I Became the Wife of the Hero Who Killed Me - Chapter 152

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#Episode 152

 

My current physical condition was good, except for the muscle pain from the long-distance travel.

 

My bruised face and my left ear that couldn’t hear well had completely healed.

 

There were no political obstacles to separate us like in the Imperial Capital, and we had confirmed our affectionate feelings for each other, so now really…

 

‘All that’s left is to become true husband and wife.’

 

To be honest, I was nervous.

 

It was because I had no experience with such things.

 

Though I had indirectly learned about intimate matters between lovers through books, I had no direct experience throughout both my lives.

 

Even kissing was my first time in this life with Edwin.

 

‘It would be a lie to say I’m not scared, but I think it’ll be okay if it’s with Edwin.’

 

Suddenly I became conscious of the underwear I was wearing today.

 

I couldn’t remember what I had put on because I had rushed out after hearing that Edgar was skipping meals while waiting for me.

 

Edwin would surely say I was beautiful no matter what I looked like, but my position was a bit different.

 

I didn’t want to show him a chemise that was so worn the fabric had faded and stretched.

 

The servants had recommended throwing it away several times, but nothing was as comfortable as underwear that had been worn through the years.

 

“We’ve arrived.”

 

“…Ah.”

 

Lost in thought, I quickly raised my head at Edwin’s voice.

 

We had already arrived in front of my bedroom.

 

Unlike usual, there were no servants guarding the corridor, and even Nero was gone, probably taken by Berry, making the surroundings as quiet as death.

 

“Elisia.”

 

Edwin, who had been playing with my hair, lowered his head and kissed me.

 

I slightly raised my heels and accepted him.

 

All the thoughts filling my head flew away from the hot body temperature I felt from Edwin.

 

With roughened breathing, my body was gradually pushed backward.

 

Before I knew it, my back touched the wall.

 

“Damn, Elisia…”

 

As I panted breathlessly, Edwin, who had given me a moment to breathe, pressed his lips against mine again.

 

The atmosphere of desperate urgency was thrilling.

 

But if it was Edwin, if it was him, he could do anything to me.

 

It was the moment when I, having made up my mind, closed my eyes and was about to cling to his neck.

 

The heat that had been pressing against my lungs disappeared as if it were a lie.

 

“Then sleep well.”

 

“…?”

 

Edwin, who had lifted me from the wall and safely set me down on the floor, tidied my hair and dress sleeves that had become disheveled from kissing.

 

Then he stepped back, as if he would see me off as I entered the bedroom.

 

Pushed by the atmosphere of drawing a line, I entered the bedroom alone in bewilderment.

 

Perhaps I wasn’t the only one who had anticipated the deed, as my bedroom was decorated like a wedding night, unlike usual.

 

Low and soft lighting, pure white sheets, flower petals scattered on top, and even perfumed oil.

 

As I blinked blankly, I heard Edwin’s footsteps leaving the corridor beyond the closed door.

 

I waited, wondering if it might be a joke, but the footsteps grew more distant and soon completely disappeared around the corridor.

 

He had really left.

 

“What is this?”

 

No, what the hell?!

 

* * *

 

The next day, Edwin was the same as usual.

 

He woke up early at dawn to train, handled official duties, ate with me when I woke up, and afterward spent time with me or attended meetings depending on the situation.

 

I had no intention of holding Edwin back on days when he was busy with official duties.

 

But on days when he had no particular schedule, that is, on days when he stayed with me until night.

 

At such times, it seemed like there might be some progress, but Edwin didn’t seem to have any such intention at all.

 

When kissing, he couldn’t be more passionate, and I clearly felt that he wanted me too, but when the time came, he would invariably back away.

 

I didn’t know who to consult about this situation.

 

I eventually summoned Ramon and confessed everything that had happened so far.

 

“Am I the only one mistaken? Edwin doesn’t want me, but I’m just being presumptuous with my delusions?”

 

“So you’re saying nothing has happened between you two yet…?”

 

“Not in the Imperial Capital, not in Lombard.”

 

At Ramon’s question, I propped my chin and let out a deep sigh.

 

It’s unfair to kiss like you’re going to devour someone, but then not actually devour them.

 

“What do you think? Is Edwin not mentally prepared yet?”

 

“That definitely doesn’t seem to be the case.”

 

Ramon immediately denied my assumption.

 

“According to Agent… no, Bertol, His Excellency truly loves Madam. I can guarantee this with certainty.”

 

“What’s an agent?”

 

“There’s no way a man who loves a woman wouldn’t desire her.”

 

“Hey, what’s this about an agent?”

 

Ramon, who naturally skipped over my question, fell into deep thought.

 

He seemed to have something in mind.

 

“Could it be because of ‘that’ problem?”

 

He was referring to Edwin’s modesty.

 

This time I immediately denied Ramon’s assumption.

 

“That’s not it.”

 

When we confirmed each other’s feelings and kissed in the Imperial Capital, I felt a heavy and definite silent presence.

 

It was the same afterward.

 

The physical balance that had been disrupted from avoiding women too much seemed to have perfectly found its place.

 

The current Edwin was the most balanced(?) man in the world.

 

“Still, wouldn’t it be good to have an acupuncturist examine him once?”

 

“I think that part can be reassured, but if you judge it necessary, go ahead. Just make it unrelated to me.”

 

“If Madam says so, then that problem really seems to be resolved…”

 

Ramon, who was thinking deeply again, suddenly raised his head.

 

“How about Madam expressing your intentions more actively?”

 

“What do you mean by that? How can I be more active than this?!”

 

It wasn’t like I hadn’t made efforts.

 

Though embarrassing, I expressed my feelings of affection as much as possible, and when alone with him, I would rest my head on his shoulder or interlock fingers, showing my feelings in my own way.

 

Ramon shook his head as if that still wasn’t enough.

 

“His Excellency treats Madam so preciously, like a treasure. Like a sugar doll that would break with the slightest wrong touch.”

 

“Why is that?”

 

“Couldn’t he think that Madam isn’t mentally prepared yet? Have you ever directly told His Excellency that you want to consummate the marriage?”

 

“N-no, how could I say such an embarrassing thing directly?!”

 

When just holding hands makes my face burn with embarrassment, you want me to say I want to spend the night together?

 

Why don’t you just tell me to die of embarrassment instead?!

 

As I fumed, Ramon, like a strategist, came up with a quite plausible idea.

 

“First, call an astrologer to choose an auspicious day.”

 

“If I choose an auspicious day?”

 

“Then inform His Excellency about it. Since there’s only one thing an auspicious day could mean in this situation, wouldn’t His Excellency understand Madam’s wishes then?”

 

“Oh, really, oh…”

 

Just thinking about it was embarrassing.

 

Though it was better than directly saying I wanted to be intimate with him, bringing up talk about auspicious days was equally embarrassing.

 

But Ramon’s words made sense.

 

Edwin treated me preciously to an excessive degree.

 

Since I hadn’t directly said I wanted it, there was a possibility that Edwin judged I wasn’t ready yet and was suppressing his desires.

 

Ugh, I groaned and muttered.

 

“Is it proper for a duchess to use dark arts like astrology?”

 

“Is dark arts the issue right now? The two of you becoming a true married couple is directly connected to Lombard’s peace. I’m confident no one would take issue with it.”

 

“That’s true.”

 

Damn Edwin Nazar La Lombard, he really was a man who required a lot of attention.

 

But what could I do when I’d come to love even such a man.

 

For the sake of my lover who loved me so much that he didn’t hesitate to be unimaginably overprotective, I decided to make a special effort just this once.

 

“Secretly bring a skilled astrologer who can keep their mouth shut.”

 

“I receive your command.”

 

Ramon bowed his head.

 

* * *

 

Ramon was indeed a capable retainer.

 

On the very day he received the command, he brought a renowned astrologer from the Northern Region and chose an auspicious day for becoming husband and wife through divination.

 

He said that with three stars aligned in a straight line, there was an auspicious day nearby when an heir who would bring order and peace to Lombard could be conceived.

 

“When is that?”

 

“I report to the Duchess that the auspicious day indicated by the heavens is—”

 

The problem was that it was just two days away.

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