My Unrequited Love Is an Absolute Secret - Chapter 105

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Chapter 105

In the taxi heading to Aemerus’s House, the two of us held hands tightly the entire way.
When we actually arrived at his house, I felt a flutter of nervousness, but I had no intention of backing out.
My desire to spend even a moment longer with him was genuine.
“Would you like something to drink? Oh, are your clothes uncomfortable? Let me see if I can find something for you to wear.”
Aemerus was just as nervous about Harry’s visit.
Seeing him suddenly become talkative, I giggled softly.
“I don’t need anything to drink. But I would like to shower. I think I danced a bit too hard earlier.”
“Go ahead and shower in the bathroom attached to my room. I’ll leave some clothes for you outside the door.”
“Okay. Thank you.”
Aemerus guided me to the bathroom connected to his room and stepped aside.
“Phew. I finally feel alive again.”
I exhaled in relief as I carefully removed the dress.
I even washed my hair while I was at it.
I was grateful my hair was only shoulder-length; it made things easier.
If my hair had still been as long as it used to be, reaching down to my waist, it would have taken at least thirty minutes just to dry it.
“Hmm…”
After a refreshing shower, I put on the clothes Aemerus had left outside the door and let out a small groan.
His t-shirt was so oversized it looked like a dress, and the elastic pants slipped down so much they were practically unwearable.
“There’s no helping it.”
Since the t-shirt was long enough anyway, I boldly abandoned the pants.
As I emerged from the bathroom wearing just the t-shirt, which covered me down to mid-thigh, Aemerus, who had already showered in another bathroom, flinched.
“The pants—didn’t the pants fit?”
He was so flustered his words stumbled.
Seeing this rare display, I laughed out loud.
“The pants were too big.”
“Ah… the pants were too large.”
With his face flushed red, Aemerus repeated the same words like a broken record as I slowly explored the room.
For a boy his age, it was quite minimalist.
Economics books and newspapers occupied his desk and bookshelf, and scattered around were simple exercise equipment like dumbbells—that was noteworthy, if anything.
‘His interest in economics seems to come from his father’s influence.’
After scanning the bookshelf, I asked him.
“Do you exercise here?”
“Just simple stuff. There’s a separate fitness room.”
“I see.”
That physique certainly didn’t come from nowhere.
I was about to move closer to his side.
“Oops!”
I glanced down to see what had caught my foot—it was his beloved Boston bag.
Unfortunately, it was black, so it hadn’t been very noticeable.
“Are you alright?”
“Yeah. I’m fine.”
My eyes widened as I watched Aemerus put the bag away without much thought.
“Wait a second, this….”
It was the exact same cat keychain that Aemerus had once attached to my tumbler.
Aemerus tried to hide the bag too late, but it was no use.
“Was this a couple item I didn’t even know about?”
Was he perhaps upset?
With an anxious heart, he watched my expression carefully and nodded slowly.
“You should have told me. I had no idea all this time.”
Couldn’t you have mentioned it after we started dating?
Aemerus answered my bewildered question.
“…I was worried you’d be displeased.”
Hmm. Certainly, since we weren’t dating back then, I might have been displeased?
I laughed softly and asked playfully.
“Tell me honestly. There’s something else you’ve hidden from me, isn’t there?”
“…Yes.”
“What?”
I asked it as a joke, but there really is something?
‘Now that I think about it, he was also hiding the fact that he could speak Korean so perfectly.’
Seeing my expression suddenly turn serious, Aemerus laughed shyly.
“That I love you far more than you could ever imagine.”
What. I got nervous for nothing.
I laughed incredulously, deflated, and playfully tapped him.
“And the fact that your singing voice is really pleasant to listen to—I actually knew that too.”
“Singing…? When did I ever sing?”
“At Summer Camp.”
The conversation seemed like it would get longer.
I lay down on the bed first, and Aemerus followed, lying beside me.
He, offering his arm as a pillow, reminisced about the memory.
“I was tied to a tree, just waiting to die, when I heard singing. Not long after, you and JJ appeared.”
“Oh, I remember that. Jessie happened to bring a broken compass, so we got lost.”
Aemerus chuckled as he watched me furrow my brow, trying to recall the memory.
He reached out and smoothed the wrinkles on my forehead as he continued.
“Then you saw me.”
“….”
“You greeted me so casually with ‘hello,’ as if we’d just run into each other in the School hallway.”
It was Harry’s own story, yet it felt strangely unfamiliar, as though she were listening to someone else’s tale.
“To be honest, I was terrified back then. But seeing you treat me normally like always… it reassured me.”
Harry squeezed Aemerus’s hand without a word.
As if returning to that day, as if he were still the young boy from back then.
Aemerus gazed down at their clasped hands and smiled like someone confronting a bittersweet memory.
“You held my hand like this back then too.”
“….”
“You asked, ‘Would you like me to sing for you?’….”
“Ugh! Stop! I think I’ve heard quite enough.”
Harry clamped her hand over Aemerus’s mouth.
The way he told it made it sound grand, like the biography of a saint, but the reality was different.
The fact that she suddenly burst into song was proof enough.
It wasn’t that she had no intention of comforting Aemerus.
But it was far more likely that she simply wanted to sing.
‘Even I have to admit, I was incredibly immature back then.’
Aemerus laughed as he watched her break into a cold sweat, confronted with an unexpected dark chapter of her past.
“I have more hidden secrets. Should I tell you?”
“No, that’s enough….”
Some secrets are better left buried for each other’s sake.
Harry shook her head with exasperation.
“Today is enough.”
The small secrets Aemerus had hidden to seduce her were buried just like that.
But as Harry herself had quoted in the yearbook, there are no eternal secrets in this world.
I found myself looking forward to the moments when she would discover his hidden secrets one by one.
“I want to talk with you more, but I’m getting sleepy.”
Harry’s eyes were already half-closed.
“You can sleep.”
“But I need to go home later….”
“I’ll wake you up.”
“Okay….”
“Sleep well.”
Aemerus pressed a kiss to Harry’s forehead.
The two held each other tightly throughout the night.
‘I need to make sure to get Harry home on time….’
But Aemerus too soon drifted off to sleep.
Perhaps because of the conversation he’d shared with Harry before falling asleep, in his dreams he found himself back in that summer from seven years ago.

‘Tie it to the tree’

Malicious boys hung a rope around his neck and pelted him with mud.

‘Head shot is ten points. Hit there and you get fifty.’
‘Haha, look at him. Like a pig rolling around in its own filth.’

Horrific.
How much longer would this memory torment him?
It was all in the past.
I knew it was only a dream.
I also knew it couldn’t affect me in reality.
‘Wake up from this dream.’
But no matter how I thrashed, the dream wouldn’t end.
Instead, the rope around my neck began to tighten relentlessly.
My breath caught in my throat.
A sense of crisis washed over me—I might actually die like this.
‘What happens if you die in a dream?’
Would I wake up then?
Would it be better to die now instead?
‘Yes. Let’s do that.’
It was the moment I let everything go.

‘Aemerus.’

The sun from that day surfaced in my mind once more.

‘Come here, Aemerus.’

The rope that had been strangling my neck vanished, and the sticky mud and honey coating my face were wiped away.
Finally, the moment I awoke.
She greeted me without even properly opening her eyes.
“Harry?”
“You seemed to be having a nightmare, so I woke you up….”
A long yawn escaped her lips, her face still heavy with sleep.
Yet she refused to release the hand holding mine.
“If you have another nightmare, tell me. I’ll chase them all away for you.”
Despite looking like a newborn puppy with eyes barely open, she was somehow reassuring.
Aemerus chuckled softly and pressed a kiss to Harry’s puffy cheeks.
He had no intention of falling back asleep.
It wasn’t fear of the nightmare that kept him awake.
Now I had Harry to wake me from my nightmares.
But I had to take her home before the sun rose.
‘Just a little longer until then….’
Aemerus gazed at her sleeping peacefully beside me.
Perhaps nightmares would continue to haunt me in the days to come.
But that was all right.
Just as the sun rises when the moon sets, I knew that Harry waited at the end of every nightmare.
‘My girlfriend.’
My unrequited love had ended.
Now I no longer had to hide my feelings.
Never again would I be her secret lover.
“I love you, Harry.”
Aemerus smiled softly and kissed the back of her hand.
Pouring into that kiss all the love of yesterday, today, and tomorrow.

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