I Won’t Pick Up The T*ash I Threw Away Again - Chapter 185

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#185

 

“That mistress’s name is Appelpishia.”

 

Appelpishia.

 

This word, meaning despair in ancient language, was rarely used as a person’s name because of its meaning.

 

It was too difficult a word for someone who didn’t know ancient language to just randomly choose.

 

But the fact that this mistress used this word as her name…

 

“Is it an alias?”

 

“Probably.”

 

Kalian agreed with my words as he picked up his teacup.

 

“Unless her parents were out of their minds, they wouldn’t have given their child such a name.”

 

Right. No matter how much they disliked their child, they had eyes to see and wouldn’t give a name with such meaning.

 

“Among all the many names, the fact that she specifically chose such a word as an alias means that mistress also knows ancient language.”

 

Since it was a rarely used language, people who learned ancient language were uncommon.

 

Opportunities to learn it were also rare.

 

Even among high nobles, only those of marquis rank and above, and royalty and imperial family members of each country learned ancient language.

 

I too had learned ancient language when I entered the Williot Duchy as Fillen’s fiancée, while preparing to become a duchess.

 

So if that mistress knew ancient language, it meant she wasn’t of ordinary status.

 

‘Why would such a woman become a baron’s mistress?’

 

If Baroness Britina had been married, it would be one thing, but that wasn’t the case either.

 

Since he had been widowed long ago and was alone, he could have married if he wanted to.

 

But the fact that she specifically became a mistress meant they couldn’t publicly announce that fact.

 

Who could such a person be?

 

Could it be Sophia?

 

Sophia Byzantium. Her original name was Sophia Hudlren.

 

The woman who had been a candidate for Fillen’s fiancée along with me.

 

If it was her, originally a princess of the Hudlren Duchy, she would know ancient language.

 

She had also hated me terribly.

 

So I momentarily thought it might be her, but only briefly.

 

‘It wouldn’t be her.’

 

Having originally been a duke’s daughter, Sophia’s pride was sky-high.

 

She who didn’t even treat anyone below count as nobility wouldn’t have become a mere baron’s mistress.

 

Then who could it be? I couldn’t think of anyone else.

 

“What does that mistress look like? Could I possibly meet her?”

 

I asked thinking they would naturally have captured the mistress after hearing Baroness Britina’s confession.

 

But apparently not, as Kalian shook his head.

 

“That won’t be possible. That mistress already ran away.”

 

“Ran away?”

 

“Yes. We went to catch her right after hearing Baroness Britina’s confession, but she had already fled.”

 

Did she immediately flee upon hearing news that Baroness Britina was captured?

 

She was a woman with uselessly sharp instincts.

 

“But I did find out what she looks like.”

 

Kalian’s expression became deliberately serious.

 

“They said she was a beautiful woman with blonde hair and blue eyes.”

 

“…!”

 

As soon as I heard Kalian’s words, one woman came to mind.

 

Sisly Helios.

 

‘Come to think of it, that woman was also royalty.’

 

Being royalty, Sisly would also know ancient language well.

 

Moreover, she had hated me to death because of Fillen’s matter.

 

To survive, she had rushed into Fillen’s bedroom and lied about being pregnant, among other crazy acts unthinkable for a princess.

 

Especially, I couldn’t forget how she killed Misa to frame me as a criminal.

 

So there was plenty of possibility that Sisly had become Baroness Britina’s mistress to get revenge on me.

 

‘The problem is that Sisly fell off a cliff and died.’

 

More precisely, she was presumed dead, but given the circumstances, the probability of that woman being alive was extremely low.

 

But what if, really what if, there was a 0.1 percent chance that woman was alive?

 

“…”

 

Suddenly my spine went cold and I hugged my arms.

 

I wasn’t afraid of meeting her again.

 

What was scary was the fact that she, whom I thought was dead, might be alive.

 

Even if I killed her before my eyes, she would survive tenaciously like a cockroach and continue to torment me.

 

So I was afraid that people around me might be harmed.

 

What if someone precious to me died again, like Misa?

 

“Haha, I’ll never die!”

 

Sisly’s eerie laughter echoed in my ears and my body trembled.

 

I clenched my arms tightly and hung my head low.

 

“I won’t die until I get revenge on you!”

 

Seeing that I was hearing such hallucinations, it seemed the effects of the Molentze fruit hadn’t completely worn off yet.

 

So there’s nothing to fear. This is a hallucination caused by drugs. It’s not real.

 

“I can’t die alone. I can’t be miserable alone. I’ll take you with me. You too…!”

 

“Leilah!”

 

The strong grip on my shoulders brought me back to my senses.

 

When I raised my head, I saw deep blue eyes looking at me with concern, having moved to sit beside me.

 

While Sisly’s blue eyes were eerie and gave me chills, Kalian’s blue eyes calmed my heart just by looking at them.

 

It was like being in a mother’s embrace, I suppose.

 

Though I’d never felt a loving mother’s embrace, if I had a mother, it would feel like this.

 

“Are you okay?”

 

“Yes. I’m fine.”

 

It wasn’t empty words – I really was fine.

 

The moment I saw Kalian’s eyes and heard his voice, the hallucinations disappeared like magic.

 

But we were too close.

 

Belatedly realizing this fact, I subtly moved back.

 

Kalian looked at his hand that had been holding my shoulder, then looked at me again.

 

“That necklace.”

 

At Kalian’s observation, I touched the necklace I was wearing.

 

“It’s the necklace I gave you as a birthday present.”

 

“You remember.”

 

“Of course I remember. Do I look like an idiot who can’t even remember a gift I gave to the woman I like?”

 

That’s not what I meant.

 

No, more than that, the woman he likes.

 

At his direct words, I blushed.

 

Kalian chuckled softly seeing me like that.

 

“You wore it once at the New Year festival then didn’t wear it again, so I thought you didn’t like it, but I guess that wasn’t the case.”

 

He remembers that too. I was a bit surprised. Usually people don’t notice such small changes.

 

And I corrected what seemed to be a misunderstanding on Kalian’s part.

 

“It’s not that I don’t like the necklace, I just didn’t wear it because I didn’t have a dress that matched it.”

 

“Are you saying you want me to buy you a dress too?”

 

“Oh, no!”

 

When I startled and denied it, Kalian laughed. It was clearly a laugh meant to tease me.

 

Embarrassed by his teasing and annoyed at him for making fun of me, I bit my lips tightly.

 

Then Kalian shrugged his shoulders lightly and touched the blue gem hanging at the end of my necklace.

 

“It’s still intact.”

 

What’s still intact?

 

More than that, this seems too close.

 

His hand hovering around my neck made me so conscious that I couldn’t even breathe properly.

 

I forgot to breathe and stiffened my body, watching Kalian’s actions intently.

 

Kalian touched the gem on the necklace with a serious expression for a long while before removing his hand.

 

“If you don’t dislike the necklace, I’d like you to wear it often.”

 

Only then could I breathe comfortably again, and I let out a big breath.

 

“If possible, I’d like you to always wear it when you go out. Can you do that for me?”

 

Why is he making such a strange request?

 

Could it be that he’s sulking because I don’t wear the necklace often enough?

 

“I understand.”

 

I didn’t quite understand the reason, but it wasn’t a difficult request, so I readily accepted.

 

Only then did Kalian seem relieved as he smiled broadly and examined my face carefully.

 

“You still don’t look well. If you’re feeling very unwell, have the court physician examine you.”

 

“I’m really fine.”

 

“But you were swaying earlier.”

 

“That was just a momentary bout of anemia.”

 

I couldn’t bring myself to say I had heard Sisly’s voice, so I vaguely brushed it off.

 

“Anemia.”

 

Kalian frowned.

 

“That’s a condition caused by not eating enough.”

 

“It’s not necessarily that…”

 

“I’ll have to make sure you eat well.”

 

Kalian, who had reached his own conclusion, rang the bell.

 

Soon an attendant entered, and Kalian stood up and said,

 

“I’ll be having dinner with Baron Aster, so prepare accordingly.”

 

“Yes, Your Majesty.”

 

I also stood up and waved my hands in refusal.

 

“I’m fine.”

 

“I’m not fine.”

 

Kalian answered firmly.

 

“So have dinner before you go. I need to see with my own eyes that you’re eating well.”

 

Should I not have mentioned the anemia? I regretted it.

 

It seemed like he intended to have dinner alone with me, without calling anyone else.

 

Though I had eaten with him countless times, dining alone together was still burdensome.

 

It was even more burdensome now that I had realized my feelings for him and knew how he thought of me.

 

“Countess Cloud will be waiting for me.”

 

“You don’t need to worry about her. She’s already gone back.”

 

Already gone back? What about me, who came with her?

 

“You don’t need to be bewildered. I told her to go back first.”

 

Kalian dismissed the attendant and picked up the coat that had been draped over the end of the sofa.

 

“Actually, the anemia was just an excuse to make you have dinner with me.”

 

Kalian continued with an embarrassed expression.

 

“Even if it wasn’t anemia, I would have found some reason to have dinner with you.”

 

That meant he had been thinking of having dinner with me from the start.

 

Kalian’s feelings were both burdensome and pleasant.

 

Two emotions I thought couldn’t coexist swirled together in my heart.

 

“You’ll have dinner with me, won’t you?”

 

There was no reason to refuse, and even if there had been, I couldn’t possibly refuse when he was looking at me with such earnest eyes.

 

I smiled and nodded.

 

“Yes, I will.”

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