SOS! I’m Being Forced to Be a Villain - Chapter 76

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Episode 76

Don’t think about it. Nothing will happen.

The situation is different from back then. I haven’t done anything wrong yet…

“…Wrong.”

I muttered that word again as if chewing on it. After adding some irritated curses, I nervously quickened my steps that had momentarily stopped.

Would it have been better if I were just a puppet without self-awareness or anything? Would it have been good if I were literally not human, just an inanimate object being played around with in the System’s role-play?

Even if someone tried to persuade me that living as an intelligent human being is better, those would be completely meaningless words to me. I’ve never had even one of those common strokes of luck.

From the first moment I can remember until now, it’s been consistent. Like a being destined to deliberately walk the path of misfortune.

‘What did I do so wrong?’

Nothing.

It was me and no one else, so I could know and be certain of it better than anyone.

But who dares to arbitrarily pin crimes on me and force punishment upon me?

However, the world was never on my side, and this shitty life was endlessly long.

When I was a young child who had just learned to read Korean, I didn’t know if the misfortune I experienced was actually misfortune. When I got older and fell into what people commonly call ‘bad influences’ to protect myself, I thought I could live comfortably once I became an adult and left home.

Then when my parents died before I even became an adult, I felt a sense of liberation for the first time in my life.

‘I thought that would make my future life better than before, at least…’

No matter how much the root of all evil had disappeared, the human heart doesn’t heal cleanly in an instant. The physical wounds stopped increasing, but the trauma trapped beneath my chest tormented me with no sign of disappearing.

Rather, it only got worse as days went by. I suffered from nightmares I never used to have, and when I saw my brother, I suffered from hallucinations where my parents overlapped with him.

Because I terribly refused hospital visits, I couldn’t take the necessary medication. But fortunately, after my brother left Korea and went overseas, my condition gradually stabilized.

At least that’s how I felt, but apparently it wasn’t entirely true. I was a time bomb that would explode if carelessly touched.

Why?

‘I just wanted to live like everyone else…’

I want to live. I desperately wanted to live.

It wasn’t just because I feared the pain of death or was scared of a possible afterlife. I still had so many things I wanted to do and achieve.

The passion and earnestness for simply being alive that needs no additional explanation. That feeling had never wavered once during the dozen-plus years filled with nothing but stains.

“…But that crazy bastard.”

That psycho bastard System that wouldn’t be satisfying even if I chewed it up.

My stomach churned. I staggered briefly and covered my mouth. With my head down, I stared blankly at the gray floor with my shaking vision.

Then I swayed greatly. It was because I bumped into something I hadn’t seen.

Swallowing a quiet groan, I rolled my eyes. A man who seemed to have just bumped into me was startled and flustered, then bowed in greeting before moving away.

I stared blankly at his back as he disappeared among the people. My mouth only let out deflated breaths as I moved it, then I rubbed my sweaty forehead with the back of my hand.

A scene suddenly came to mind. The day after I had mistaken the System window that appeared out of nowhere as a hallucination.

‘I bumped into Seo Jung-hoo…’

I forcibly dragged up the memory that had become hazy.

It happened in the school corridor. It was clearly an accident and mistake, and both people were at fault. So I had no intention of creating conflict. I just wanted to resolve the situation flexibly and quickly get away from there.

But the System bastard that had started exerting its power wouldn’t leave me alone.

‘What did I do back then?’

I cursed, probably.

I could have acted like I just did. There could have been no loud fighting.

From that day, my life, which had barely gotten back on the right track, once again climbed the curve of downfall. Everything about me that had never fully healed was dragged down into low-quality muddy water.

‘I never wanted to be a protagonist or villain.’

I wanted to live ordinarily. Not the role of screaming and ranting to receive resentment when I didn’t even want it, but staying as Extra 1 with no presence would have been enough.

I squeezed my eyes shut once, then opened them with difficulty. The nausea that seemed about to surge up through my throat had already subsided.

When I forced myself to swallow dry saliva, my esophagus stung as if scratched by thorns.

Even in this situation, the faces of Seo Jung-hoo and Kwon Tae-min rummaging through my head wouldn’t disappear.

* * *

The text in the workbook wouldn’t register in my eyes at all. I had already underlined the same sentence more than ten times with my mechanical pencil.

‘Really, I want to destroy everything…’

After repeating quite violent fantasies to myself, I tried desperately to pull myself together. But not only the letters right in front of me, but even the noise from surrounding students wasn’t audible. All I could tell through my muffled ears was that the classroom was quite noisy.

Was it because I didn’t eat? Or because I barely slept? Or maybe stress had overflowed and now something was really about to break down.

There were many possibilities, so I couldn’t tell what the right answer was. Of course, in a situation where there clearly wouldn’t be any solution, I didn’t particularly want to know either.

After weakly nodding my head a few times, I eventually collapsed onto my desk.

Thud.

“Ugh…”

Sharp pain spread from my head that had crashed onto the workbook without any chance to defend myself. A bright red swollen bump had obviously formed on my forehead.

I blinked with difficulty and struggled to sit up. I put down my pen as if throwing it, then immediately turned my head.

I saw the familiar silhouette consistently sitting in the same spot.

As if he had been watching only this spot the whole time, Kwon Tae-min naturally made eye contact with me. Then without showing any sign of embarrassment, he calmly straightened his posture and pretended to solve his own workbook by moving his pen.

I didn’t have the energy left to get angry about every little thing.

‘Right, damn it. I should have lived like a from the beginning.’

Since I had no strength, it wasn’t easy to act up arbitrarily either. Even though there was the System’s coercion, that was only when my body could keep up.

I wasn’t an invincible robot, nor was I an average high school boy with robust or decent stamina. So I should have sought solutions this way from the beginning.

I let out a small bitter laugh, then immediately cursed irritably under my breath. I got up unsteadily and dragged my limp legs across the classroom.

I came out to the hallway and walked while meeting the always noisy and bustling atmosphere.

Kwon Tae-min would probably follow from behind. Or maybe Seo Jung-hoo, who might have been hiding somewhere, would suddenly appear and chase after me.

Still, I should be thankful that they don’t stick to me like before.

“…Hah.”

I ended up leaning against the wall after walking only a few steps. My breathing was labored.

‘I don’t think I’ve been starving for that long.’

I couldn’t remember how far I had walked or where I had come to. I’m sure I didn’t go up or down any stairs, so I seem to still be on the same floor…

“About Lee Chung-hye.”

At the appearance of a familiar name, I slowly shifted my gaze. From where I stood leaning against the wall, I looked through the window of the computer room where only a few club students could be seen during lunch break.

“He’s pretty good-looking. Almost like a girl.”

“This bastard’s crazy. Is it enough just to have a pretty face?”

I rested my heavy head against the wall and regulated my breathing. My unfocused eyes were still looking into the computer room.

“Why? I think it’s possible.”

“What’s possible, you bastard.”

“No, think about his face. Where else can you find such looks?”

It was a vulgar conversation. If only my body condition wasn’t such that I couldn’t move even one more step, I would have left immediately.

‘Ah… Is this kind of talk coming up because this is a damn BL novel?’

While I was doing meaningless analysis about this situation that had befallen me, another name suddenly popped up.

“Then what about Yu Baek-hwa?”

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