I’m a Villain, but I Want to Live a Long Life - Chapter 147

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“It’s not like we enjoyed seeing the child in trouble!”

Adam waved his hands frantically in distress. Rosette raised one eyebrow.

“Then what? From what I’ve roughly heard, you two, no, you two ghosts… Ha, what exactly should I call you.”

Rosette, who had been frowning, eventually shrugged as if it didn’t matter.

“Anyway, it seems like the abilities you two can lend to Seleneae are quite all over the place.”

Adam closed his mouth. Amon, who had been wearing a dissatisfied expression, did the same.

Amon opened and closed his mouth several times as if bewildered.

Then he suddenly raised his finger and pointed straight at me.

“What do you expect us to do when this woman’s body can’t properly accept our power!”

Estelin’s eyes widened. Rosette also tilted her head.

“Seleneae can’t accept the power?”

Amon stepped forward as if frustrated.

“That’s right! Because this woman still has a prohibition…”

Then he closed his mouth. Adam, who had been behind him, hurriedly stepped in front of Amon.

“Th-there are… circumstances for that!”

I looked back and forth between Adam and Amon.

But the word Amon had uttered was already clearly embedded in my ears.

Prohibition.

Amon had definitely just mentioned a ‘prohibition.’

Whatever it was, it meant they still had something they couldn’t tell me.

After thinking briefly, I spoke to Adam.

“If it’s about Fluma, I already roughly know. I’ve also learned what the situation is like.”

Adam’s face froze in surprise. Meanwhile, Amon replied in a still dissatisfied voice.

“Of course you would. You must have met Kerus in the forest.”

I looked at him with wide eyes.

“Even though I was trapped in the holy relic, I could still tell what happened to you. Those beasts’ presence isn’t something that can be hidden just by trying to hide it.”

I could even sense hostility in that voice.

Noticing this, Adam stepped forward with an awkward smile.

“Amasius, let’s leave the story about Diermant for later…”

But Amon coldly cut off Adam’s words.

“How ridiculous. Those beasts getting stabbed in the back by humans of all people.”

Then he added coldly.

“But in the end, they brought it upon themselves. They poured reckless affection on beings unworthy of it, so they had no choice but to be betrayed!”

Amon suddenly stared directly at me. Then he said clearly.

“If you trust someone you shouldn’t trust. If you forgive someone you shouldn’t forgive. Everyone meets such an end.”

I slowly closed my mouth. Amon’s red eyes blazed hotly.

I could instinctively understand the hidden meaning in his earlier statement.

‘Is this about Fluma?’

If my guess was correct, Amon was talking about Fluma right now.

Overlapping the Diermant who suffered great damage to their clan for not retaliating against humans,

with Fluma who trusted Frater only to be killed in the end.

A short gasp rose within me.

‘…Come to think of it, it was the same in the ancient memories.’

Amon had repeatedly asked Fluma.

‘Do you intend to leave Frater as he is?’

He wanted Fluma to keep Frater in check and punish him.

It was understandable since Frater dared to harbor insolent thoughts toward Fluma who had created him.

But Fluma neither punished nor kept Frater in check. And eventually, he was betrayed and perished.

‘Amon resents such a Fluma.’

My gaze trembled slightly with surprise and pity.

I remembered what Amon had demanded as conditions for lending me his abilities when I first met him.

To maintain dignity in any situation.

Not to carelessly forgive those who were arrogant and presumptuous.

If they ignored and attacked me, not to let it slide but to surely punish them.

‘It was because of Fluma.’

Amon resented Fluma as much as he had trusted and followed him.

Because he would have watched the entire process of Fluma being destroyed by Frater right beside him.

I looked at Amon silently for a long time.

Then, after organizing my thoughts, I opened my mouth quietly.

“Honestly, I have many questions.”

Adam’s eyes widened slightly. Amon remained silent and stared at me.

“But even if I ask, there isn’t much you two can answer, is there?”

Adam hesitantly replied.

“…Child, we can’t tell you anything until the prohibition is completely lifted. And…”

He let out a small sigh. His face somehow wore a distant expression.

“Actually, our memories aren’t complete either. Only scattered and very partial fragments remain dimly.”

“Bodies that have slept for eons have no choice but to be like this.”

Amon added with a serious face. I nodded silently.

The statement about incomplete memories was something Kerus had also told me.

‘Then…’

Adam, Amon, and Kerus – all those who remember ancient times would be in similar situations.

Then Amon stepped forward.

“You must understand now. Our power is incomplete.”

I looked up at Amon. He gestured toward the pendant.

“We can occasionally lend you abilities, but we’re still bound to the holy relic. It’s hard to say we’re completely yours.”

Amon continued in a serious voice.

“However, what’s certain is that as long as your prohibition isn’t lifted, we’ll have no choice but to remain in this state.”

He raised his arm and held it out boldly in front of us. Rosette, Estelin, and my eyes widened.

Amon’s body was gradually becoming fainter.

“This woman’s magic was very pure and powerful. It was abundant too. But look.”

His body grew even fainter.

“Even after absorbing all that magic, we can only maintain manifestation for such a brief moment.”

As soon as he finished speaking, Amon’s physical form completely disappeared.

Emitting a faint light and appearing hazy, his form was distinctly different from when he was manifested.

I stared at that sight blankly before nodding.

“I understand what you mean.”

Both Amon and Adam’s gazes turned to me simultaneously.

“Anyway, I have a prohibition, and that prohibition needs to be lifted for you two to exert your full power, right? For now, I have to be satisfied with this level.”

Until now, I hadn’t been able to fully utilize their abilities.

It meant their abilities weren’t controlled by my will.

Most of the time, abilities emerged at moments I didn’t expect.

Even then, Adam and Amon directly controlled their own power, and there was almost nothing I could do from my side.

‘Communication was the same.’

Communication was basically only possible when the holy relic was close to me, and sometimes even that didn’t get a response.

No matter how much I called while carrying the holy relic, Adam and Amon wouldn’t show themselves.

‘Certainly, the range in which I can borrow the holy relic’s abilities is too narrow. And unstable.’

What happened in the forest this time was also a problem stemming from this.

Then Adam, who had returned to an incorporeal state, approached me.

[I’m sorry, child… for not being able to help.]

At his completely dejected voice, I quickly shook my head.

And picked up the pendant that was lying on the table.

‘First of all….’

I needed to find Amicus.

According to Kerus, Amicus was the most powerful among the three souls sealed in the relic.

And also, she would completely retain the ancient memories.

‘I don’t know what the prohibition is, but whatever it is, I need to meet Amicus first.’

Amicus would know something.

When I stroked the pendant with my index finger, the cold sensation of the iron rim was transmitted.

For some reason, my heart was pounding.

‘If I find Amicus, will I be able to understand why I’m going through all this?’

I am a possessor.

I wasn’t a soul from this world from the beginning, but a being who suddenly entered Selene’s body one day.

Was that why?

After learning about Fluma, I had this thought.

‘Could it be that because I’m a soul who crossed dimensions from another world, I can summon Fluma?’

Maybe when all three relics are gathered, it’s not the Frater god who appears, but the Fluma god.

As I was thinking that far, Rosette beside me asked.

“Those two aren’t visible to us anymore. You can still see them, right?”

I looked at where the two had been and nodded.

“Yeah, I can see them. Amon disappeared, and Adam is still here.”

Estelin stared at the direction I was pointing with curious eyes.

Rosette let out a deep sigh.

“…So that’s why you couldn’t talk about it.”

I looked at Rosette with slight surprise.

Rosette was pointing toward the side of the bed where Adam and Amon had been.

“It’s too abstract. It’s not a situation that’s easy to believe either, as you said.”

Estelin agreed too.

“That’s right, Selene. You must have had a lot of worries alone all this time.”

I stared at the two blankly. Rosette approached and said something unexpected.

“First, don’t worry about the relic matter because I’ll look into it myself, even if I have to dig through books directly.”

I widened my eyes and looked up at Rosette.

“Huh?”

Rosette continued speaking nonchalantly.

“Estelin will keep track of the Temple’s movements. You know that House Laurent has been consistently donating to small temples in the frontier, right?”

I shook my head with my mouth half open. Estelin spoke in a gentle voice.

“I have personal connections with many priests at temples on the outskirts of the Empire. They’re people who voluntarily stepped back because they were tired of the power struggles within the Order….”

“….”

“They’re trustworthy people. They have a lot of complaints about the current forces of the Frater Order too, so they might share useful information.”

Rosette cleared her throat and added while turning her gaze away.

“…Anyway, what I’m saying is, don’t worry about it all by yourself.”

I looked back and forth between the two and slowly closed my mouth. Then I nodded.

“Yeah, I understand.”

For some reason, the corners of my mouth turned up slightly.

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