The Return of Lilietta - Chapter 18

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Chapter 18

“That’s not it, Lili.”

Leonhardt buried his face in his hands and let out a groan before adding.

“The very fact that you, who were born here, innocent you, were dragged to such a hellish place isn’t okay. It’s not okay at all.”

“But I’m really fine—”

“No, Lili. You should be angry. You should be furious and feel wronged about what happened to you. You should confide in us about how hard it was and complain. That would be normal, but right now you’re… too calm. Strangely so.”

He looked at her with an expression that seemed ready to cry. Rita was slightly flustered.

‘I’m strange?’

She checked her own condition. There was nothing wrong with her. Even if a demon beast appeared right now, she was confident she could subdue it without being shaken.

‘My body is weak and I don’t have a gun, which is inconvenient… but my Od aptitude is that much better instead.’

Her mental state was not just fine but healthy. She wasn’t having seizures, nor did she have high fever or vomiting symptoms from stress, and there were no hallucinations or auditory hallucinations. Her emotions were extremely calm too.

‘Being calm is a problem? Not getting angry?’

She had been angry too. There was no way she wouldn’t be angry at Pascal, who had stolen all of Lillieta’s memories and turned her into a different person.

‘But… just because I regained Lillieta’s memories doesn’t mean I’m no longer Rita Pascal.’

Lillieta didn’t view the years she lived as ‘Rita Pascal’ as only terrible.

She didn’t want to deny ‘Rita Pascal’. Though it was difficult and painful, that life had value too and happy memories existed.

That’s why she had tried to return to her original world somehow even before regaining her memories.

‘Even now, that feeling remains the same. If I could go back, I’d want to.’

The family she barely regained was very precious, but the comrades left in that world were precious too. Here, there was nothing she needed to do, but there, there were many things that needed her.

‘Lillieta del Nisa Raskail’ was her, but ‘Rita Pascal’ was also her.

So her questions about being kidnapped were greater than her anger.

‘I want to know why and how Pascal committed such an act. I will definitely uncover his purpose and methods. In that process, I want to find out if other Pascals have returned like me…’

And if possible, she wanted to find a way to go back.

Of course, that didn’t mean she would leave immediately, but that she wanted to return after spending enough reunion time with her family.

‘These are my current feelings… is this strange?’

Should she be angrier? Should she deny the time she lived as ‘Rita Pascal’ and feel wronged? Should she forget the memories from that world now that she had regained her memories as Lillieta?

Rita couldn’t do that.

‘It’s not that I’m not angry at all. It wasn’t that it wasn’t hard either. But… if I had only lived as Lili, I wouldn’t have been able to meet my comrades or know magic gunmanship.’

She remained silent for a moment, then carefully explained.

“Brother, I seem calm because I’m really okay. Not only bad things happened in that world. It was a desperate place, but my comrades and I had hope, and we got along quite well.”

“…”

“I don’t get angry or complain because… I’ve learned to control my emotions. When I was young, I would quickly show my emotions and be elated or dejected over trivial things, but now I’m an adult too.”

Leonhardt opened his mouth to say something, then closed it again. He rubbed his face dry and spoke while still burying his face in his hands.

“Lili… do you remember what happened that night? How you ended up being dragged to such a world?”

“Yes. But I still don’t know the cause or purpose of that incident.”

“Will you tell me? What exactly happened to you that night?”

“That’s…”

Rita trailed off.

She had just been told she was strange for not getting angry and being too calm, so she didn’t know what reaction she’d get if she said she had decided to keep Hanna, who had kidnapped her even if she was being controlled, as her maid.

If she said she didn’t really trust that girl and was keeping her close to monitor and use her…

‘He might look at me even more strangely.’

Suddenly, she remembered the fate of a Pascal who had left the squad after regaining his family.

‘That kid died fighting demon beasts alone after being pushed away by his family. The bastards who survived said that. Wasn’t a Pascal’s child made for this kind of purpose anyway? How is that monster the same kind of person as us?’

Pascal’s Children were alien beings even in the world where she grew up. Ordinary people couldn’t understand them. Those who weren’t Pascals couldn’t fully accept Pascals.

Lillieta realized anew that she had become a very different person from the ‘Lili’ of ten years ago. And suddenly she became afraid.

‘What about my family? What if my parents and brothers can’t accept the changed me?’

If they said a monster like you isn’t our Lili.

‘That would… hurt a bit.’

When she couldn’t continue speaking and fell silent, Leonhardt raised his head. After observing Rita’s reaction, he smiled gently and spoke affectionately.

“It’s okay, Lili. You can tell me later. I was planning to hear the story when the whole family was gathered anyway.”

“…Yes.”

“For now, rest here. It would be good to think about how to redecorate this room too.”

Leonhardt was about to get up from his seat. Rita hurriedly called out to stop him.

“Brother, wait a moment.”

“What is it?”

“There’s something I’d like to ask of you.”

“What is it? Tell me anything.”

She chose her words carefully.

“About Hanna, who was assigned as my maid.”

“Ah, that girl. I thought she’d be scared because of that incident, but she said she wanted to continue serving you. She said that incident was her own careless mistake.”

“…Yes, I’d like you to investigate her in detail. I know she grew up under a single mother who worked as a maid here and then became alone, but I’d like to know as much detail as possible about her relationships – who her father was, if she has living relatives or people she meets frequently.”

“Her relationships? A maid’s?”

“There’s something I want to confirm. ‘Amethyst’ can do it, right?”

The Raskail Domain had large gem mines, and naturally gem cutting and gem trading were well developed.

‘Amethyst Jewelers’ was a venerable organization that the Raskail Family had directly cultivated to match the domain’s situation.

They operated naturally among ordinary jewelers, but in reality they were those who gathered information for the ducal house and secretly performed various tasks. They also had military power under the pretext of merchant escort.

Leonhardt was slightly puzzled but decided to grant Lillieta’s request.

“Yes, that’s not difficult. Come to think of it, you don’t have your own amethyst. You’re all grown up now.”

Direct blood relatives of Raskail were each assigned a responsible amethyst around age 16-18. They were secretaries and guards, while also being a means for the family head to monitor and control family members.

The title of Raskail’s amethyst was only known as the designation for direct subordinates that family members took with them, while the shadow organization operating disguised as jewelers was kept hidden.

“I’ll ask the jewelers to give you your amethyst while we’re at it. You can hear the information you requested from that person.”

“Thank you, brother.”

“It’s only natural. Is there anything else you need?”

“If there’s anything else…”

Rita hesitated for a moment, then continued.

“Could you get me a gun?”

“A gun?”

Leonhardt’s expression became very strange. She hurriedly elaborated in confusion.

“No, it’s not that I’m going to shoot anyone, it’s just… I’ve been living on battlefields continuously, but suddenly living without a single weapon makes me a bit anxious.”

Leonhardt recalled the scene of Rita threatening the maid with a broken mirror shard. Even the fact that she had cut her own hand on that mirror shard. And how she kept reaching for her waist.

“…You mean having a weapon makes you feel secure? Guns are dangerous to handle, is that okay?”

Rita almost burst out laughing. Asking Rita Pascal if she could handle guns well? It was a question she hadn’t heard in a really long time.

“Don’t worry, brother. Guns were my main weapon.”

When she answered with a smile, Leonhardt thought for a moment then asked back.

“There are many types of guns. What kind of gun do you need?”

“Do you happen to have magic guns?”

“Magic guns…? Sorry, I’ve never heard of those.”

“I thought so. Then what kinds of guns do you have?”

“There are many in the storage room. Would you like to go see them directly?”

“Yes!”

Rita’s eyes lit up as she sprang up from her seat. It was the most delighted she had looked so far, making Leonhardt let out a hollow laugh.

‘When she was little, she made that expression when seeing a new rabbit doll.’

It was the exact same expression as back then, but the object she was reacting to was completely different, making him feel the passage of lost years.

The fact that it was specifically guns made him think that blood couldn’t be deceived.

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