I Will Protect My Brother - Chapter 104

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Chapter 104
Eternity—I turned the word over in my mind.
‘It’s not wrong. As long as the Revival Crystal exists, I’ll keep coming back to life even after death.’
Kalien, of course, was a being unbound by the passage of time. Which meant I had pawned my eternity to him.
Of course, I had no intention of ever freeing Kalien either, so it was quite a fair and hopeful future for us both.
When exactly had the Elixir Imprinting begun?
‘Three years ago in Delpiam? No, seven years ago….’
A fifteen-year-old Kalien flashed through my mind, his face streaked with tears as he poured out his sorrow.
“I can’t exist without you, but you’re fine without me?”
‘Ah, so it started then.’
Across both my lives, Kalien was the only one who desperately needed me and sought me out.
Because of that trust, I had undoubtedly come to recognize him as my family, as the being who granted me the greatest sense of security.
I pulled a stack of books into my arms and buried myself deep into the sofa.
After saturating my entire body with Elixir last night, I was so drowsy I didn’t want to lift a single finger.
‘Ah, this is bliss….’
I never knew skipping dawn training could feel this sweet.
A few days ago, after I’d had to move my body out of necessity and Seongyeol’s fever spiked, I’d been resting obediently since.
Eating what my brother gave me, wearing what he dressed me in, sleeping as he put me to bed.
And leaning into his embrace whenever I felt like it.
At that thought, I suddenly missed Kalien.
I jolted in surprise and slapped both my cheeks with my hands.
“No, stop it. Control yourself, Rosien Wynyak. Are you trying to become a beast too?”
How long had it even been since he left!
But I couldn’t hold out for long.
About an hour passed. While I lay on the bed finally finishing a book I hadn’t completed, a chilling headache crashed over me again.
Ah, I’m really losing it.
“Kalian.”
Shame washed over me, but my spoiled whining had already become such a habit it spilled from my lips.
“Brother, my head hurts….”
My pride was wounded, but there was nothing I could do about it. Perhaps because of the experience of being driven to the brink of a rampage, now even the slightest headache made me panic and reach for Elixir first.
In the end, I had to admit it shamefully.
‘Rosien Wynyak, you’ve become a beast….’
I felt Kalien, who had been somewhere outside the Mountain Lodge, suddenly turn back. Even as the headache tormented me, satisfaction made my spirits soar.
He always came rushing back the moment I called, no matter where he was. That was probably why I’d fallen into this habit.
Kalien returned in mere minutes. The door creaked open.
“Rosy?”
Upon finding me sitting on the sofa with my knees and a pillow clasped in both arms, he hurried over. His hair and clothes were slightly damp—it must have been raining outside.
“What is it? Does something hurt? Your head?”
I nodded, and Kalien, brushing his wet hair back carelessly, sat beside me.
I received the familiar barrage of kisses.
It felt as though soap bubbles were popping softly near my heart. I tugged at Kalien’s sleeve.
Since I’d already admitted to becoming a beast enslaved to instinct.
“Let’s do it. I want to.”
Kalien laughed with satisfaction, as though he’d been waiting for those exact words.
“Now you’re speaking first and being so obedient.”
“Hurry….”
“As you command, princess.”
My increasingly active pursuit of him owed much to how noticeably gentler Kalien had become—he who once acted as though instinct itself possessed him.
He remained relentless, yes, but no longer did he drive me forward as though trying to sweep me away in currents of pleasure and drown me.
He quickly learned what I enjoyed and what I despised.
He even granted me moments of respite, and never tormented me until shameful sounds spilled from my lips.
Of course, this didn’t mean I’d regained composure. The acts themselves remained as they always were.
A pleasure almost violent swept through every part of me that touched him. Yet I was steadily becoming addicted to that ecstasy.
I couldn’t tell if the sun had set, if night had fallen, or if dawn had already broken. When I tangled frantically with my Elixir, I often forgot the passage of time itself.
“I wish you’d enjoy this more.”
Kalien exhaled sharply against my ear. I clung to his neck, too preoccupied with stifling my whimpers.
“I wish you’d grow accustomed to it faster.”
“How could I, ah, ever grow used to this for a lifetime….”
I had a premonition I could adapt but never truly become accustomed. I’d only just stopped crying out loud, yet the strange sensation of fullness deep within me remained difficult to endure.
Yet it brought with it a joy beyond the burden.
The reason I continued to recall this and seek out Kalien was likely because the latter overwhelmed the former.
“I love your expression right now.”
Kalien lifted my limp form lightly onto himself. The shift in position nearly made a gasp escape, which I barely managed to suppress.
“You’re so beautiful.”
“Wait. Not yet, don’t move yet….”
“You’re so beautiful I want to devour you entirely.”
My plaintive plea seemed to fall on deaf ears. Kalien buried his lips against the inside of my forearm, biting the tender flesh rather painfully.
“Say you want to do it again, Rosy.”
“That’s enough…! For now, it’s enough. Really.”
“Don’t you need just a little more? Hmm?”
“Stop… stop and give me some water.”
Kalien carelessly waved his right hand and found a cup on the nightstand. Like a baby bird receiving food, I gulped down the water he passed to me with his mouth.
My body melted satisfyingly in the languid afterglow. Without thinking, a drowsy murmur escaped me.
“That was good….”
Kalien, who had been pressing his lips against my closed eyelids, stilled.
I belatedly realized I’d just uttered the forbidden word that excited him most. I hastily added:
“Wait, I mean. This isn’t permission. I’m just saying that’s how I feel right now, and if we go any further I’ll really get angry….”
“Rosy, I didn’t say anything.”
“Your eyes look strange right now!”
“Then I’ll just imagine it. Keep talking. What felt good, and how, and why.”
Kalien demanded that I express every emotion I felt in honest language. He refused to give up, constantly seeking confirmation until some word spilled from my lips.
“You promised. If you want me to stop, you have to tell me everything instead.”
Eventually, I had no choice but to open my mouth.
“…Um… well, today, a little more….”
Since no one but Kalien was listening anyway, my voice grew increasingly timid. In the end, I barely whispered a few words directly into his ear.
Even that alone made my face burn as though it might burst. Still, I knew that confessing like this would make things easier for me next time.
“This is… too… deep…. I can’t breathe….”
“I see.”
“…You’re taking note of this, aren’t you?”
“Of course. I love that you tell me these things.”
Every time I answered hesitantly, he smiled as though he were the happiest person in the world.
Moreover, when I saw his eyes curve into that soft, crescent shape, I found myself wanting to do whatever he desired.
What was so difficult about being honest?
“Rosy. Do you need me?”
“Yes… I need you.”
“Did I make you feel good? As much as I feel?”
“That comparison seems a bit off. I have no idea how you feel or what you experience.”
Now that I thought about it, I became curious. I had never actually asked Kalien how he felt about the things we did together.
After pondering for a moment, Kalien spoke.
“When I’m with you, my entire being shatters into pieces. And you put me back together again.”
“Really?”
“Yes. You manipulate me however you please, and I find nothing unpleasant about it. I wish you’d do more. Shake me, drive me to the edge of reason. Ah, that would be wonderful. If only you would touch me a little more than you do now….”
“Please, stop. Don’t say things like that in public. People will think you’re a pervert.”
I hastily covered Kalien’s mouth with both hands. That was enough. He seemed to be in a similar state as me.
It felt as though we had exchanged pieces of ourselves. Yet those exchanged fragments fit perfectly into place, as though they were originally mine.
From the moment I acknowledged that love wasn’t so bad, the world of emotion expanded infinitely before me.
As long as I was careful not to let this unfamiliar feeling consume my reason, couldn’t I simply surrender to it completely?
For the next three days, I lived like a man of leisure with nothing to do.
And the morning after, I instinctively sensed that Seongyeol’s manifestation period had completely ended.
The Revival Crystal was performing its role perfectly. The faint residual heat and headache that had lingered vanished without a trace.
“Wow, everything in the world looks beautiful now….”
“I’m glad it ended quickly.”
Kalien said so reluctantly, but his eyes and drooping lips were full of regret.
“Even if it’s not Seongyeol… if you need me, tell me anytime, Rosy.”
“I don’t think that will happen for a while.”
I stretched refreshingly.
My Seongyeol manifestation cycle occurred roughly once every three months. As long as I stayed close to Kalien for the next three months, I wouldn’t have to endure that terrible pain again.
Kalien still looked melancholy.
“Kalian, why do you look so glum?”
“Just… thinking that you won’t need me this much anymore makes me feel a bit depressed. You won’t come to me first either.”
“Don’t be ridiculous. I’m not skipping our daily ‘treatment’ for anything. And once your Seongyeol awakening approaches, it’ll happen again anyway….”
I trailed off, clamping my mouth shut. Kalien’s eyes had begun gleaming with that excessive intensity again.
‘I’m not imagining this. I refuse.’
The mere thought sent chills racing down my spine.
He’d already gorged himself so thoroughly just suppressing my Seongyeol, and if he pushed me to the brink of my own awakening….
‘There wouldn’t be bones left to bury.’
Genuine terror seized me, and I frantically rubbed my arms with my hands.
“I swear I’ll never push you to the edge of a rampage.”
“Right, that can’t happen.”
“Mm….”
“Because then I might actually devour some part of your body whole.”
“….”
“But that will never occur. You’ll never leave my side, will you? Right?”
Kalien’s mind clearly contained no concept of “what if.” I reluctantly agreed, like eating mustard against my will.
“Right… I can’t go anywhere.”
This conversation couldn’t continue. I abruptly changed the subject.
“Brother. Once my Seongyeol fully subsides, we had something we agreed to do, didn’t we?”
“That’s right.”
Kalien readily affirmed it.
Once my body fully recovered, I was to receive a portion of the Lost Soul’s power from Kalien. The moment had finally arrived.

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