I sat side by side and spent time like that in silence. Having one person next to me made the silence that had settled over the studio feel less lonely than before.

 

[1% remains until Quest completion.]

[▶Relationship improvement with members

-Seo Yehyeon (99%)

-Gyeon Hajun (100%)

-Kim Dobin (100%)

-Ryu Jaehee (100%)]

 

It was unexpected that Ryu Jaehee’s relationship improvement, which had been the lowest at 96%, had filled up to 100%.

 

Good, now I just need to fill that 1% with Seo Yehyeon.

 

Would some fun composition play with Seo Yehyeon do it? To do that, I need to hurry up and overcome this slump!

 

* * *

 

“Your complexion seems much better, but how’s the slump? Have you overcome it a bit?”

“I’ve at least escaped from the blank state in my head, you know? But I just can’t come up with songs I’m satisfied with.”

 

I let out deep sighs in response to Jiwon hyung’s question and buried my head in the cushion I was holding.

 

“All failures. Why on earth is this happening?”

“That’s the thing.”

 

Jiwon hyung clicked his tongue and immediately pinpointed the cause of my condition.

 

“The pressure is one thing, but you’re being too conscious of both popular appeal and musicality. If you had just chased musicality and lost popular appeal, the problem would be a bit less serious, but it just had to work overseas, so now you can’t find your center.”

 

Then how am I supposed to overcome this? It was truly one mountain after another. Every time I solved one problem, another one would appear in an endless cycle.

 

“Hey, Eden. Want hyung to tell you a method to blow away all those worries?”

 

Jiwon hyung draped his arm over my troubled shoulder with a grin and held his cell phone right in front of my face.

 

An announcement previewing DTB Season 4 filled the entire screen of Jiwon hyung’s cell phone.

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