My Illusion Is Survival - Chapter 80

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Chapter 80

When I first opened my eyes in the Capital Square, it was only natural that I couldn’t recognize the identity of this body.

‘No matter how good I am, remembering an extra who was only briefly mentioned by name at the beginning of the game would be impossible.’

For similar reasons, there was an inevitable background to why no one could figure out the identity of this body.

‘Riana died before even debuting in high society, so her face wouldn’t have been known publicly. That’s why Simoer had such a hard time finding her.’

At that point, Marquis Winsor would have been dead too, so it would have been even harder for the Imperial Court to notice.

I was dumbfounded by how all the puzzle pieces were finally falling into place.

Of course, the most absurd part was this.

‘But why on earth did I end up falling in front of Azel in the body of the dead Riana?’

“This doesn’t make sense.”

This was the one thing that still had no answer. Originally, that so-called god should be the one explaining this kind of thing, but all he had done was shift blame and betray me.

“Hah, just wait and see what I do to him.”

“What are you muttering about to yourself?”

Around that time, an ice-cold voice fell right in front of me.

“You pathetic thing.”

It was ‘Edward Winsor,’ Riana’s father.

The Marquis was, as befitting this body’s father, a tremendous handsome man despite his middle age. Though he was looking at me like I was trash with that handsome face.

‘What kind of father looks at his own daughter with those eyes.’

If not for that, I would have praised the Marquis’s beauty a bit more.

“I told you to always be mindful of your conduct in front of the servants, and you cause trouble just one day after I said that? Not only did you break things, but you cursed too?”

“I did curse, but I wasn’t the one who broke the cup. And I didn’t curse at that child either.”

Thanks to that, my voice naturally became sulky.

“How dare you talk back to me!”

At his sharp rebuke, I eventually had to shut my mouth with a start.

‘He said she was his beloved daughter. She only became beloved because she died early.’

The reason Riana Winsor was an extra who was only briefly mentioned was entirely because Edward Winsor was a significant supporting character.

Edward was a kind nobleman who saved Yulia from crisis in the early part of the game, and it was during this time that Riana was mentioned.

“Others gossiped that the child was an ill-mannered villainess, but that child was my everything. No matter what anyone said, that child was my one and only daughter.”

That scene was deeply touching even thinking about it now. Of course, reality was nothing but a hellhole.

“You worthless thing. This is why I can’t let you go outside.”

Indeed, the look in Edward’s eyes as he glared at me was ready to grab and beat me to death at any moment.

“Excuse me, Father.”

“I don’t want to be called father by someone like you.”

“Excuse me, mister.”

“…What? What did you just say?”

“You told me not to call you Father.”

Immediately, Edward began pointing his finger at me.

“You-! You insolent-!”

“What’s with pointing your finger at your daughter?”

“And what kind of way is this to talk to your father!”

“You just said you don’t think of me as your daughter.”

“What?!”

Since I was already in a bad mood from the incident with Akrasia, there was no way my words would come out nicely.

“I, when did I ever say such a thing!”

But what was strange was the fact that the Marquis was flustered by my last words.

“It’s not that I don’t think of you as my daughter, I was just-“

“That’s the same thing.”

Of course, that wasn’t something for the current me to worry about. I focused on my ‘villainess’ act rather than the Marquis’s inconsistent attitude.

‘Riana Winsor was a rude, thoughtless, and incompetent young lady, for sure.’

To avoid being caught that his daughter had changed, I would have no choice but to act as the ‘villainess, Riana Winsor’ from now on.

Therefore, I had to have this level of insolent attitude as a basic equipment.

‘Azel isn’t even beside me right now, do I really have to go this far.’

Though it was natural, emotional control was difficult today because of feeling like I was walking on thin ice. Thanks to that, my eyes became moist.

“You, are you crying right now?”

The Marquis began to visibly panic, perhaps seeing my reddened eyes.

“You, you’re crying?”

“No way.”

“Then what’s that in your eyes…”

“It’s sweat.”

“That can’t be sweat!”

“Then it must be tears. Anyway, I’m sorry for causing a commotion. I’ll reflect and stay in seclusion for a while, so please forgive me.”

“Re, reflection? You’re going to reflect?”

“Then I’ll be going now.”

After a brief greeting, I immediately turned around, and the Marquis’s gaze followed behind me.

“What is this…”

He seemed to mutter something to himself, but that wasn’t my concern.

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“Sorry for cursing.”

Right after returning to my room, the first thing I did was apologize to the maid from earlier.

“It might be hard to believe, but I didn’t do it on purpose.”

Not that this apology worked.

“…Pardon?”

The maid who was trembling and pleading for help from others with her eyes was truly pitiful even to me.

“I, I, I, I’m re, really o, okay! D, don’t worry about it!”

She didn’t look okay at all.

“Miss!”

Right then, another maid who had helped the young maid earlier blocked my way.

“Now you’re even threatening this child to keep her mouth shut!”

From what I heard, she seemed to be the head maid of this place. When I turned my gaze toward the head maid, she was about to open her mouth again with a frightening momentum.

However, this time I was first.

“Threatening? Keeping her mouth shut? I think I just apologized, so how does that get interpreted that way?”

Even framing an innocent person has its limits. I had no intention of being scolded for something I didn’t do.

“That’s because-!”

“That’s because, what.”

When I asked quietly, the head maid’s expression immediately hardened.

“Th, this attitude right now…”

“That seems like something I should be questioning. What kind of way is this to speak to the young lady you serve? What are you relying on to act so impudently?”

The atmosphere immediately crashed to the floor.

In an instant, a chilling air enveloped the entire room. People nearby who had been watching us couldn’t even breathe now.

“Why do you look so surprised? Did I say something wrong?”

The most ridiculous thing was the head maid’s attitude after hearing this. The head maid was trembling as if suppressing her miserable feelings that this couldn’t be happening.

Not from fear, but from anger and humiliation.

‘Well, well?’

This seems a bit suspicious somehow.

The circumstances of the Winsor Family weren’t mentioned in the game, but with my romance experience, there was no way I couldn’t read this subtle atmosphere.

“Get out.”

“But-!”

“Get out while I’m asking nicely. Do you want to make me say it twice?”

The head maid, clenching her trembling fists tightly, stormed out of the room.

“So the real rude one wasn’t this side but that side?”

What a fine way this household is run. The maid who heard my muttering turned even paler than before.

Thinking this would lead to big trouble if left alone, I had no choice but to call another maid.

“You. Take this girl away from here.”

“Ah, Miss! Please spare me!”

As everyone’s faces instantly turned white, I hurriedly added:

“She hurt her hand while cleaning up the glass earlier. Take her to get treated, and let her rest for today.”

“What? Treatment?”

“Are you going to make me say it twice as well?”

“N-no! I’ll take her right away, Miss!”

From now on, I’d have to be careful even with every word I spoke.

“This is maddening.”

After sending the maid away for treatment, I next pointed to the servant who was standing there blankly.

“You there.”

“Yes? M-me?”

As gazes that seemed to view the most pitiful person in the world instantly focused on the servant, I continued speaking.

“From now on, I’m going to test how much you know about me. With questions that my faithful servant should naturally know.”

“Pardon?”

“I won’t punish you even if you can’t answer, but you mustn’t lie. Do you understand?”

“Y… uh, um, yes?”

I felt sorry for how terrified he was, but I couldn’t help this either.

‘I can’t keep pretending to have amnesia forever. If I’m going to live as Riana Winsor, I need to know something too.’

I had only opened my mouth with that thought, but the servant looked ready to burst into tears any moment.

“Shall we start with my family relationships?”

But I was in more of a hurry.

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