My Body Has Been Possessed By Someone - Chapter 234

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Chapter 234
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Why had I done it?
I cast my gaze downward. I didn’t know. I simply couldn’t overcome the base impulse.
‘Because I’m insane.’
That was reason enough. I knew no other explanation. I didn’t want to know one.
“Kanna Adis, look at me.”
“….”
“Kanna Adis.”
At his insistence, I slowly lifted my eyes, finally meeting his gaze—a gaze that pierced through me like a blade.
“Answer me.”
How brilliantly radiant those eyes were.
Facing them, my chest ached with a familiar pain. This was a wound I already knew. A place already pierced through.
By those eyes. By that man.
“Try it.”
“Show me that effort you speak of. Direct it toward me.”
Like that moment in the past when I felt impaled by iron bars, my insides throbbed with longing.
‘But he is a man of the past.’
In that instant, a hollow laugh escaped me.
Yes. This was a dream. Or as good as one.
The man before me didn’t exist in reality.
The moment I recognized this truth, my feet grew heavy. The legs that had been floating in empty air crashed down to solid ground.
The hazy clouds dispersed, revealing the barren landscape beneath—devoid of all romance. The reality I had momentarily turned away from.
‘This man has no place in my time.’
I laughed bitterly. I knew this. I had always known it. Why had I acted like a fool?
The dream was over.
“…What answer do you want from me?”
No. It had to end.
“I can give you anything you desire. Anything at all.”
I recited the lines that had long been predetermined.
“I owe you a debt. Without you, I would never have lived to see this day.”
I would have died as a sacrifice the moment I was born.
A life created solely for that purpose.
“So tell me. Whatever you want from me, I will….”
“Stop.”
I fell silent. Alexandro Adis glared at me fiercely.
“How many times must I say it? What I want to know is your heart. Spare me the rest of your nonsense.”
Frustration flowed thickly from his eyes.
“Tell me how you feel about me. That’s all I care about.”
For a moment, my lips trembled. But the movement quickly ceased.
What had I been trying to say?
Even she didn’t know. She didn’t want to know.
But this much was certain.
The emotion Alex spoke of so casually was the very feeling Alexandro Adis had concealed even while consuming poison.
A secret he alone had hidden from everyone for so long.
And his memories would return soon enough.
Now that the secret was exposed, he would surely suffer.
‘I wanted to ease his pain.’
That’s why I forcibly held onto him as he tried to avoid me, desperate to break his curse.
Of course, I didn’t want to lose my connection with Alex, but my greatest purpose was to shatter his curse.
Because I didn’t want him to suffer anymore.
So when Alexandro Adis regained his senses, I had to do whatever I could to make it even slightly less painful for him.
“Someone who took me in and protected me. That’s all.”
He furrowed his brow.
My throat throbbed with pain. Kanna Adis answered quietly, enduring the ache.
“When I was young, you didn’t even glance at me. It seems I wanted to monopolize you now. That’s why I drove away your Cooking Instructor.”
Even as I said it, I felt a bit embarrassed at how absurd it sounded.
The relationship I’d built with him before meeting in the past was far too shallow. Light enough to blow away with a breath, so trivial that it meant nothing to me.
‘It was never like family to begin with.’
It was the same reason I couldn’t feel Chloe as my mother. Though I’d grown up calling her mother, I’d never once truly felt her as my parent.
Alexandro Adis was no different.
But my relationship with Alex, whom I met in Seon-hee’s body, was intense.
My destined savior who would rescue me.
But what was I to him?
‘Who knows. Perhaps… a destroyer?’
He saved my life, but I destroyed his.
Kanna Adis laughed bitterly.
This tangled fate was so heavy. The weightless, hollow relationship from before wasn’t even worth comparing on the scales against this burden.
Perhaps that’s why I became more immersed in my relationship with Alex, whom I met in Seon-hee’s body.
‘This shouldn’t happen.’
No matter how I felt, it was only my heart alone.
The world wouldn’t see it that way. And the real Alexandro Adis wouldn’t either.
A lie spoken with such feelings could never sound sincere.
Sure enough, Alexandro Adis let out a scoff and uttered a low curse.
“Who do you take me for, an idiot?”
“It’s not a lie. I…”
“If you’re going to lie, at least put some effort into it.”
He glared at her menacingly.
“You and that kind of man…”
He laughed irritably and tilted her chin upward with his hand.
“Do you converse with such a face?”
For a moment, my eyes wavered. Yet I spoke with stubborn resolve.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
Alexandro’s lips curved diagonally upward—a mockery barely concealed.
“Ah, I see. You don’t know, you say….”
He paused mid-sentence, then suddenly pulled my waist toward him with force.
A gasp escaped me as I trembled, but his grip remained unyielding.
Our bodies pressed together without a single gap between us. The firm musculature of his chest and abdomen, even the contours of his pelvis felt vividly against the thin fabric, and heat flooded my face.
Alexandro witnessed this reaction clearly. And he felt it.
Beyond the soft pressure of my chest, my heart racing as wildly as his own.
“You don’t know?”
His gaze bore down on me mercilessly—violent and invasive, as though seizing my very heart.
Leaving no escape, no refuge.
“And you still claim ignorance?”
The corner of my lips trembled faintly.
I was caught. We both knew it.
“Alex….”
I drew a shaky breath.
“You’ll regret this. When your memories return, I promise you….”
…Ah.
It’s useless.
Not even a speck of my words penetrated him.
Alexandro’s eyes, filled only with raw, honest desire, remained unmoved. Instead, the heat between our joined bodies only intensified.
“Kanna Adis.”
Alexandro spoke with feigned gentleness, his hand tracing my back. A strange electricity shot down my spine.
“I know better than anyone.”
Once, twice—his hand glided smoothly downward, and the sensation was exquisite.
I bit my lip. Every nerve in my body seemed to cry out.
“The future me could never stop loving you. I’ve simply hidden it well until now….”
He laughed then, like a villain in a tale.
“But now that you’ve discovered it.”
His face drew closer, inch by inch. The scent of him grew overwhelming, making my head spin.
“Even if my memories return, nothing can be undone.”
His thumb pressed gently against my lips, parting them softly as he whispered.
“I’ll make certain nothing can be undone.”
With those words, he paused.
“If you don’t want this, push me away.”
Time seemed to freeze.
In that narrow space where our lips nearly touched.
Reason, thought, everything suspended in that singular moment. Only breath remained—his, mine, overwhelming. Every part of him became a violently cruel stimulus that assaulted my entire being.
Push him away.
I barely managed to think it.
Get my head straight and push him away.
This can’t happen. If this happens….
But my hands remained utterly powerless.
Alexandro waited a moment longer as I wrestled with my conflicting desires.
Just a moment. A very brief moment.
A soft sound escaped me as I held my breath.
Now, Alexandro’s lips met mine.
The unreality of that sensation, that fact—my mind went blank.
And he no longer hesitated. Our warmth pressed together, melded, then parted as if to confirm, before crashing together again with renewed intensity. And it grew fiercer.
His chest rose and fell as urgently as his lips moved. Each time, he pulled my body closer, more forcefully. Ragged breaths—whose, I couldn’t tell—came in desperate gasps.
It was intoxicating. Sharp enough to sting, tears welling in my eyes. A handful of guilt hung precariously like droplets clinging to my lashes.
I shouldn’t. I should push him away.
Yet the warmth enveloping me was sweet. My entire body grew drowsy with comfort.
Finally, powerlessly, tears slid down my cheeks. I shattered into pieces.
“It’s alright.”
He gently wiped away my tears born of guilt, drawing me close. He whispered.
“You’ve done nothing wrong.”
He took my wrist and guided my arms around his neck, then lifted my body effortlessly.
“This is all my fault.”
He laid me down tenderly, whispering against my ear. Like a lament, like a plea, like a desperate prayer.
This is all my doing, all my sin.
Because I don’t want to hold back. Because I don’t want to turn back.
You’re simply being swept along. You’ve done nothing wrong. Don’t think of anything. Think only of me, feel only me….
Kanna Adis.
“Kanna, can you feel it?”
His hands, burning like embers, gripped me. They seared into me like a brand.
“There’s no turning back now.”
In that instant, his warning brushed past me, hazy and distant.
“You will come to regret this.”
Perhaps Alexandro knew then.
That it would end up like this.

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