The Prince’s Nanny, Her Specialty Is Assassination - Chapter 292

—————
This chapter was translated by Lunox Team. To support us and help keep this series going, visit our website: LunoxScans.com
—————

Chapter 292. Confession (1)

“Don’t come any closer!”

I shouted without realizing it.

“Rachel?”

Emilia flinched and stopped in her tracks.

Edwin grabbed his sister’s hand and caught his breath.

“Why did you come here?”

I couldn’t bear to look directly at the children.

I turned my head slightly to the side and spoke.

“I am someone who was banished as a criminal. You know what happens when you disobey The Emperor’s orders…”

“I know too.”

Edwin firmly cut off my words.

“But I don’t care.”

There wasn’t a hint of hesitation in his voice as he said he didn’t care.

“Disobeying The Emperor’s orders is better than letting Rachel go like this.”

“Your thinking is shallow.”

I deliberately spoke coldly.

“For someone who will soon become Crown Prince to act so recklessly…”

“If I seem reckless, it’s probably because I take after Rachel.”

In the old days, even a slightly sharp tone would have intimidated him. But Edwin wasn’t shaken at all.

“It’s Rachel who made me this way.”

“Then it must be my fault for teaching you wrong.”

“No, Rachel never taught me wrong. And I never learned anything wrong from Rachel either.”

Edwin stood his ground and continued with a clear voice.

“Rachel, you always risked your life for me. Do you think that was wrong? Do you regret everything you did to save me?”

I looked down at my feet and quietly replied.

“Of course not.”

“Then what I’m doing isn’t wrong either.”

“The Prince and I are different.”

“How are we different? We’re both human.”

“Not all humans are the same. Our situations are different, our statuses are different…”

“If you have high status, you don’t get sick or die? If your situation is different, you can’t feel joy or sadness?”

The sunlight that had been briefly hidden by clouds appeared again.

A warm ray of sunshine broke through and touched my cheek.

“People aren’t different. Everyone is powerless, yet everyone does their best to live.”

Edwin’s voice grew quieter but became all the more clear.

“I first realized that fact in Ruxen Village.”

I could feel his gaze reaching me.

“If I hadn’t met Rachel, if Rachel hadn’t taken me there, I would never have realized that truth in my lifetime.”

“…Even without me, you would have realized it eventually. The Prince is an intelligent person.”

“No, I absolutely would never have realized it.”

Edwin firmly denied my words.

“If I hadn’t met Rachel, I wouldn’t have been able to become ‘anyone’ at all.”

“I am…”

“So.”

His calm and composed voice began to tremble slightly.

“So don’t go, Rachel.”

I couldn’t turn my head at all.

I didn’t want to know what expression Edwin was making, what he looked like.

“Without Rachel, I am nothing.”

For some reason, the tips of my shoes in front of me looked blurry.

As if fog had suddenly rolled in, my vision gradually became hazy.

“If you’re going to leave, if you’re still going to leave…”

Just when I thought he was holding up well.

Edwin’s voice broke.

“Take me with you! I don’t need something like the Crown Prince position! Without Rachel, it has no meaning at all!”

Please, now I can’t even comfort him awkwardly anymore.

I bit down hard on my teeth as I listened to Edwin’s sobbing voice.

“…I cannot be with The Prince.”

I couldn’t think of any good solution.

How could I make you abandon me and turn away?

“Because I am a murderer who has killed people for money.”

In the end, I decided to wound myself.

It seemed like the only way to cause the least harm to them.

“You know now, don’t you? What kind of person I am.”

“I know! But I don’t care! No matter what kind of person Rachel is, I really don’t…”

“No! It does matter! The Prince is a prince, and I am an assassin! Do you really think all people are the same?”

The words I had heard countless times from people I’d encountered flowed from my own mouth.

“You think all people are the same? No, they’re different! Being born and dying is a natural fate shared by all living things, not just humans! But there are clear differences between people!”

“Rachel…”

“There are differences in this world that cannot be bridged. When I was The Prince’s age, I had no hesitation in killing people, but The Prince hesitates even to kill a single animal!”

Once I started this confession, it flowed out without stopping.

“Those bandits we encountered on the way to Ruxen with The Prince – I killed them all. I killed them all with my own hands. Do you think that’s all? The water used to wash the blood from my hands could form a river. I’ve lived my whole life that way, and I have no choice but to continue living that way…”

I slowly turned my head.

To capture one last image of them, even if they were frightened and disgusted by my words.

“I have no choice but to live that way…”

No more words would come out.

I could only stare blankly at Edwin and Emilia.

‘Why?’

Edwin and Emilia were crying.

There was no disgust or fear in their eyes looking at me.

They were just crying sorrowfully, as if infinitely sad.

“Waaaah!”

At that moment, Emilia began running toward me.

As if she could no longer obey my words to stay away.

“Rachel!”

Golden hair fluttered in the wind.

The fine silk clothes the children wore billowed.

A fleeting moment felt like an eternity seen in a dream.

“Rachel!”

The warmth that entered my arms finally brought me to my senses.

I looked down at Emilia.

“Ria doesn’t know such things. Ria doesn’t know difficult words. Rachel is just Ria’s caretaker. So you have to stay by my side. So don’t gooo!”

Emilia gripped my waist tightly as if she would never let go.

“Princess Emilia, just a moment. Just let go of this hand for a moment…”

I tried to remove Emilia’s hands.

But for some reason, I couldn’t put in as much strength as usual.

“Nooo!”

Perhaps sensing that I was trying to push her away.

Emilia gripped my clothes with her small hands as if crushing them.

The little one, who had been burying her face in my skirt, suddenly lifted her head up.

“Ria did wrong! Ria will be good from now on!”

The strength in my hands that had been trying to pull Emilia away suddenly loosened.

“I’ll listen well from now on, and I won’t do anything Rachel tells me not to! So don’t go…”

She had only just heard that I was leaving not long ago.

In that short time, how much had she cried? Emilia’s eyes were red and swollen.

“…Princess Emilia.”

I slowly lowered my arms and embraced Emilia.

“Your Highness has done nothing wrong.”

Emilia wrinkled her nose after hearing my words.

Her large blue eyes, which couldn’t understand why, were like a lake with an endless spring flowing from them.

“Then, then why are you leaving? Why aren’t you staying next to Ria and Brother and leaving instead?”

“That’s…”

“Does Rachel not like Ria anymore?”

She had asked with her own mouth if I didn’t like her anymore.

Yet why was she making an even more hurt expression?

I stroked Emilia’s head as she cowered.

“It’s not like that.”

Who could dare to dislike such a lovable child?

If there was a human who said they disliked her, I was prepared to straighten out their twisted mind with my own hands.

“Then why? Then why are you leaving?”

“If I leave, Princess Emilia and Prince Edwin can live more peacefully.”

“What’s peaceful?”

Emilia asked back as if she couldn’t quite understand my words.

“Is peaceful the same as happy?”

“Similar.”

If you live well and safely without worries, that’s no different from happiness.

At my explanation, Emilia suddenly frowned and got angry.

“Then Ria doesn’t need peaceful!”

Emilia raised her voice and shouted.

“If Rachel isn’t here, Ria will be sad every day, worry about Rachel every day, and cry every day!”

I stopped the hand that had been touching Emilia’s head.

“Ria is more scared of not being able to see Rachel than of the dark, than of lightning.”

I remembered Emilia burrowing into me under the blankets.

And the child’s words that it wasn’t scary anymore when we were together.

“Ria wants to be with Rachel every day. Doesn’t Rachel mind not being able to see Ria every day? Is it okay to never see her again?”

Emilia asked while tightly grasping my hand that had been placed on her head with both hands.

“Does Rachel not love Ria anymore?”

The child’s confession was more threatening than a blade pressed against my neck.

“I, I…”

Edwin, who had approached at some point, placed his hand over Emilia’s hands. Two pairs of identical eyes were looking at me. Only at me.

“Rachel, why are you crying? Don’t cry.”

I finally opened my mouth to Emilia’s tearful question.

“…Because it’s dazzling.”

Would it really be okay to do this?

I knelt down just like that.

“Prince Edwin, Princess Emilia.”

And I embraced Edwin and Emilia with both arms.

Just like I had done in front of that tombstone once before.

“I have never, not for a single moment…”

Yes, from the moment I first met you two, from the moment I decided to become your caretaker.

“…stopped loving Your Highnesses.”

It was the first confession I had spoken aloud since deciding I would no longer love anyone.

—————
This chapter was translated by Lunox Team. To support us and help keep this series going, visit our website: LunoxScans.com
—————