I’m Trying to End This Possession - Chapter 187

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Chapter 187

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Noah saw the entire scene.

 

Dana acting like a queen bee. And Dana choosing one man and leaving with him.

 

‘That bastard is that guy.’

 

Lete. Elder Brother Viego’s subordinate.

 

It was something Noah had learned after coming to the Sanctuary.

 

But Dana wouldn’t remember Lete, right? Where the hell is she going with that bastard?

 

Especially after that disgusting worship service ended, she definitely wouldn’t be in a normal state.

 

He’d heard that attending worship made both men and women suffer from lust, but the degree of desire men felt was much stronger.

 

‘Right, I thought I was going crazy back then.’

 

Just once, he had attended without knowing what it was about. And he suffered from maddening lust all day long.

 

Surely Lete would be in heat too, and she’s following him?

 

‘No. That woman must be the same way.’

 

She must be swept up in lust. That’s why she chose one guy. The most handsome and smoothest one.

 

To sleep with that bastard.

 

Noah walked quickly. With each step he took, snickering laughter spilled out.

 

Dana picking out a man and leaving with him. It felt like he’d been hit hard in the head.

 

She was just an ordinary woman after all. Not some sacred being like a saint or holy mother.

 

“Lord Noah.”

 

Just then, a woman blocked his path.

 

Miona Cruzer. A woman who had once been Alice’s maid.

 

“Move aside.”

 

“If you’re going to Dana, please stop.”

 

Miona spoke clearly.

 

“Don’t you know what it means for men and women to be together after the worship ceremony?”

 

She meant don’t interfere. Noah stared at the woman in disbelief.

 

“And the man who disappeared with Dana, Lete.”

 

Miona quietly lowered her voice.

 

“He’s a member of the Anti-Pope Faction.”

 

So that no one else could hear.

 

“Lete will deceive Dana and lead her to the leader of the Anti-Pope Faction. So don’t interfere.”

 

The Anti-Pope Faction.

 

The faction that wanted to drive his brother Viego from the position of Cult Leader.

 

Anti-Pope Faction spies were hidden throughout this Grand Cathedral as well.

 

Miona, that woman was one of them too.

 

“I hope Lord Noah will also participate in the plan as a member of the Anti-Pope Faction.”

 

Noah was their collaborator.

 

To kill Viego, he had accepted the Anti-Pope Faction’s assassination proposal to get close to him.

 

“I just said I’d help kill my elder brother, I’m not interested in this Anti-Pope Faction stuff or whatever.”

 

“Then at least don’t interfere with our work. If you interfere, I’ll tell everything to Cult Leader Viego. About how you helped the Anti-Pope Faction attempt assassination—”

 

“Go ahead.”

 

It didn’t matter. Even if his elder brother found out, he’d be indifferent.

 

He’d probably throw some sarcastic advice mixed with ridicule like “How sloppy” or “How pathetic.”

 

“How long are you going to interfere with Dana’s affairs?”

 

Did she realize the threat wasn’t working? Miona quickly changed tactics.

 

“Do you want to prevent Dana from associating with men? For how long? 10 years? 20 years? For what purpose? What’s your goal?”

 

“…”

 

“Whatever the purpose, it’s impossible to prevent it forever. Unless you lock her up at the tower top.”

 

Miona clicked her tongue as if pitying him.

 

“Rather, cooperate with the Anti-Pope Faction. Then you’ll at least gain the authority to handle and control Dana’s body as you wish.”

 

“Miss Miona’s words are correct.”

 

Just then, a Holy Knight standing behind Miona nodded as if impressed.

 

“We must place her under perfect control. She’s not an ordinary woman! A precious test subject who will evolve and perpetuate humanity—!”

 

Noah reached out and grabbed the Holy Knight’s head. He pushed him straight into the wall. Bang!

 

“You seem to have gotten a bit stronger believing in holy water.”

 

Crack. As he crushed the back of his head, blood trickled down the wall.

 

“Even so, you’ll die if your head breaks. So.”

 

Just as he was spouting those threatening words—

 

Suddenly he felt empty.

 

‘Why am I doing this?’

 

The strength drained from his grip. Thud, the man collapsed as if crumbling.

 

Looking down at the man indifferently, Noah turned around. He went back to his room.

 

It was unpleasant, but that woman Miona had achieved her purpose.

 

He could no longer chase after Dana.

 

Noah coldly acknowledged it.

 

His actions had no purpose.

 

Just like inertia, like a habit, like a custom, like when he was young, he just wanted to place that woman in a sacred sanctuary.

 

So that no one could dare defile her. Even if that someone was herself.

 

But why should I do that?

 

When I was young, sure, that might be understandable.

 

She was the first woman I ever felt attachment to.

 

I was an immature adolescent boy who, if I couldn’t be her most intense love, wanted to be her most intense hatred.

 

But so what? What comes after that?

 

What do I want?

 

Don’t tell me I want to be held by that woman again like a little kid?

 

Like when we were young, when Dana would often hold him and sleep soundly?

 

Do I want to fall asleep with my face buried in skin that seemed like it would taste very sweet if I licked it?

 

‘No…’

 

My head hurts. My stomach churns again.

 

I feel like throwing up.

 

Stop thinking about it. Just stop.

 

At the end of this foolish adoration, this twisted worship, there’s nothing.

 

Nothing.

 

 

 

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Dana parted ways with Lete after having quite a long conversation.

 

“You said worship happens twice a week, right? Then let’s meet every time there’s worship.”

 

“Yes, Miss.”

 

When they parted, Lete was exactly the same as before.

 

A businesslike face. An appropriately polite attitude.

 

As she walked away leaving Lete behind, she kept laughing.

 

Now Lete felt unfamiliar to her.

 

So much so that she couldn’t believe he was the same person as the boy she had picked up, raised, and taught.

 

And that no longer mattered at all.

 

‘It doesn’t matter. I just need to use him to get my body back.’

 

So let’s not get hurt. Let’s not hesitate to hurt others either.

 

I won’t care about anyone anymore. Not anymore.

 

“Dana.”

 

Not anymore…

 

“There you are.”

 

At that moment.

 

Like warm air rushing in, a large hand gently came down on Dana’s shoulder.

 

At the same time, a sweet fragrance that suddenly moistened her nose. All her nerves began to concentrate behind her back.

 

“Where have you been?”

 

All thoughts disappeared.

 

As if enchanted, Dana raised her head. Silver hair immediately dazzled her vision, sparkling. And the ruby-like eyes she met…

 

“Hmm? Dana.”

 

Lumiere was looking down at her.

 

“Did you go outside the Grand Cathedral?”

 

This must be what it feels like to be ambushed.

 

Her head felt numb and her fingertips tingled. Facing him in such a defenseless state, he only felt bewilderingly beautiful.

 

Dana swallowed. She struggled to gather her confused mind and forced out her voice.

 

“Brother Lumiere.”

 

Ah, thank goodness.

 

It came out calmly.

 

“Dana, I heard you attended a Diana worship service?”

 

“…Yes.”

 

“I heard you went out with a male believer. Don’t tell me you’re just returning now?”

 

At that moment, her heart sank with a thud. Dana unconsciously avoided Lumiere’s gaze.

 

Is he suspicious?

 

Does he think I slept with a man?

 

It would be reasonable to think that. After worship, when men and women disappeared together, that’s what it was all about.

 

Dana nervously clenched her fists. However.

 

“And I heard you told the Archpriest that you want to become an official priest of Diana?”

 

Lumiere smoothly passed over that suspicion.

 

“Is that true?”

 

Perhaps because he moved on so casually.

 

Dana was momentarily flustered but soon nodded.

 

“Yes, that’s right. After today’s worship ended, I requested the Archpriest to let me become a priest.”

 

To obtain information about Diana’s religion, she had requested to become a priest.

 

And Lumiere seemed to have already obtained that information.

 

“You know that to become a priest, you have to go to the pilgrimage site and pick a Moonlight Flower, right?”

 

“Yes.”

 

The pilgrimage site was just a nearby mountain.

 

Picking one Moonlight Flower—a flower symbolizing the Moon God—from the mountain peaks.

 

That was one of the customs for becoming a priest.

 

“That’s not all. You’ll have to receive priest education at the Sanctuary for a while.”

 

“I know.”

 

“You also know that your Maternal Grandfather is waiting for you to return to the Roland Mansion?”

 

“…”

 

“Don’t you want to go home?”

 

Ah…

 

At that moment, a cold intuition struck her.

 

This is it.

 

Lumiere’s business is only this.

 

Taking ‘Danaina Roland’ to the Empire, to the Roland Family.

 

He came to the Sanctuary to achieve that purpose, and now he’s having a conversation with her.

 

He wasn’t even curious about what man she had disappeared with or what she had done before returning.

 

“Think about it once. Your family members are waiting for you.”

 

Pat pat. Lumiere taps her shoulder.

 

Her heart ached at his plain touch. And she didn’t want to accept such feelings in herself.

 

‘This is natural.’

 

So let’s suppress this emotion.

 

It’s just because we met too suddenly. The memories of when I loved him are vivid, but we suddenly met…

 

“Besides, I want to introduce you to my wife.”

 

Ah, but this.

 

“My wife is a really good woman.”

 

This is, a little…

 

“She wants to meet you.”

 

She couldn’t answer. She couldn’t.

 

 

 

“If you marry me, you’ll be tormented by the Crown Prince for life.”

 

 

 

Because it suddenly came to mind again.

 

Memories from her past life.

 

 

 

“Are you really okay with that?”

 

“Dana, you… do you call that a question?”

 

 

 

The day she decided to marry Lumiere.

 

His eyes that had burned with overwhelming joy.

 

 

 

“Rather, it would be an honor.”

 

 

 

Lumiere’s eyes that made it impossible to doubt his love.

 

 

 

“It’s fine to be hated by everyone for life. It’s fine to be pointed at by everyone. As long as I have you, Dana…”

 

 

 

Stop. I don’t want to.

 

Don’t remember.

 

“Yes…”

 

Pressing down the rising memory fragments, Dana put a smile on her lips.

 

“I also want to meet Brother’s wife.”

 

It would have been better if I couldn’t remember anything either.

 

Why do memories of loving him come to mind at this particular time…

 

Dana turned her head away from Lumiere’s gaze. Toward the window. To a place where she didn’t have to look at him.

 

‘…Huh?’

 

And at that moment, everything stopped.

 

Because of the man she saw beyond the window at the end of her carelessly turned gaze.

 

A noticeably large build.

 

A man with red hair.

 

That man who is now opening the door of a building and going inside—

 

“Dana!”

 

When she came to her senses, Dana was frantically running to throw open the window.

 

“Dana, be careful!”

 

If Lumiere hadn’t caught her around the waist, she would have fallen out the window.

 

But even that didn’t matter. All her thoughts up until now vanished completely, and the afterimage of that man from moments ago captivated her.

 

Because that red-haired man just now was—

 

‘No, that can’t be.’

 

He’s dead.

 

Before my very eyes, his body completely rotted away, crumbled to dust and died…

 

But it was definitely him. Red hair, red eyes, sharp gaze—a man she could never mistake!

 

“That place…”

 

“Hm?”

 

“That building, do you know where it is?”

 

Lumiere looked at her with puzzled eyes before answering.

 

“The Holy Mother Chapel.”

 

“…”

 

“But that place is a restricted zone, Dana.”

 

The Holy Mother Chapel.

 

That place that was the Diana Church’s laboratory.

 

He had definitely walked into that Holy Mother Chapel.

 

Definitely, she had witnessed it clearly with her own eyes.

 

“…I see.”

 

The moment she was certain, everything became solid.

 

Her heart that had been beating fast enough to burst soon calmed down. It settled gently downward. Her thoughts, emotions, everything sank down, deep down.

 

“Dana. Are you alright?”

 

“Yes.”

 

The Holy Mother Chapel.

 

She needed to get her hands on the key to that place.

 

“I’m sorry. I thought I saw someone I knew, but I think I was mistaken.”

 

So now was not the time to be immersed in clumsy sentimentality.

 

It wasn’t time to be consumed by feelings of betrayal toward Lete. Nor was it time to grieve over Lumiere’s oblivion.

 

There was only one thing she needed to do now.

 

Steal the Holy Mother Chapel key from Noah Windsor.

 

That was what she had to do.

 

‘I need to get close to Noah somehow.’

 

By any means necessary, without fail.

 

Without fail.

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