I Won’t Pick Up The T*ash I Threw Away Again - Chapter 192

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#192

 

The day of Sisly’s execution.

 

I attended Sisly’s execution carrying Misa’s memorial tablet.

 

I wanted to show Misa, who was murdered by Sisly, the scene of her death.

 

“Kill her!”

 

“Kill the wicked witch!”

 

I had worried that people might react poorly due to the cruel punishment, but fortunately their response was positive.

 

This was because the fact that Sisly had drugged milk and fed it to children had spread widely.

 

The fact that Sisly was the main culprit behind the previous riots had also become known to the people.

 

As a result, people clamored for Sisly to die in cruel agony.

 

Sisly’s execution began amid the fierce roar of voices that shook the Colosseum.

 

The dismemberment was more brutal than I had imagined. Still, I watched Sisly’s death from beginning to end without batting an eye.

 

It was so easy for one life to be crushed.

 

She had desperately tried to survive, even selling her own body and screaming wickedly, but in the end her limbs were torn apart and she died without even being able to close her eyes properly.

 

The desperate screams she let out throughout her dismemberment were drowned out by the crowd’s cheers, and no one could hear them.

 

I had stood calmly while the execution was taking place, but as soon as it ended, all my tension released and bitter bile rose up to fill my mouth.

 

“Are you alright, Baron?”

 

Paul, who had accompanied me, asked worriedly.

 

Usually I would bring Sara or Nes with me, but since I had to witness a cruel scene, I deliberately brought Paul, who was a man.

 

“I’m fine.”

 

“Your complexion looks pale.”

 

“It’s just because I saw something cruel.”

 

“Well, it was rather brutal.”

 

Paul scratched his head.

 

“You did well not to bring Nes or Sara.”

 

“Are you okay?”

 

“I’m fine.”

 

Paul grinned and raised his arm higher than shoulder height.

 

“I saw many things more brutal than this when I went to the battlefield.”

 

Come to think of it, Paul had said he participated in war.

 

He’s impressive despite being young.

 

“Let’s return to the manor now.”

 

I had to go back to the manor, put away the memorial tablet, change clothes, and then go to work.

 

“I’ll support you.”

 

Though I had said I was fine, it was difficult to steady myself, so I obediently accepted Paul’s support.

 

It was when we went outside the Colosseum to board the carriage.

 

“Leilah.”

 

An unwelcome guest was waiting outside at the Colosseum entrance.

 

I thought he’d been quiet lately, but here he comes again.

 

A sigh welled up from deep within me.

 

Let’s just ignore him and go back to the manor.

 

I was about to do that when the unwelcome guest, Fillen, grabbed my arm.

 

“Let’s talk for a moment.”

 

I frowned deeply and glared at Fillen.

 

“Even if you are Duke, I believe it’s against etiquette to carelessly touch another person’s body.”

 

“If I don’t do this, you won’t give me a chance to talk with you, so I had no choice. I apologize if it upset you.”

 

“Instead of apologizing, please let go of my arm.”

 

He was gripping so tightly that my arm was throbbing.

 

“Duke.”

 

“I’m leaving soon.”

 

I called him again meaning for him to let go, but what he said was completely out of the blue.

 

What was he thinking, suddenly coming here and saying such things.

 

It was absurd, yet somehow I understood.

 

He had always been good at speaking thoughtlessly since before.

 

It wasn’t anything special.

 

“Have a safe trip.”

 

I don’t know what kind of response he wanted, but I can guarantee it wasn’t this one.

 

“Is that all you have to say?”

 

As expected, it wasn’t.

 

“That’s right.”

 

“Ha.”

 

When I answered briefly, Fillen let out a small bitter laugh.

 

“Even though That Woman is dead, you’re still cold toward me.”

 

“Just because Sisly Helliode dies doesn’t mean my feelings of dislike for you will disappear.”

 

Fillen’s expression grew darker. The hand gripping my arm tightened further.

 

It hurts. My face naturally scrunched up.

 

“Let go!”

 

I swung my arm with all my strength to shake off Fillen’s grip.

 

To Fillen, it would have been like a baby waving their hand, but surprisingly, Fillen easily let go of my arm.

 

I rubbed the area where Fillen had grabbed me.

 

I could tell there was a bruise without even checking.

 

“You seem to keep forgetting, so let me remind you clearly once more.”

 

I glared at Fillen and spoke distinctly.

 

“I made a wish for you to completely disappear from my life. A notarized wish.”

 

“….”

 

“But if you keep acting like this, I’ll have no choice but to resort to legal means as well.”

 

“Can’t we go back to how things were before?”

 

Good grief. You have to be able to communicate to have a conversation.

 

He completely blocked his ears and only said what he wanted to say, so what little desire I had to talk completely disappeared.

 

“Like when your parents were alive, can’t we go back to being affectionate lovers?”

 

“Were we ever lovers?”

 

We had been engaged, but we were never lovers.

 

“That means… you didn’t love me even back then?”

 

“No.”

 

“That’s a lie.”

 

Fillen denied my words and gripped my shoulders tightly.

 

“Look me straight in the eyes and tell me, Leilah.”

 

Fillen’s eyes were desperate.

 

“Did you really not love me?”

 

“No.”

 

No matter how many times he asked, the answer to that question wouldn’t change.

 

I had liked Fillen as a companion, but I had never loved him as a man.

 

“Then do you love Emperor?”

 

“…!”

 

At the sudden pointed question, I was flustered and opened my eyes wide.

 

Then Fillen ground his teeth.

 

“So you finally fell for That Man.”

 

“That Man? He is Emperor.”

 

“What kind of emperor steals another man’s woman!”

 

I didn’t want to think this way, but what exactly did the Dowager Duke and Duchess Williot teach Fillen?

 

I was deeply curious about what they could have taught him to make him think such things.

 

“I was never Your Grace’s woman.”

 

“You were my fiancée!”

 

“I was your fiancée. Not your lover, not your wife, just a powerless simple fiancée.”

 

I quoted back the words Fillen had said to me before.

 

At least he wasn’t foolish enough to forget what he had said, as Fillen bit his lips tightly.

 

“Do you know something, Your Grace?”

 

It seemed I needed to help Fillen face reality a bit more.

 

“When I entered the Williot Duchy as Your Grace’s fiancée, I thought I was truly fortunate.”

 

A princess of a count family in name only, and a half-bastard at that, had become the young mistress of a ducal house.

 

“Life in the ducal house was truly happy. It was satisfying too.”

 

“Then come back right…”

 

“Until the Dowager Duke and Duchess Williot passed away, that is.”

 

I cut off Fillen’s words and continued firmly.

 

“After the previous Duke and Duchess passed away, Your Grace entrusted everything to me and shut yourself away in the training grounds.”

 

Fillen’s eyes shook greatly.

 

“Even then, I thought it was fine. Since I would become the mistress of this family, since this was where I belonged, I thought it was right to endure and bear everything patiently.

 

“Leilah…”

 

“But I was wrong. The Williot Duchy was not where I belonged.”

 

His expression twisted menacingly. Fillen asked me through gritted teeth.

 

“…Then where do you belong?”

 

“Here. Where I am now is where I belong.”

 

Fillen stood there dazed as if he’d been hit in the back of the head, then soon let out a bitter laugh.

 

“Right, you’ve become the Emperor’s favored mistress, so the position of duchess wouldn’t catch your eye.”

 

Why is the conversation flowing that way again?

 

“I am not His Majesty’s mistress.”

 

Fillen chuckled.

 

“No need to play innocent. I heard it directly from His Majesty.”

 

What is he talking about now?

 

Did Kalian tell Fillen that I was his mistress?

 

That couldn’t be. Fillen was definitely misunderstanding something.

 

“I don’t know why you have such a misunderstanding, but no.”

 

Thinking it would be good to correct the misunderstanding, I looked into his eyes and spoke clearly again.

 

He asked again with a suspicious look.

 

“Really not?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“…Then the Emperor is misunderstanding by himself.”

 

Fillen muttered to himself, then frowned and scolded me.

 

“Just how are you acting that the Emperor has such a misunderstanding?”

 

Since everything he said was nonsense, it would probably be better to talk to a wall instead.

 

Feeling no need to continue talking with him, I walked past Fillen.

 

“Leil…”

 

“Duke Williot?”

 

Fillen, who was about to grab me, couldn’t because someone called out to him.

 

Whoever called him, they’re truly grateful.

 

Thanks to them, I was able to get into the carriage without interference.

 

* * *

 

The day after Sisly disappeared as dew on the execution ground.

 

“Baron Aster, His Majesty the Emperor is looking for you.”

 

As soon as I arrived at work, Kalian was looking for me.

 

“I’ll go right away.”

 

I only took off my coat and headed to the study where Kalian was.

 

Kalian was looking at documents with a pleased smile.

 

Did something good happen?

 

“You called for me, Your Majesty.”

 

“Ah, Leilah.”

 

As if he just noticed I had entered, Kalian gestured to me.

 

As soon as I approached and stood in front of the desk, he suddenly brought up a topic.

 

“I’m sorry, but I think we’ll have to change Andant Tebesa’s punishment.”

 

So suddenly?

 

“Is there a particular reason?”

 

“Yesterday, Countess Tebesa came to see me.”

 

Even without hearing more, I could guess what Countess Tebesa had come for.

 

She must have come to beg for Andant to be saved.

 

“She pleaded and begged so desperately that I decided to change Andant Tebesa’s punishment in exchange for compensation.”

 

I felt slightly disappointed but didn’t show it and asked.

 

“How has it changed?”

 

Kalian smiled silently and handed me the document he had been looking at.

 

As soon as I saw the document, I was startled and opened my eyes wide.

 

“A family succession document…”

 

Normally, if it were a family succession document, I would have just thought that some family’s head was changing and moved on, but I couldn’t do that.

 

[The position of head of the Tebesa County is succeeded to Leilah Aster.]

 

Because that sentence was brazenly written in the first line.

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