That Piece Of Trash Was Me - Chapter 58

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Chapter 58

 

 

 

Tears that had been kept somewhere deep inside began to well up in my eyes.

“…Tulia.”

Since when had Lisian stopped stuttering when saying my name?

“When I was young, it was. Mother’s…body… I saw, saw it.”

“….”

“Covered in blood, blood…. Mother’s hair that was like, like spring light….”

“….”

“Tangled in… bloody water, it, it was….”

“….”

“At that time… it seemed, seemed like spring had died.”

“….”

“From that day… on, onwards… forever….”

“Mother too….”

Was it because my insides were churning painfully to the bone?

In my mind, I had always called her the late Marquis’s wife, Marchioness Frazier, Tulia’s mother… such distant titles.

But what came out of my mouth was the word ‘Mother.’

“…Mother was like me too.”

“….”

“Did she have pink hair?”

I had never seen it in .

It wasn’t in Tulia’s memories either, and it was never mentioned—an unimportant setting.

Lisian, who had been gazing down at me quietly, slowly nodded his head.

“Yes.”

That sight was like stagnant winter wind scattering away.

I felt a little more pain and a little more sadness.

Lisian’s hand that brushed my cheek was ice-cold, unlike usual.

With those terribly cold hands, Lisian cupped his own face as if covering it.

“Tulia.”

“Yes….”

“Don’t die.”

“….”

“Promise me you won’t die, pro, promise me.”

“….”

“That you, you won’t leave us too….”

Ah, that’s right.

We were children who had been equally abandoned by our father.

Equally lost our mothers to death.

Equally had no place to call home.

Children who had just grown a little from there.

“…I promise. Lisian.”

Lisian was still covering his face.

Between his firm fingers, moisture slowly trickled down.

How ridiculous.

Even in this moment, I had such thoughts.

In , Lisian was like a towering early spring tree.

The firmness that stoically endures the passage of four seasons.

Perhaps that’s why.

With his pure and wistful silver hair like snowflakes falling on the back of one’s hand.

With his personality of always giving kind and gentle smiles to others.

Lisian Frazier did not cry.

He didn’t know how to cry.

Among all those countless game illustrations, there was only one illustration where Lisian showed tears.

And yet….

The tears falling onto my hand from Lisian were hot.

So hot.

It felt like getting burned.

So I cried too.

My throat churned with pain I couldn’t pinpoint or explain exactly where or why it hurt. My insides ached so much that even my bones hurt.

“I’m sorry….”

Words that came from someone’s mouth, an apology directed to someone unknown.

The wounds that had been clustered together for so long scattered drop by drop.

 

* * *

 

“Miss!”

They say life is all about timing, don’t they?

“Adel!”

Adel, who had been away carrying out my mission, happened to return that evening.

Since it had been quite a while since I’d seen Adel, I felt happy first, but Adel herself.

“Good, good heavens. These bandages…. The wounds….”

Her face turned pale as she frantically examined my injuries.

“I’m fine. I’ve gotten much better.”

“This is what you call much better?”

But something was strange.

At Adel’s retort, the atmosphere in the bedroom froze oddly.

What about the personal physician who had been constantly by my side, dedicated to treating me since I was injured at the hunting competition?

‘An extremely frightened expression?’

Why is he acting like that?

For reference, there was one more servant residing in my bedroom.

‘The assistant butler.’

When I glanced at the assistant butler’s face without much thought, I tilted my head.

Because I was puzzled.

‘Why does the assistant butler also look subtly frightened?’

“Miss Tulia….”

There was a faint trace of moisture in Adel’s voice.

“Aren’t you in pain?”

“Yes, yes. I’ve gotten much better.”

“You had a cold right before I left too. Instead of properly supporting the delicate Miss’s health, good heavens, how could you let her get hurt this much more? Making her wear this many bandages? How on earth do you take wages from the Miss while doing this?”

The first part was directed at me.

But the latter part was clearly….

“I’m doing my utmost to provide treatment.”

“I have no excuse.”

It was criticism directed at the personal physician and assistant butler.

At Adel’s anger, the two middle-aged men bowed their heads deeply and even clasped their hands respectfully while remaining silent.

‘Ah.’

When Grandfather returns this time, the structure of my employees will change too.

New maids and servants, along with other miscellaneous workers, will be newly assigned.

Until then, in this small bedroom that operates so casually with such a small elite team that it’s hard to believe it’s the dedicated employee team for an Empire marquis’s daughter…

‘Adel is ranked first.’

An assistant butler who would even defy the main castle’s butler to get me what I need.

A talented personal physician who supposedly graduated in the top 3 from the Medical Academy.

Even such remarkable people.

I only realized today that they rank far below Adel.

‘Could it be that later on…’

I mean, Adel is Ruk Kelfosher’s hidden younger sister after all.

Later, after everything gets resolved, surely not.

‘Surely Adel isn’t just.’

She’s not steamrolling over all the advisors under Ruk Kelfosher too, is she?

No way.

No matter what, they’re the direct advisors to the Iron-Blooded Grand Duke, Assis Grand Duke Frazier…

It wouldn’t be to that extent. Right.

 

* * *

 

Clang!

Clang!

Clang!

 

The sounds of coins coming in are heard endlessly.

If I said they sound as sensual as an orchestra’s final performance, I’d really be crazy about money.

But it’s such an abundant sound.

‘Ah. I just want to lie here like this forever.’

Adel was taciturn.

The assistant butler was even more taciturn.

The personal physician was more lively than them.

A lively middle-aged doctor. If the comedy code matches, he’s quite an energizing presence.

What they had in common was that all three were ‘my people,’ so they were polite and courteous.

And they did their best to take care of me.

So I wanted to stay like this without lifting a finger.

That’s how I felt.

‘But…’

I have to go see Lisian.

 

“An emergency council meeting has been called at the main castle. It will be held this evening.”

 

This was what the assistant butler told me.

Well, they couldn’t just overlook the unpleasant incident that happened at the hunting competition.

To be honest, this is a world where status is extremely important.

At the same time, it’s also a world that considers noble dignity to be of paramount importance.

Even if it had happened to a young master or lady from a humble baron family, it would have caused considerable uproar.

But the one hit by arrows was none other than Leon Frazier, the young master of a marquis house.

And though she’s a scoundrel, it was Tulia Frazier who had been maintaining a close relationship with the Grand Duke recently.

‘It hurts like hell, but anyway, seeing how things are unfolding this way isn’t bad.’

Among us, the eldest and the one holding the marquis’s heir’s seal was Lisian.

So naturally, his role would be very significant in the emergency council meeting to be held this evening.

I went to find Lisian, thinking I’d have various things to discuss with him.

…or so I thought.

“Miss, Miss…”

“Mmm…?”

“We’ve arrived.”

“…Did I fall asleep in the meantime?”

“You said you wanted to recover quickly. I had no choice but to add many sleep-inducing medicinal herbs. Miss.”

I nodded at the personal physician’s words.

But to fall asleep while moving from one end of the main castle to the other, which doesn’t even take 15 minutes on foot.

“Put me down.”

“Yes, Miss Tulia.”

The assistant butler carefully set me down like fragile glasswork he was worried about breaking.

Of course, I wasn’t unaware that Adel’s stern gaze was behind all this.

I knocked on the door, tap tap.

“Ah. Miss Tulia?”

“Where’s Lisian?”

“He’s inside, but…”

“Can I go in?”

“Well, that is…”

The servant that Lisian had brought from the Academy hesitated slightly.

I became puzzled.

‘Why. Again. What’s with that reaction.’

Normally, if it was a situation where I couldn’t enter, he’d say it was a situation where I couldn’t enter, or if Lisian was busy, he’d say he was busy.

Or if he was doing something like bathing, he’d tactfully hint at it in a roundabout way.

But this servant was just hesitating.

It was as if he wanted me to barge in and meet Lisian on my own.

But he didn’t dare ask directly.

What could it be?

‘Hmm.’

To grant this servant’s unspoken request, I’d have to give up just a tiny bit.

Just a teeny tiny bit of noble elegance.

‘Right.’

This is why I possessed the trashy Tulia.

Etiquette?

Ignorable.

A lady’s dignity?

Even more ignorable.

I pushed the servant aside.

“Hey, move.”

“Aah…!”

The servant pretended to fall weakly to the side while not stopping me.

“Ah, Miss…!”

“…”

“If that is truly Miss’s will…!”

‘…What’s with this guy too.’

I had only lightly tapped his shoulder, but he fell over by himself and looked up with a form as pitiful as a single white lily.

Seeing tears glistening in his brown eyes, I wondered if Lisian was raising an actor instead of a servant.

It was astounding in many ways, but that was all.

“Everyone wait here.”

I strode boldly inside.

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