The Return of Lilietta - Chapter 183

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Chapter 183

“Are you having a hard time because you can’t forget that person?”

The woman smiled.

“Shall I comfort you?”

“….”

“You have no experience with women, don’t you? If you try it once, it might turn out to be nothing much.”

She leaned her head toward him and whispered.

“Love, in the end, is all just lust. No matter how tender it is in memories, it can’t beat the warm flesh you can touch right now.”

“….”

“I’ll help you, Brigadier General. Forget, give up, and find peace.”

The woman placed her hand on the buttons of his uniform. Gid watched the scene with unfocused eyes, then muttered in a voice that sounded like it was sinking underwater.

“Would I find peace if I gave up?”

“Of course.”

“Nothing but lust, you say….”

“What meaning could there be in a man liking a woman? Strip it all away and it’s all the same. You just want to hold them in your arms. Love and all that—it’s not such a noble emotion. It’s all just lust dressed up prettily.”

The woman with sly eyes chattered as she unbuttoned his shirt.

“You’ve maintained your chastity and tried hard enough until now. With a body like this and a face like this, being so pure and innocent… But once you have real experience, your thoughts will change.”

“….”

“Love in memories is nothing. It’s like some cheap toy you wanted as a child. When you actually get it, you think, ‘Huh, was it this shabby? Did I really want this so badly?’ That’s what it is.”

She tilted her head toward him and whispered.

“I’ll make you forget.”

Gid didn’t push her away. With a dazed expression, he let her do as she pleased.

When his upper body was almost exposed, he suddenly raised his hand and ran it through her red hair. A tender touch.

Thinking Gid was responding, the woman looked up and smiled.

When their eyes met, his face contorted. As if he’d been stabbed with a knife.

Gid roughly pushed her away and bent his head toward the floor beside the bed.

Then he vomited up everything inside him. Since all he’d consumed was alcohol and medicine, that’s all that came out.

The woman who had rolled off onto the floor groaned in pain, then looked at him with an incredulous expression.

“Excuse me, Brigadier General, you’re throwing up because you’re drunk, right?”

“….”

“You’re not throwing up from looking at my face, are you? Right?”

“….”

Gid continued dry heaving without responding. The woman glanced down to check his lower body.

“…You really can’t do it. This is unbelievable.”

She gathered her clothes and stood up, then grabbed the door handle and turned back to say to him, who was still vomiting.

“If you change your mind, come find me, Brigadier General. It’s okay if it doesn’t work well. Just looking at your face makes it all bearable. I can wait until you give up.”

“Don’t wait.”

Gid wiped his mouth and spoke in a hoarse voice. The woman tilted her head.

“What?”

“If I could have given up that easily, I would have given up long ago.”

He staggered to his feet and collapsed carelessly onto the bed. Slurred words flowed out.

“How easy it would have been if it were simple lust. Her body is even still alive and breathing. As Dorothy….”

“What are you talking about.”

The woman clicked her tongue, then closed the door and left. Left alone, Gid raised his arm to cover his eyes. He muttered drowsily.

“There’s no such thing as a noble emotion like love.”

A hollow laugh escaped.

“That must be right, since what I’m doing is probably no longer love. This kind of thing….”

He clutched his own face.

“I want to give up.”

I want to stop now.

“But still, every time I check the collateral as if bewitched, and then again, once more….”

Gid panted and gasped for breath, then spoke in anguish.

Rita, you’re like a curse.

A curse that binds me to this hell.

Lillieta hesitantly backed away from that scene.

The fog swallowed her from behind. His disheveled figure disappeared, buried in the fog.

She looked around in the hazy mist.

Unlike the other memories that had stayed quietly, the scenes here were gradually moving away from her. As if they wanted to escape from her.

She peered at those things flickering beyond the fog.

The scent of roses was sickeningly strong.

She could hear the words he spoke like screams, sometimes like moans.

I want to forget you.

I’m tired.

I can’t find you anywhere.

There’s no way to save you.

I don’t know how to return to the time when you existed.

I want to just give up.

But why?

I’m afraid.

I can’t imagine myself having forgotten you.

Would that be me?

The times I spent with you made me who I am.

Would I still be me even after forgetting you?

So much time has passed that everything except you has become dim.

It feels like only you remain for me now.

I want to give up… but that’s why I can’t give up.

It’s like a curse.

I want to die.

I want to end it.

But I can’t.

Because you in my flashbacks are so beautiful.

Because I envy myself who was by your side.

After seeing that, I’ll start this whole thing again.

But I can’t not look either.

Without even that, how could I endure….

I’m already living only for that moment.

I think I’m going crazy. No, am I already crazy?

I understand why the Pascals were happy when they saw I was chosen by the star.

I wish someone would end this for me.

Since I can’t give up my collateral myself, since I can’t pull you out of me myself, since I can’t break this curse myself.

I wish someone would kill me forever.

Then I could rest.

I think I can understand that bastard, disgustingly.

Disgusting….

I think I’ve changed too much, Rita.

The me you knew wasn’t like this.

I want to destroy everything.

Why are you fine? Why are you all acting like nothing’s wrong?

You’re okay even though she’s not here?

Why?

I can’t do that.

Even if I want to, I can’t.

What should I do, I want to kill them all.

Should I kill them? Should I tear them all to pieces? Just like what happened to you.

Would that make me feel a little better?

Since it’ll all be undone when I regress anyway.

It doesn’t matter what I do, right?

Lillieta stopped breathing and stepped backward.

The memories fleeing from her fade away beyond the fog. His scream-like voices can no longer be heard.

Only then could she breathe. Her stomach twisted as dry heaves rose up.

She crouched down in place, clutching her chest as she caught her breath.

“Huu, heok, huk…”

Her vision was blurry. Only after rubbing her eyes did Lillieta realize she was crying.

She sobbed quietly in that state. She couldn’t understand exactly why she was crying.

As she forcibly swallowed what kept flowing out, the fog suddenly churned.

Her body shook.

Rita!

Someone’s call struck her mind like thunder. Cracks appeared in the world made of fog and memories. It crumbled down.

Lillieta blinked her eyes.

Once, twice, three times.

After blinking several times, she saw a changed scenery.

No, was it the same?

She could see fog surrounding all sides.

She blinked again.

Only then could she see the green magical power mixed in with the fog. Oli? It looked like Oli’s magic.

There was no longer any scent of roses.

She looked around.

The broken stands. The Red Queen standing tall as if to pierce the sky. The Old King swinging his sword. The Black Jester grinning with his mouth torn wide.

The Black Domain surging as it suppressed them.

It was Gid’s Domain.

She blinked again.

Gid was holding her with one arm while stabbing his sword with the remaining arm, spreading his domain to suppress the demonic beasts.

He looked down at her with a pale face.

“Rita, are you okay? Are you coming to your senses? You were caught in a hallucination—”

You’re like a curse.

I wish someone would kill me forever.

Should I kill them? Should I tear them all to pieces? Just like what happened to you.

Since it’ll all be undone when I regress anyway.

It doesn’t matter what I do, right?

Over his face with drooping eyebrows, over his worried voice, the twisted voices overlapped.

She couldn’t hear his words properly.

Lillieta unconsciously pushed him away.

“Rita?”

She twisted her entire body to escape from his embrace and breathed heavily. Unable to move freely while maintaining his domain, he looked at her in surprise.

“Why are you crying?”

“…”

“What did you see?”

“…”

“It’s okay, Rita. It’s all the Red Queen’s hallucination. You know that, right? Remember what happened to Luca? It just shows past nightmares repeatedly. They’re all finished events—”

“It’s not finished.”

Lillieta sharply cut off his words. Wiping away the tears dripping down her chin with the back of her hand, she spoke in a voice that sounded strangled.

“I saw your memories, Gid.”

The expression disappeared from Gideon’s face.

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