Surviving as the Villainess’s Servant in a Martial Arts Novel - Chapter 79

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Episode 79

[To my beloved Young Miss.

Young Miss, have you been well all this time?

It’s been a while since I wrote a letter, hasn’t it?

Five years have already passed.

During this time, I’ve been getting by well enough.

Sometimes practicing martial arts, sometimes handling school affairs, and sometimes going outside.

But that doesn’t mean my martial arts training is progressing quickly. My cultivation speed is getting slower and slower.

Two problems have arisen, so to speak.

First, I thought too lightly of containing two types of energy in one body.

The two opposing energies can’t harmonize and constantly push against each other. Sometimes they clash violently to dominate my body, and each time it affects my body.

Once I was in so much pain during cultivation that I fainted. So now I only train within limits that don’t burden my body.

The second problem is…

One of the important incantations of the divine art has been lost.

Hyeon-a and I discovered this too late. Hyeon-a found it while wondering if she could help me learn the final incantation in advance, seeing how I was suffering.

She discovered that there’s a part in the final incantation where the context doesn’t connect.

According to Hyeon-a, it’s quite malicious. If I had continued learning without knowing, I would have fallen into qi deviation or gone mad from turbid qi seeping into my brain.

But this is a really important part.

It’s the section for training the Conception and Governing Vessels, where the Conception Vessel and Governing Vessel are respectively the yin and yang pathways. According to the incantation, you simultaneously circulate extreme yin and extreme yang energy to open the Conception and Governing Vessels, and only then do the two energies combine.

But with an important passage missing in the middle, the method to combine the two energies has become distant.

How despairing it was when I learned this fact.

I’ve already trained almost all of the Six Yang Meridians. The yang energy has grown as much as the yin energy, but if the two energies keep clashing…

…There’s nothing I can do.

I can only hope that I don’t go mad or die before I meet Young Miss.

I’ll do my best until then too. At the very least, I need to be sane enough to recognize Young Miss when we meet again.

So, Young Miss.

Please appear before me soon.

Hiding for five whole years is too much, isn’t it? Even when I hear news of discovering someone with Young Miss’s appearance and clothing, they all turn out to be different people…

But I won’t give up.

I hope we can meet soon.]

[To Young Miss.

Young Miss, I’ve been wandering Jianghu alone for some time now.

I’m already in my late teens, so I can’t rely on Eom Father forever. I also need to become familiar with the outside world to find Young Miss.

I was a bit nervous at first, you know?

Jianghu is said to be a ruthless place where schemes and plots run rampant. I worried about what would happen if I got backstabbed as soon as I entered Jianghu.

But people’s lives are all the same.

Where there are good people, there are bad people, and where there are righteous people, there are cowardly people. Regardless of whether they’re from orthodox or evil factions.

The only difference, perhaps, is that ultimately the justice of those with power prevails.

Ironically, I’m on the side with power.

Actually, when I was in the mountains, I couldn’t gauge how strong I’d become, but I… I’ve gotten quite strong, haven’t I?

Last time I encountered some bandits, they were knocked out in one blow even though I only used barely 10% of my power. It feels like yesterday when I was nearly beaten to death by evil sect minions…

But I’m not happy about it. After all, it’s only half-complete power that harms my own body if I use even slightly too much.

So I have many worries these days.

Our school’s situation is getting worse and worse.

It turns out that after the Seo Family was annihilated, similar incidents occurred to other small and medium sects as well.

So anger toward the Demon Cult is growing fiercer and fiercer in the Central Plains. And they think the ‘Demon Cult’ is our Gwangjin-gyo.

Really, it’s absurd.

For several years, our school has lived as quietly as a dead mouse. I receive reports on most of the school’s affairs, so I’m certain of that. Most of the remaining followers are powerless people…

Then who on earth is committing such acts?

Who, with what intention, is impersonating the Demon Cult and throwing Jianghu into chaos?

So lately I’ve been investigating that matter. Somehow I feel like if I chase the culprit, the truth behind the Seo Family incident will be revealed at the end.

Most importantly… might I be able to meet Young Miss?

If Young Miss has recovered and learned martial arts, I think she would be chasing the mastermind behind the Seo Family incident. Though I suspect Young Miss might also misunderstand it as our school’s doing…

But if we meet again, I’ll explain it to her. In detail so Young Miss won’t misunderstand.

I’ll definitely do that.

If only we could meet…]

[To Young Miss whom I miss so so so much♥

Young Miss! It’s Dan Yeonjeong~!

No no, it’s Seo Dan! I’ve been using an alias outside lately so I keep getting my names mixed up, you know?

Why am I in such a good mood today, you ask?

Right right right~ It’s because I drank alcohol!

Oh, don’t scold me. I’m already twenty years old!

Now that I’m an adult, I’ve learned the taste of alcohol too~.

Originally I didn’t like alcohol at all, you know? Where I used to live, there was something called soju, but it felt like pouring chemical alcohol straight into my mouth.

I wondered what taste people found in that flavorless thing… but now I think I understand a bit.

When I drink this, it makes me feel good~!

It’s not like I tried to feel this way, but I thought it was water and downed it in one shot, but it turned out to be strong sorghum liquor with high alcohol content?

Wow, but as soon as I drank it, I got tipsy and the pain gradually disappeared!

The seizures that felt like my body was being torn apart completely subsided and I became fine. Not only that, but my whole body floated as if I’d come to a fairyland and even all my worries disappeared!

Do you know what the best part is?

Young Miss appears before me!

Lately Young Miss’s face keeps getting blurry. I was sad because I couldn’t remember well…

But when I drink alcohol, Young Miss becomes incredibly clear, you know? A vivid Young Miss, as if I saw her yesterday, moves right in front of me!

It’s not even just Young Miss.

Mother too, A-so too, Uncle Hwang too, Brother Im too, Chief Steward too, Master too, and even everyone from the Seo Family Estate.

Everyone is beside me. They’re by my side talking, playing pranks, and laughing happily as if nothing happened!

Look at this, even now A-so is beside me asking what I’m writing so elaborately. She’s definitely jealous. Asking why I don’t write letters like that for her…

Ah, ah, Young Miss. A-so is hitting me! She’s hitting fragile me!

Mother, please say something to A-so. Young Miss too, don’t just laugh like that and stop A-so… Huh, since when did Young Miss laugh so well?

You look good when you smile.

Please keep smiling beside me from now on…]

[To Young Miss.

I’m sorry, I made a fool of myself last time, didn’t I?

Sometimes when I drink too much alcohol, this happens.

I see illusions around me and feel like I’m in another world.

At first I just saw blurry figures, but at some point they started moving and even talking to me.

Watching those figures makes me feel as if I’ve returned to my days at the Seo Family Estate. To those happy times, as if I could live like that forever…

But it’s all just a daydream.

When I wake from the dream, I’m ultimately alone.

Sometimes that fact was unbearably painful, so I kept drinking alcohol. Hoping I could stay in the dream a little longer.

Haha… Have I finally gone mad?

Will I go mad and die like this…

Actually, I’m not afraid of dying.

I sometimes think it would be better to die rather than endure such pain.

But I can’t die because I worry about what happens after my death. Thinking of Young Miss who would search for me not knowing I’m dead, I can’t close my eyes in peace…

So don’t worry. I’ll try to endure until I meet Young Miss.

Instead, please appear in my dreams often.

My alcohol tolerance has increased lately so I don’t get drunk easily.

There are many days when I don’t dream, and even when I do, I wake up quickly, so it’s already been several months since I’ve seen Young Miss.

So I’m a bit sad.

I’m getting a little… tired too.

Please come out tonight.

Then I think I’ll be able to sleep peacefully…]

[I can’t find her anywhere.

She’s nowhere to be seen.

No matter how much I stir up Jianghu, no matter how much money I spend buying information.

I can’t hear any news about Young Miss at all.

Where could Young Miss be?

Where could she be staying?

Is she even… alive?

What if that’s not the case?

What if Young Miss is dead?

If that’s the case, then I…

…

Young Miss, where are you?

I miss you.

Really, so much.

I miss you so much…]

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