My Illusion Is Survival - Chapter 4

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Chapter 4

I already had a perfect picture drawn in my mind.

Azel feeling confused by my sudden appearance. Meanwhile, Yulia’s group appears and makes the situation even more chaotic.

And here’s where the regressor’s characteristics are revealed.

‘His mental state is half-gone, but his crisis response speed is insane!’

When experiencing something new and unfamiliar for the first time, a regressor always makes quick situational judgments.

The judgment Azel will make at this moment is clear.

‘He’ll prioritize conversation with me over the familiar Yulia’s group.’

I’m the one who mentioned the Stone of Gaspata, his secret.

Plus all those suspicious remarks that seem to hint at something.

‘In this case, awakening isn’t important! Awakening can be done again anytime later!’

Anyway, that’s beside the point.

In other words, Yulia’s group’s role in this plan is ‘adding confusion.’ Making the situation more chaotic to push Azel into making an impulsive decision.

But…

What the hell is this?

“All this time, foolish me didn’t know. I didn’t understand why God bestowed such precious power upon this humble servant. But now I know. It was His holy will to cleanly sweep away trash like you.”

“…”

“So please die quietly by my hand, Azel Viotz.”

Can someone tell me why the protagonist suddenly changed jobs from ‘pure saint heroine’ to ‘crazy inquisitor’?

‘…Is this a dream?’

I asked them to stir up the mastermind’s confusion, but the protagonist was suddenly only stirring up my confusion.

What’s even more surprising is that I’m the only one who’s flustered in this situation.

“Still all talk as usual. Chattering away so noisily.”

Azel responded dismissively, as if this situation was familiar to him.

After staring at me for a long time, Azel finally removed his hand from my shoulder.

I staggered briefly from the recoil, then staggered again in a different sense from the sharp conversation that immediately followed between the two.

“As expected, there’s no reasoning with you. I’d have better luck talking to a beast.”

“So the great saint can talk to beasts too. How amazing, God has truly bestowed precious power upon you.”

Why are you two acting like this?

Just as I was barely holding back from demanding answers, a memory flashed through my mind.

‘Come to think of it…’

Right before I was possessed into this place.

That is, when I last played this damn game.

“Since it’s come to this anyway. Whatever. Everything’s doomed! Hahaha!”

As I remembered myself repeatedly choosing only the worst options, the situation on the monitor at that time came to mind.

There was an illustration of Yulia confronting Azel with mad eyes.

“Ah.”

Thanks to that, my face turned white as a blank sheet.

That’s right.

This was all my karma.

Damn it!

In my flustered state, I covered my mouth so hard it made a thud sound to suppress a scream, when I suddenly felt a gaze.

Azel, who had been confronting Yulia, was now looking at me.

“You,”

“I don’t think there’s any need to continue this meaningless conversation with you any further.”

But Azel’s words couldn’t continue. Yulia stepped forward with a line befitting an inquisitor.

Thanks to that, my anxiety skyrocketed.

‘I’m screwed!’

If this really is my last playthrough, Yulia is about to draw the worst aggro.

“You’re just wearing human skin, but you don’t even know what human emotions are. Further conversation would be a luxury for someone like you.”

The atmosphere became so cold it felt like the surrounding air was actually getting colder.

‘…Wow…’

I have no idea where to start or how to fix this.

Talking about human emotions to Azel was like pulling a trigger.

In a normal dating sim game, it would be a line that deepens a hate-to-love romance, but for Azel alone, it was different.

‘He really can’t remember human emotions!’

Sure enough, Azel’s red eyes darkened to a blood-red color.

It was the perfect prelude to an explosion.

‘What kind of ignition point is this low!’

The destruction button I had barely postponed was flickering before my eyes again. No, forget destruction—we were all definitely going to die right here and now.

How do I know?

Because that’s exactly what happened!

“This round is screwed anyway~ Yeah, everyone die, die! Yep~ I can just quit now!”

I remember my past self giggling half-crazily.

But.

‘Damn it! This is reality for me now!’

I couldn’t die so meaninglessly like this.

Whether I diverted Azel’s attention or sent those bastards away, I had to do something right now.

My resolve was quick and my body shot out instinctively.

As I desperately ran toward Azel.

Swoosh-!

At that moment, a sharp wind sound pierced my eardrums.

‘…Huh?’

Suddenly a strong force grabbed my body while a huge shadow fell over me.

When I came to my senses after a dull impact, I was already in Azel’s arms.

No, actually I wasn’t even being held.

Just as I approached, Azel caught a flying arrow and we ended up in an awkward embrace.

‘Crazy.’

Coincidentally, someone had shot an arrow at Azel right when I ran toward him.

Thanks to that, I became a strange person who suddenly charged forward for no reason.

“What is this supposed to be?”

Naturally, Azel’s expression as he looked at me became unbearably cold.

*

‘Why did she do that?’

Azel found the woman before him suspicious.

A hundred lifetimes.

In all those long lives, this was the first time he had seen such a woman.

The curse had taken many things from Azel. Oblivion was also one of the things stolen from him.

Living through repeated lives over endless years, he had never once forgotten anything.

In that sense, everything about the woman before him was suspicious.

“Azel.”

From the affectionate way she called his name,

“Did you forget me?”

To her tender eyes that seemed hurt by his gaze. There wasn’t a single thing about her that didn’t irritate him.

“No matter how much the world falls apart, it won’t end. As long as you made that wish to the stone, your curse will repeat forever.”

The woman who spoke with such certainty, as if she had witnessed the world’s destruction countless times.

The reason he had spared someone who dared to say such things before him was simple.

“I came here to save you. Azel, only for you.”

The woman knew something.

He couldn’t believe her claim that she came here to save Azel, but it was certain she knew something.

So he had to keep the woman alive until he found out what that was.

But then.

“Why did you do that?”

The woman’s action of jumping in to block the flying arrow. That had confused Azel.

‘There was no calculation or hesitation in that movement just now.’

An incomprehensible desperation.

‘I don’t understand.’

Right, it was completely incomprehensible.

The woman had rushed to save Azel with a desperate face and instinctive movements.

As if she was afraid he might get hurt by just a single arrow.

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‘Should I just die?’

It might be easier than enduring this terrible silence.

‘But that bastard who shot the arrow. I’m killing that son of a bitch before I die.’

What’s with using an arrow to kill the world’s worst villain, not some meteor-like ultimate weapon?

Thanks to that, my attempt to block it made me look even more ridiculous.

‘Of course that wasn’t my intention. The problem is that’s how it looks right now!’

I could feel not only Azel’s subordinates in the distance but also Yulia’s group staring at me like I was crazy, which made me even more furious.

“So you weren’t a hostage.”

At that moment, Yulia’s clear voice broke the silence.

“I was hesitating because I thought an innocent civilian was being held captive, but there was no need for that.”

You never hesitated in the first place!

But this wasn’t the time to argue. Since Yulia had kindly opened the floodgates, I had to overcome this crisis with momentum.

“I think that’s my line. How dare you touch this person, and in front of me no less.”

I lifted my chin proudly, pretending that embarrassing incident from earlier never happened.

“Hmm?”

Yulia tilted her head at my confident attitude. However, she looked completely uninterested, as if she had no concern for what someone as obviously weak as me had to say.

“You act pretty fearlessly for a mere subordinate of Azel Viotz.”

But I knew exactly what to say to get under Yulia’s skin.

“I’m not foolish enough to fear a saint who has lost her faith.”

Yulia’s expression immediately froze.

‘Of course, I’m the one who shook Yulia’s faith.’

So what? Nobody knows anyway.

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