In This Life, I Want an Oscar, Not a Husband - Chapter 73

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This life, I choose The Oscars over a husband.
Chapter 73

“From here on, you’ll need to hold my hand. Since I don’t know where the starting point is, I have no idea where seat 16 is either.”
“Ah.”
Ha Eun-rae suddenly became aware that Seo A-reum was visually impaired.
And unexpectedly….
‘She asks for help so naturally in these situations.’
There was something appealing about that.
The way she clearly distinguished between what she could do and what she couldn’t.
Because of that clarity, being with her felt easier for those around her too.
Ha Eun-rae took Seo A-reum’s hand and counted off the numbers.

20.
19.
18.
17.
16.

Seo A-reum felt the edge of the chair at the spot Ha Eun-rae had indicated and sat down.
“If I need to use the restroom later….”
“Yeah. Just tell me.”
“Okay.”
Ha Eun-rae’s eyes widened as she observed Seo A-reum’s tense expression.
Was it fear…?
The thought that there were limits to what she could do alone in an unfamiliar place.
Without realizing it, Ha Eun-rae framed Seo A-reum within a 16:9 aspect ratio and observed her.
She regarded her face as if watching a film or drama—through an actor’s lens.
It was a habit born from being an actress.
Then, suddenly—

“To the protagonist, Kim Ji-hyun was like the cinematic life she had always dreamed of, and the protagonist threw herself into that dream,” she thought.

Park Seo-woo’s words came back to me.
An actor is not someone who watches a film.
An actor is someone who plunges into the world of the film.
My thoughts scattered as the theater darkened around me.
Ha Eun-rae loved this moment in the theater—when the lights dimmed.
Once the advertisements ended and the theater fell dark, everyone waited for this instant.
The moment the film begins.
The moment you encounter a world you never knew existed.
My heart raced.
I closed my eyes.
The world that Seo A-reum saw unfolded before me, however imperfectly.
Complete darkness.
Audio description flowed through my ears.

【Busan International Film Festival Screening】

Seo A-reum heard that sound too.
Seo A-reum’s field of vision was extremely narrow.
People often think that those with visual impairments see darkness, but that’s not quite right.
Those with visual impairments simply cannot see.
Anything at all.
Seo A-reum could only distinguish light within her very narrow field of vision.
But even that light vanished, and darkness consumed her entire vision.
Naturally, Seo A-reum’s hand grew tense with anxiety.
That was the moment.
Ha Eun-rae took Seo A-reum’s hand.
“…?”
Seo A-reum looked at Ha Eun-rae with a hint of fear in her expression.
Then Ha Eun-rae spoke to Seo A-reum in the softest of voices.
“I like watching the film with you.”
Those words stirred something subtle in Seo A-reum’s heart.
“You do…?”
“Yes.”
Ha Eun-rae whispered back.
“I wanted to plunge into your world too.”
“…!”
A soft, low murmur.
Seo A-reum felt her heart sink involuntarily at the sound of that voice.
Her friends often said something when they fell for idol groups.

“He’s incredibly handsome.”
“…You haven’t even held his hand?”
“Doesn’t matter if I haven’t! His voice is incredibly handsome.”

Seo A-reum finally understood what that meant.
His voice was incredibly beautiful.
With that thought, she touched Ha Eun-rae’s hand.
Her hand was incredibly beautiful too.
So this was what the kids called a fan accident?

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“….”
“Want a tissue?”
At my words, Seo A-reum’s face flushed red.
Areum’s face was streaked with tears.
She really enjoyed our work.
‘Thank goodness.’
I looked at Seo A-reum with a satisfied expression.
“This face isn’t ugly, is it?”
At that, I let out a soft laugh.
“Ugly? Not at all. You’re incredibly cute.”
I said this while picking up a handkerchief.
“May I wipe your face?”
“Huh? Ah… Yes.”
As I wiped her face with the handkerchief, Seo A-reum looked somewhat tense.
Tension didn’t suit her.
Even as I thought this, I carefully wiped her face clean.
This was something Seo A-reum couldn’t do herself, after all.
Watching the film with Seo A-reum while listening to the audio description with my eyes closed was a special experience.
Especially in how it focused on my ‘voice’.
Starting from basic acting techniques like understanding my vocal delivery—
‘My lower-mid register sounds quite pleasant.’
I could tell that my acting tone in the lower-mid register was quite solid.
It was something I could only perceive by listening to the voice alone, without other stimuli.
‘I should apply that when singing too.’
People commonly treat “singing well” as synonymous with “hitting high notes.”
But actually, singing well is closer to hitting the correct pitch and rhythm.
Since I gained a slight cheat code thanks to my Wiki editing rights for technical aspects, focusing on my vocal tone would yield even better results.
‘I need to find my own vocal color.’
It was at that moment I was thinking.
Seo Kyung-bin called out to me.
“Um… Miss… No, Eun-rae….”
“Yes?”
“Will you… be attending the Awards Ceremony tomorrow…?”
Oh, the Awards Ceremony.
Now that I think about it, the Busan International Film Festival holds its Awards Ceremony at the closing ceremony.
“Wait—are we going too?”
I didn’t know we were supposed to attend.
At my words, Seo Kyung-bin showed me a text from the Agency Representative.

[Kyung-bin~ Must be tough meeting so many people, right~? I always support you..! But I think you should attend the closing ceremony with Eun-rae too~ There might be good news~! Kyung-bin and Eun-rae, lean on each other a lot, and if you get nervous, take some ginseng candy!]

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Je-gal Se-yeon attended the Busan International Film Festival’s Awards Ceremony and closing ceremony with a trembling heart.
Cinematographer Lim Se-gu couldn’t help but smile at the sight of her in formal attire.
“What!”
“No, it’s just… seeing someone who always wears field clothes like this is throwing me off.”
“…I feel the same way!”
Still, I couldn’t exactly show up to an Awards Ceremony in field clothes.
“Are you nervous?”
“A, a little…?”
There was no way around it.

[Please be sure to attend the Awards Ceremony~]

Renowned directors who would win awards always held their seats, but rookie directors like myself rarely attended the awards ceremony.
Yet the Busan International Film Festival had specifically sent me a message asking me to participate in the ceremony….
“Did you prepare an acceptance speech?”
There was a possibility I could win an award!
My Film Academy graduation project.
I was thrilled about the distribution I hadn’t even expected, but that was short-lived.
I even received an invitation to the Busan International Film Festival.
I was already ecstatic about that alone, and now I’m a nominee for an award?
‘No. Calm down, Je-gal Se-yeon….’
“I didn’t prepare. Why would I win anything?”
Of course I had prepared.
I’d stayed up all last night doing it.
Not having expectations and preparing an acceptance speech are two different things, aren’t they?
While entertaining these contradictory thoughts, I looked at Ha Eun-rae and Seo Kyung-bin beside me.
“You two… aren’t nervous, right?”
They had also been asked to attend and were here for the occasion.
They walked the Red Carpet in more subdued attire than they had at the opening ceremony.
Of course, Ha Eun-rae’s outfit was a black mini dress from Bella Simo worth hundreds of thousands of won, but my nervous eyes couldn’t register such details.
Ha Eun-rae smiled slightly as she watched me tapping my leg anxiously.
“Director. Are you nervous?”
“Ah, no?!”
“Come on, you’re definitely nervous.”
At Ha Eun-rae’s words, I narrowed my eyes.
“For a humanoid, you sure talk a lot.”
“I’m not nervous today, though.”
Hearing that, I noticed Ha Eun-rae’s expression was quite composed.
“Why, why?”
“Because you’re the star today, Director. You’re going to win the award.”

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