My Illusion Is Survival - Chapter 57

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Chapter 57

 

Gaspata’s point was simple.

 

Azel was going crazy and rampaging because of me.

 

That was exactly what it meant.

 

[I, I don’t know. It’s not my fault!]

 

However, this time I couldn’t bring myself to blame Gaspata.

 

This incident was entirely my fault.

 

‘How did it look to you, Gaspata? Did it seem like I collapsed coughing up blood because I overexerted myself?’

 

[Uh- totally?]

 

Therefore, the current situation could be summarized in just one phrase.

 

‘I’m screwed.’

 

I was definitely completely screwed.

 

‘But why does Azel hate it so much when he doesn’t even know about divine protection?’

 

It was an even more incomprehensible attitude since he seemed to know that light wasn’t purification.

 

Then Gaspata butted in without thinking.

 

[He loves you!]

 

‘Won’t you shut up?’

 

Even if the sky fell, that couldn’t be true, so it wasn’t worth listening to.

 

[Hmph.]

 

‘Please just be quiet, really.’

 

My heart was racing with anxiety, and I didn’t even have time to collect myself.

 

[But I should get going soon.]

 

‘Already?’

 

[Spirits like me can’t stay in the human world for long. If there’s a chance, let’s meet again next time. This matter- hmm, I hope it gets resolved well.]

 

‘If I even have a next time. No, wait, are you really leaving?’

 

[It seems like it’ll be okay. If you can’t trust that, there’s nothing I can do. Anyway, hang in there.]

 

And then it really left just like that.

 

‘Gaspata? Wait. Really?’

 

I called out its name desperately, but there was no response.

 

Thanks to that, as time began to flow again, only my eyelids trembled.

 

“Elpis?”

 

And at that moment.

 

At the familiar voice calling my name, I had no choice but to open my eyes.

 

Only red eyes that seemed to have been waiting solely for me to wake up were before me.

 

“…Azel.”

 

I could only desperately pray that I wouldn’t get scolded too badly.

 

But right after opening my eyes, I noticed something strange.

 

Splash.

 

“Water?”

 

For some reason, Azel and I were half-submerged in water.

 

Being faced with a soaking wet handsome man right upon waking up was enough to strain my fragile heart.

 

“…?”

 

*

 

When life returned to those sky-blue eyes, Azel thought.

 

“Were you waiting?”

 

How could she be so cruel.

 

“You waited a long time.”

 

Perhaps because there was too much he wanted to say. No words came out of his tightly closed mouth.

 

“I waited.”

 

“I see. I’m sorry, did I sleep too long?”

 

Azel wanted to scream.

 

She hadn’t just been sleeping.

 

Her breathing had been too weak, and her whole body had grown cold.

 

Only she didn’t know that.

 

“But is this Boras’ Spring? The water is so cold, why did you come into the water? What if you catch a cold?”

 

The two were currently inside Boras’ Spring.

 

Azel had walked directly into the spring while holding Elpis in his arms. Praying that this ice-cold spring water, called the Spring of Life, would hold onto the warmth in his embrace.

 

“I thought you were going to die.”

 

“I won’t die. Why would I die when you’re here?”

 

“I thought you were going to die.”

 

“Azel.”

 

“You were planning to die and leave me behind. Otherwise, you wouldn’t have calmly done such a thing in front of me.”

 

Only now that he had spoken these words aloud did Azel realize how much it had hurt him.

 

“I didn’t want to see you being hated.”

 

“For such a trivial reason.”

 

“It’s okay. I told you, didn’t I? I came here to save you. Until I save Azel, I’ll survive somehow. So it’s okay.”

 

Like all the words that followed calmly, there was no fear of death on Elpis’s face.

 

Finally, tears flowed down Azel’s cheek. Only Elpis didn’t understand the meaning of these tears.

 

“Don’t cry, Azel. Why are you crying?”

 

“If it’s going to be like this, it would be better to turn back. From the beginning again, properly.”

 

So it was a natural choice for Azel.

 

The shock Elpis had received from what just happened must have been considerable. Then wouldn’t it be better if he died and time turned back?

 

But as soon as he spoke, Elpis’s expression hardened.

 

“Don’t say such things.”

 

“Don’t try to persuade me. I’ve already made up my mind. You always did as you pleased. This time I’ll do as I please too.”

 

“When did I ever do as I pleased like that? No! You can’t, Azel! Absolutely not.”

 

Despite her desperate voice, Azel’s thoughts flowed more concretely.

 

The plan in his head gradually became clearer. Since he already knew a fast and certain way to meet his ‘end’, the plan wasn’t difficult.

 

However, this time too, Elpis was the problem.

 

“There is no next time.”

 

“No next time?”

 

“This is the last time for me. I can’t go back with you.”

 

Immediately his violently beating heart stopped and Azel’s plan crumbled.

 

As a piece of hidden truth was finally revealed,

 

“This is our last time.”

 

Azel finally,

 

“I’m sorry, Azel.”

 

realized what he had to do.

 

*

 

That day, Egmund, the ruler of the snowy plains and called the noble wolf, fell.

 

When the massive manor collapsed in acrid smoke, people watching the scene from afar trembled in fear, but the people inside were quiet.

 

“So this is Azel Viotz.”

 

Everything happened in just a single moment.

 

‘Is that man truly human?’

 

Bellode remembered the moment when Azel’s rage shook heaven and earth. Literally, the ground split and the sky turned upside down.

 

‘If not for that woman, the North would have vanished without a trace from the map starting today.’

 

When the dark red aura surrounded Azel, what saved them was the sound of a small cough.

 

“Cough.”

 

Because Azel, who had been rampaging thinking the woman was dead, stopped everything and left immediately after hearing that sound.

 

‘I’ve already owed my life twice now.’

 

Though it was a debt the collapsed person herself wouldn’t know about.

 

Meanwhile, Bellode’s head turned toward the sound of conversation coming from one side.

 

“Cressio, what happened?”

 

“It’s okay, Vanessa. Don’t worry about anything. It’s fine now. It’s all over.”

 

The Duke’s touch as she stroked the Duchess’s pale cheek was tender.

 

‘Was the Duchess the sister of the dead lover?’

 

While preparing for this incident, Bellode had heard various stories about the Duke.

 

Not only the reason why the Duchess and Prince were contaminated by demonic energy, but also the fact that the Duke was a woman and that the Prince was a child born between her and her dead lover.

 

‘…She married to prevent her dead lover’s sister from being sold off in marriage after losing her husband and daughter, but unexpectedly they got along well?’

 

The Duke, who had lost everything but ultimately protected the people she loved, looked rather happy in the middle of the ruined estate.

 

‘Well, that was truly something that could only be explained as a miracle.’

 

Suddenly, Bellode’s head turned toward Yulia.

 

“No, that can’t be. I wasn’t wrong. I wasn’t wrong. I wasn’t wrong. I wasn’t wrong, I tell you.”

 

Yulia, muttering with vacant eyes, looked like someone who had completely lost her mind.

 

“…Yulia.”

 

‘I once believed that only you could save this world.’

 

Bellode knew that unlike the Duke, he had failed to protect anything.

 

But at that moment, another commotion arose nearby.

 

“Your Majesty, please calm down! Where are you trying to go in that condition!”

 

On the opposite side, Ragnear was struggling frantically while bound by the knights.

 

‘What’s going on?’

 

As his brow naturally furrowed, Ragnear shouted with a face mixed with ecstasy and madness.

 

“I found it! I found it!”

 

“What did you find! Why are you acting like this, Your Majesty!”

 

“Biotus’s words were true. Now that the bell has finally stopped ringing, I’m certain I’ve finally found it!”

 

Found it? Found what?

 

“More importantly, bell sounds?”

 

Since the Crown Prince had occasionally muttered meaningless words about bell sounds being noisy, his current outcry was inevitably concerning.

 

However, his unfocused pupils were darting around everywhere, already not in his right mind.

 

“Elpis, it was her. She was my savior! So I must bring that woman!”

 

Of course, these were words that Bellode could never understand in the end.

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