A Blank Slate Regression for the Idol That Lost His Original Mindset - Chapter 232

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Regression Manual for an Idol Who Lost Their Original Intentions Chapter 232

“Why, did you fight with Yehyeon Hyung?”

At my question, Ryu Jaehee pressed his lips tightly shut and shook his head.

“Hey, you need to talk so Hyung can decide whether to consider your sudden request or not.”

When I threw out the criticism, Gyeon Hajun lightly tapped my shoulder. It was definitely a signal to speak more gently.

“That’s right, Youngest Member. What happened that made you come to this hyung with such an out-of-the-blue request?”

I asked again, softening my tone as much as I possibly could.

A long silence followed, and just as my patience was about to run out, Ryu Jaehee finally let out a heavy sigh and opened his mouth.

“If I do this stage with Yehyeon Hyung, I feel like I’ll keep doubting my own abilities during our group activities going forward.”

I understood what he meant immediately and tried to control my stiffening expression.

I couldn’t not know what those words meant. It was an emotion I had experienced too.

However, unlike the current Ryu Jaehee who was being honest, I couldn’t tell anyone out of pride and let it rot inside me, then blamed all the scratches on my self-esteem on Seo Yehyeon.

That was the turning point when Seo Yehyeon and I before regression became worse than strangers.

“Did something happen?”

“Back then, when we did busking in New York, you remember right? When we were singing by ourselves there were hardly any audience members, but suddenly people gathered when Yehyeon Hyung sat next to us, Hyung remembers that too, right?”

No wonder he asked me how the busking was that night at the hotel. He had been keeping that incident in his heart.

“But weren’t you the one who called SOS to Yehyeon Hyung?”

At my question, Gyeon Hajun poked my side with his elbow.

“I did… It was half joking, but I didn’t know it would really turn out that way. Of course, I’m not blaming Yehyeon Hyung.”

Ryu Jaehee smiled bitterly as he revealed his inner thoughts.

“Maybe more passersby just happened to come by and that’s why we got an audience? You can’t say for certain that Yehyeon Hyung was the cause.”

“I don’t know. I still can’t be sure. Whether it was coincidence, or if it really was thanks to Yehyeon Hyung.”

He paused briefly, then with a troubled expression, Ryu Jaehee rubbed his face dry and muttered gloomily.

“If it’s the latter… that means my skills aren’t enough to make people stop and listen.”

Before I could say anything, Gyeon Hajun was a step faster in opening his mouth.

“That’s why I hoped you would try busking once more in a crowded place. Then you could have confidence in your abilities.”

Gyeon Hajun let out a short sigh. So Gyeon Hajun had already noticed Ryu Jaehee’s condition?

Was I the only one being clueless, going ‘It was fun doing a duet with you, haha!’ like an idiot?

Perhaps embarrassed that his inner thoughts had been read, Ryu Jaehee avoided Gyeon Hajun’s eyes and looked at me to ask.

“Hyung, were you really okay with it? Am I the only one being anxious and throwing a tantrum over something so trivial?”

Facing those desperate eyes that seemed to beg me to prove he wasn’t being strange, my mouth tasted bitter.

“I was like that too.”

Of course, I was talking about the past before regression, not the busking, but Ryu Jaehee couldn’t know that fact, so he looked relieved.

But that was only momentary – perhaps recalling the content of the first request he’d made since coming here, his face turned pale.

“Then my asking Hyung for this favor… maybe I should ask the other hyungs instead… Doby Hyung does performance so that won’t work, Hajun Hyung?”

I calmed down the rambling Ryu Jaehee.

“Hey, it’s fine. Daydream would probably prefer the heart dance with Seo Yehyeon, no, Yehyeon Hyung, over the heart dance they saw with Kim Dobin.”

“Hyung, are you really okay with doing the stage with Yehyeon Hyung?”

“Didn’t you also judge that me and Yehyeon Hyung doing a unit would be the second-best option, which is why you specifically asked me instead of Juni?”

At my words that hit the mark, Ryu Jaehee flinched. I got up from my chair and lightly patted his shoulder.

“I’ll switch with you, so go feel properly on a stage where you stand completely alone that you have enough qualifications and ability to receive cheers.”

Since I had experienced the same emotion, I knew the solution well too.

Before that inferiority complex turned into resentment toward an innocent target, the only way was to prove to himself that these cheers were something he had achieved entirely through his own abilities.

I had ruined my relationship with Seo Yehyeon because of this and only realized it after going back in time, but I hoped the youngest member wouldn’t follow in my footsteps.

“But when you switch with Yehyeon Hyung, explain the reason properly. That it’s because of yourself, not because of Hyung. Otherwise there might be misunderstandings.”

If he switched without giving a reason, Seo Yehyeon would definitely think Ryu Jaehee made that choice because of his own lack of skill and would want to dig a hole and hide.

He was someone who gave up his solo stage because he was embarrassed to show fans an inadequate performance due to his own skills.

It wasn’t so much that I was worried about Seo Yehyeon, but rather the awkward atmosphere that would arise between Ryu Jaehee and Seo Yehyeon. I also had to make it clear that Seo Yehyeon had no fault in Ryu Jaehee’s choice.

Ryu Jaehee nodded with a serious face and left the studio with a much more comfortable expression.

“Surprising. I thought you’d say you never felt that way. Were you being considerate of Jaehee?”

Gyeon Hajun asked me while repeatedly playing the melody of the part I had corrected.

I scratched my head at Gyeon Hajun’s gaze that finally showed subtle emotion, like looking at a prodigal son who had matured.

“Why did you think that?”

“Because Eden, you’re overflowing with pride and confidence in your abilities. How could I not know that?”

Gyeon Hajun grinned mischievously. The hand patting my back saying I’d really become a proper leader now was a bonus.

I looked at the friend who would have struggled with guilt alongside me every time my pre-regression self chipped away at my pride and confidence in my abilities, and shrugged my shoulders lightly.

“Well, a small part of that is true.”

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“I really don’t understand, okay? What’s the relationship between helping him gain confidence in his abilities and pushing me into a pit of fire?”

As soon as we tried matching the solo stage choreography for the first time, Seo Yehyeon collapsed onto the practice room floor with a completely drained face and asked me as if lamenting.

“Even if you don’t understand, you still agreed to switch. And why is doing a unit stage with me a pit of fire? Anyone would think I’ve been tormenting Hyung.”

When I grumbled in frustration, Seo Yehyeon rubbed his forehead and replied.

“Because that youngest member’s face looked so desperate when he said that. And as for why it’s a pit of fire, put your hand on your heart and think about it yourself. You just tormented me because the hand heart angle wasn’t right.”

That’s because you kept making an S-shape when I told you to make a heart with my hand. Who asked you to match it perfectly? I don’t want to do a friendly hand heart with you either. It was already torture doing it with Kim Dobin.

“Sigh, it’s all my fault, all my fault.”

Seo Yehyeon let out a deep sigh and picked up a water bottle rolling around on the floor.

“You’re not going to say it’s the sin of being born with that face, are you?”

“No, the sin of helping Doby but not properly finding a busking hotspot. Am I you? I can’t say such embarrassing things.”

Seo Yehyeon looked at me with disgust and muttered dryly while opening the water bottle cap.

“I don’t particularly think it was thanks to my face. It’s just that passersby happened to walk by at that timing.”

Seo Yehyeon gulped down the water and threw the bottle at me while continuing.

“Could they have seen my face from that far away? They came because they were drawn to Jaehee’s singing.”

“Why are you leaving out my guitar playing and rap?”

“Of course, they might have come because they were drawn to the singing and then enjoyed looking at my face.”

“Excuse me? Why are you suddenly drifting into narcissism when things were going well?”

“But they wouldn’t keep standing there until the performance ended just to look at my face. Those people clearly stayed to appreciate the music. And even if my face works in Korea, there’s no guarantee it would work overseas too.”

It does work though.

Since I’d seen it work well overseas too, I couldn’t applaud his self-objectification skills.

“What about you, Yoon Eden?”

“What about what?”

“Back then, didn’t you have the same thoughts as Jaehee?”

I shrugged at the cautious question.

“Well, this Yoon Eden-nim hit number 1 with a solo song, proving my skills are amazing even without your face buff, so naturally I believed in my abilities.”

Meaning I had already overcome it. When I smiled confidently, Seo Yehyeon, who had been gaping with an incredulous expression for a moment, got up saying we should just practice.

While making a heart by joining hands with Seo Yehyeon who was singing the chorus hook, I seriously pondered as reality suddenly hit me.

I can’t not perform this damn heart dance.

Should I just insist that I’ve lost confidence in my abilities too?

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“What? We should try ticketing too?”

On the day of Rev’s first concert ticketing, I asked back with a sour expression at Ryu Jaehee’s suggestion.

“Why should we? If we succeed, wouldn’t we be taking away fans’ seats?”

“That’s why we could do something fun like a lottery event to send concert tickets to fans.”

When I heard it, it seemed like a good idea. With everyone’s agreement, all five Rev members joined the ticketing war.

“Then let’s hurry to the PC Bang.”

“Why go to a PC Bang? You have a laptop.”

“Aren’t you taking ticketing too lightly?”

“Hey, tickets that are meant to be caught will be caught even with a smartphone.”

“Or should we experiment one by one to see which device catches them best? One person with a PC Bang computer, one with a laptop, one with an iPad, one with a smartphone, and the remaining person… what else is there?”

“Let’s contact Manager Hyung and have two people go to the PC Bang. Then we can film it and upload it as a vlog.”

Thus, the devices for ticketing were decided by ladder drawing at Reve’s 527th meeting.

Fortunately, I won the laptop.

“So Yehyeon Hyung and I will go to the PC Bang, Eden Hyung gets the laptop, Hajun Hyung gets the iPad, and Doby Hyung gets the smartphone.”

Ryu Jaehee announced the results in front of the camera that had been set up temporarily.

“This kind of thing is only fun when there’s desperation involved. How about 1 million won for whoever gets the ticket?”

“It used to be 100,000 won, but now it’s jumped 10 times. It seems to prove that Hyung’s bank account situation has become that much more abundant, so I’m very happy.”

“So it naturally becomes me covering everything?”

“Or we could each contribute 200,000 won to make 1 million won…”

“Forget it, forget it, man. You’re asking me to squeeze blood from a flea.”

“As expected of Reve’s patriarch! Now, let’s give a round of patriarchal applause!”

What the hell is patriarchal applause.

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