A Blank Slate Regression for the Idol That Lost His Original Mindset - Chapter 479

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A Regression Guide for Idols Who Lost Their Initial Intentions Episode 479

Whether I was happy about winning this time or not, Seo Yehyeon, whose mental state had crumbled from eating barely half a bowl of mulberries, jumped up from the pavilion saying he needed to exercise immediately.

From Seo Yehyeon running around the yard like crazy, I could feel his determination to burn off every single calorie from the mulberries he had consumed before going to sleep.

Wait, so he brought these planning to eat just one or two and call it quits? Well, even in my 31-year-old memories, Seo Yehyeon was constantly picking up mulberries to eat.

Whether it was because the silence was awkward or because he genuinely liked mulberries, there’s no way to know now.

I casually picked up one of the mulberries still filling half the bowl and tossed it into my mouth. It tasted exactly like I remembered.

Don’t I have any memories of going to a Michelin three-star restaurant somewhere? Instead of only helping me recover these dark and gloomy memories, why don’t you find some good memories like this to refresh my mind, huh?

While having these pointless thoughts, I reached out to grab a beer can when my gaze fell on that area from my memory that had been swollen red from tattoo inflammation.

It seems that with the severance from Gyeon Hajun, public criticism over KJ’s suicide and distrust of people regarding witnesses and evidence, plus a proper slump on top of all that, thirty-year-old me had collapsed to the point of not even taking care of my health.

Even so, to get a tattoo like that, shit… Did I really die from hepatitis C?

It was truly a good opportunity to realize once again that a healthy mind dwells in a healthy body.

According to Seo Yehyeon in my memory, a trainee committed suicide because of KJ, but I didn’t think I would have felt guilt over KJ’s death when he had paid the price for his own crimes.

If I had just properly presented witnesses or evidence, I probably would have received about two-thirds less criticism. Anyway, one-third of the criticism was inevitable no matter how things turned out, since KJ was dead, so that’s beside the point.

‘Then is Cha Yeonho trying to prevent that trainee’s suicide now?’

[Cha Yeonho- That former Shinwol trainee you received information about, who is he]

If so, that would roughly explain why he came to me looking for the former Shinwol trainee. Judging by the fact that I received information, there’s a high probability that trainee holds the key to events that will happen after age twenty-nine.

And since that’s something I want to prevent too, I could cooperate to the best of my ability. My original purpose wasn’t to send KJ to hell anyway. I simply wanted a world where creators have rightful ownership of their creations. I just happened to crush plagiarists and exploiters in the process.

But I had no connection to Shinwol, past or present. So there was no way I would have known any Shinwol trainees.

‘The composition community? Hmm, that place closed down a year after I made my first exposé.’

Even trying to think based on pre-regression standards, I couldn’t easily get a sense of it. After deciding I needed to recover more memories to figure it out, just as I was about to shift my contemplation to the second memory.

“I’m going inside to sleep now. If I stay here any longer, I’ll probably overconsume mulberries again. You look tired too, so come in and sleep soon.”

Seo Yehyeon, who had finally finished his midnight exercise show, gestured to me while catching his breath. I casually replied while lightly shaking the beer can in my hand.

“I’m planning to go in after finishing this. Hyung, go in first and sleep.”

“Drink in moderation and come in. If you’re still hungover tomorrow, you might end up drunk driving.”

“What are you worried about. Then I’ll just have Dobin drive. He’s covered under my car insurance too.”

“Hey, don’t just make me do it.”

“You got your driver’s license in just a week, so why are you like this, hyung-nim. Don’t tell me you’re afraid of the driving lessons I’d give you? I haven’t even caught half of what Dobin did, so if you’re scared, that would just make you more of a coward than Dobin.”

“You think I’d fall for that kind of provocation?”

“It’s not provocation, just stating facts, hyung-nim.”

“Ugh, hearing that ‘hyung-nim’ after so long really pisses me off!”

Come to think of it, in my memory I was worried about Seo Yehyeon’s drunk driving, but now Seo Yehyeon is worried about me getting caught for drunk driving.

As soon as Seo Yehyeon went inside, I lay back down on the pavilion. The cool pavilion floor touched my back and the alcohol buzz that had risen somewhat subsided.

Since the me in the 5th cycle memory had a danger system, this 5th cycle was likely not the current sincerity system I possess, but rather one of those multiple cycles that Cha Yeonho remembers, connected to Cha Yeonho and the danger system.

Seeing that the ■■ system that asked if I wanted to patch had the exact same font and color as the current sincerity system, it’s certain that the two regressions caused by sincerity happened after the 5th cycle and aren’t included in those 5 cycles.

It seems that I, who possessed the danger system, also have memories up to age thirty-one like Cha Yeonho.

And from the context, it seems each member had memories of one cycle each from the very beginning. Looking at Seo Yehyeon who brought sheet music and was stunned by my words, he apparently didn’t know I had memories too.

Those bastards, even then they secretly wanted to sing 【All Right or Night】.

Or… maybe the fact that Navy received the rookie award with that song, which we couldn’t get, was deeply embedded in the members’ memories too. Or maybe not.

However, what bothered me was the danger status window that kept annoyingly displaying warnings.

Right, the one that’s supposedly with Cha Yeonho now.

‘Danger isn’t a warning. It was a kind of disguise that drove me, the host, to extremes.’

The fact that I had it means I was the host. But then I needed to figure out why Cha Yeonho has become the host now.

‘After facing Jeongjun’s death one more time, I kept turning back time every time you left after that.’

According to this, I never had any choice to turn back time from the beginning, all regressions were centered around Cha Yeonho, and the goal of ‘success’ presented by the danger system was likely just a disguise to drive me to extremes, like the danger itself.

The answer was already there from how it would raise danger levels and make me view members as burdens, even when Seo Yehyeon suggested choices that would benefit the group.

And in conclusion.

‘If I can’t save Jeongjun this time, it’s over. That was the beginning of the fundamental bet.’

This statement indicated that Cha Yeonho was the starting point of all regressions.

If I had turned back time, how would Cha Yeonho remember what happened after my death?

KJ who committed suicide, me who was properly entangled in that death. And Cha Yeonho who wants to change such an ending.

Cha Yeonho had confessed with his own mouth that he came to my funeral.

Would the guy who mocked that the estranged friend didn’t even stay at my funeral hall for a minute have come to my funeral for pure memorial purposes?

If the one busy tearing me apart asking to see my death was Cha Yeonho.

If he came to my funeral and captured that sight in his eyes to mock me, if his resentment toward me was that deep, wouldn’t he be fully capable of choosing to torment me by making me a host?

Seeing that he’s currently in the position of being a host himself, it seems simple torment wasn’t the entire reason.

Well, I want to prevent that trainee’s death too, so I’d gladly cooperate on that matter, but still…

‘I can’t give complete cooperation.’

Who knows when or how someone I’m not connected to through any good circumstances might stab me in the back.

Once I became aware of this suspicion, suddenly all his actions of revealing his cards and his friendly attitude toward me felt nothing but suspicious.

Though I didn’t trust Cha Yeonho from the beginning anyway.

I roughly organized my thoughts and got up from where I was lying on the pavilion.

Still, since it was September, as if we were slowly entering the beginning of autumn, the night breeze was cool.

When I returned to the room, the first thing I saw was Seo Yehyeon sprawled out sleeping on top of a pile of no less than five blankets.

That would be more comfortable than a bed. He should have slept like that from the start, so why did he come out and give me that dreamlike memory bug?

When I looked away from Seo Yehyeon, I could see the youngest line sleeping in a chaotic mess as if playing Tetris. Unfortunately, Seo Yehyeon was occupying the large space between the two, leaving no room for me to sleep.

Clicking my tongue, I looked for space to lie down and found a spot where I could at least stretch out my legs.

It was right next to where the bed was located. It was definitely left empty because everyone avoided the spot next to Gyeon Hajun, who was notoriously light sleeper.

I tiptoed carefully toward the empty space to avoid making footsteps. Just before lying down next to the bed, I looked back at Gyeon Hajun sleeping soundly.

Even that Seo Yehyeon from before regression came looking for me, you bastard. I am curious now though. What exactly was the news about you that the pre-regression Seo Yehyeon was trying to tell me?

Even though it’s news I can never hear now.

Or maybe we reconciled in the 6th cycle that I don’t remember.

Seeing that I’m not particularly bothered even after recovering memories of our estrangement at age twenty-eight.

Looking at how Seo Yehyeon and Ryu Jaehee weren’t even disgusting to look at when we returned to debut days, it seems to unconsciously influence me.

As for Kim Dobin, well… rather than having conflicts, we just didn’t talk and lived our lives, so it was more awkward and distant, making him less disgusting to look at than Seo Yehyeon from the start.

Of course, that was my wishful thinking. I still don’t know whether Gyeon Hajun’s memory was from the 2nd cycle or 6th cycle, or if the 6th cycle even really exists.

I can find out what cycle this is later by using this memory as bait when talking to Cha Yeonho.

Afraid that even a sigh might wake the light-sleeping Gyeon Hajun, I swallowed my frustration and just ruffled my hair before lying down roughly on the floor next to the bed and closing my eyes.

Lastly, the ■■ system.

Sincerity is three characters, so why are there only two squares? From the circumstances, this is definitely our house system.

Seeing that our house system is with me now, it seems I eventually agreed to patch it, but I have no idea what process I went through.

If the 6th cycle really exists, and this system was patched in that 6th cycle, freeing me from being a host of the danger system and making Cha Yeonho become the host instead as a consequence…

‘Then is our house system not simply sincerity?’

I had an intuition that this ■■ was the keyword Cha Yeonho mentioned for recovering memories.

I was quite tired from using my brain too much after a long time.

I should probably make Kim Dobin drive tomorrow. The excuse of the beer I drank today should be enough.

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