I’m Trying to End This Possession - Chapter 186

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Chapter 186

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Dana was shocked when she attended the service.

 

‘Why are there so many people I know?’

 

There were many familiar faces in the chapel.

 

Nobles she had seen in the Empire, royalty from other countries— even Alice’s friend Miona.

 

‘Wasn’t Miona Alice’s maid?’

 

Why was she here?

 

Even Pope Baor IV of the Ramun faith was there.

 

He must have consumed quite a lot of holy water, as he looked rejuvenated and twenty years younger.

 

Dana slowly observed the believers. Then at some moment.

 

“—!”

 

Their eyes met.

 

Beautiful eyes like black obsidian.

 

Dana hurriedly bit the inside of her mouth. She had almost screamed.

 

‘It’s okay.’

 

She clenched her fists tightly. Her nails dug into her palms, snapping her back to alertness.

 

It’s okay. No need to be surprised. I already knew. I saw him. I had seen him before…

 

Dana barely managed to gather her scattered reason. She breathed deeply.

 

Right, nothing to be surprised about. This wasn’t surprising.

 

Because I already knew.

 

‘As expected, that guy was in the Sanctuary.’

 

Right now, the black-eyed believer whose gaze had met hers.

 

He was an extraordinarily beautiful young man. Both men and women among the surrounding believers were staring at him as if entranced. Even the silver-rimmed glasses over his face couldn’t hide his beauty.

 

Dana had seen this man before.

 

In the Sanctuary. At the flower shop.

 

The man who had given her the note revealing Karl’s identity and then disappeared— that man was this very man.

 

But she had known this man from much earlier.

 

Back then, she didn’t have Danae Windsor’s memories, so she couldn’t recognize him.

 

Now that her memories had returned, Dana recognized who this man was at a glance.

 

‘Lete.’

 

Lete, her secretary, was mixed in among the believers.

 

 

 

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After the worship service ended, as expected, male believers flocked to her.

 

“Believer Danaina, would you like to have dinner together?”

 

“I know a very good restaurant outside the Grand Cathedral.”

 

However, Dana’s gaze was fixed on one man’s back the entire time. She couldn’t hear or see anything else.

 

With each step she took toward him, memories with Lete came flooding back.

 

‘Lete.’

 

Not long after possessing Danae Windsor’s body.

 

I found a boy buried in the snow and brought him home.

 

The boy was a loner who couldn’t remember anything.

 

Because he seemed like herself, isolated in this world, Dana took him in.

 

‘Lete.’

 

A boy with black hair and black eyes, truly beautiful and intelligent. And more capable than anyone she knew.

 

‘Lete.’

 

And— aside from family, he was the only man who had stayed by her side.

 

Thinking about it now.

 

That was a bit strange.

 

‘Why did Lyos tolerate Lete?’

 

He was a madman who would cut off fingers just for touching his subordinate, Count Cedric.

 

Dana stared intently at Lete’s back.

 

‘Black hair.’

 

Just like Lyos.

 

‘Black eyes.’

 

Just like Lyos.

 

‘Lyos was born in the Sanctuary.’

 

Lete, who had the same black hair and black eyes as Lyos, who was in the Sanctuary…

 

Dana smiled slightly. Her thoughts had quickly reached a conclusion.

 

“Hello.”

 

She grabbed Lete’s collar and stopped him.

 

Fortunately, he was such a handsome man.

 

‘It’s natural for a woman to approach him.’

 

Especially after a service, it wasn’t strange behavior at all for a woman burning with passion to approach him.

 

“We met in the chapel earlier. May I ask your name?”

 

Lete turned around. After silently looking at her for a moment in silence, he slowly opened his mouth.

 

“It’s Lete.”

 

Dana smiled.

 

“I’m Danaina Rolland. Would you like to have dinner together?”

 

She threw the same flirtatious words that the male believers had thrown at her countless times earlier.

 

After the service, this seemed like a secret signal.

 

As if he hadn’t expected this reaction, he stiffened for a moment before nodding very slightly.

 

“That sounds good.”

 

 

 

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Lete took her to his house.

 

‘He has a house in the Sanctuary too?’

 

How ridiculous. Did he buy it with the money she gave him? Or was this originally his real home?

 

“I’m sorry.”

 

As soon as they entered, Lete knelt down.

 

“Please forgive me.”

 

Forgiveness? Asking for forgiveness out of the blue?

 

It was absurd.

 

She had still held onto a glimmer of hope…

 

Dana swallowed her burning anger. She was so angry that at this moment, she felt like an evil spirit.

 

But her mind remained cold.

 

‘Does he know my memories have returned?’

 

She hadn’t revealed it to anyone yet.

 

She had planned to pretend she didn’t have Danae Windsor’s memories for a while. So Dana played dumb.

 

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

 

Then Lete raised his head. His intelligent eyes behind the silver-rimmed glasses were heavy.

 

“Miss.”

 

“Miss? Please don’t say such things. Why are you suddenly acting like this?”

 

“Are you very angry?”

 

Of course I am, you bastard!

 

“No. How could I be? Why would I be?”

 

“Miss, your voice becomes gentler when you’re angry. Just like now.”

 

Lete’s eyes traveled down from her shoulders to her fingertips.

 

“When you lie, you press your index finger firmly with your thumb.”

 

“…”

 

“And you don’t breathe through your nose, but part your lips to breathe.”

 

That was right.

 

She really was doing exactly that.

 

And it was a habit she wasn’t even aware of herself.

 

‘How creepy…’

 

A chill ran down her spine. He had been observing even things like that?

 

Dana spoke like a sigh.

 

“Stand up, Lete.”

 

Her tone had changed.

 

Lete raised his body. Dana immediately slapped his cheek hard.

 

Smack! A scratch appeared on his pale cheek, but smack! She slapped the other cheek too.

 

“You’d better kneel again, don’t you think?”

 

Lete did as she said this time too. He acted like an obedient student.

 

Dana asked kindly.

 

“Lete, what exactly are you?”

 

As if he had been waiting, Lete answered.

 

“I am Lord Lyos’s shadow and Lord Viego’s subordinate.”

 

“…”

 

“And they both know this fact but believe that I am loyal to them personally.”

 

So he was saying he was a double agent.

 

“I want to work only for you, Miss. If you would accept me again…”

 

“That’s difficult. What reason do I have to trust you? You deceived me to the very end.”

 

“I was planning to tell you.”

 

“Huh?”

 

“During the examination.”

 

“…”

 

“I was going to tell you everything during the examination.”

 

Examination?

 

What examination?

 

Ah, surely not.

 

‘I told him to think carefully about his hobbies, things he wanted to do in life, things he liked.’

 

Because she had been worried about Lete’s life after she left.

 

But she hadn’t had time for any examination. At that time, every minute and second had been urgent for her.

 

“…”

 

Gradually, cold reason returned. She voiced the suspicion she’d had since earlier.

 

“Are you perhaps Lyos’s blood relative?”

 

“No, I am not.”

 

Lete answered, taking a short breath.

 

“I am from the orphanage in the Sanctuary.”

 

And he confessed everything.

 

According to him, Lyos had come to the Sanctuary when he was a boy.

 

And he had gathered the orphans there to make them into weapons for himself.

 

He had conducted human experimentation with the Religious Order’s cooperation.

 

Lyos wanted to call them ‘Shadows’. He requested they be made with truly shadow-like black eyes and black hair.

 

Lete was his shadow created that way.

 

‘The Shadows really existed?’

 

She had heard those ominous rumors before.

 

Lyos’s Shadows. Human weapons.

 

When she was his lover, she had even asked Lyos about it.

 

At that time, Lyos had smiled and said this.

 

 

 

“Dana, you believe such groundless rumors sometimes too. How cute.”

 

 

 

But it had been real.

 

Why on earth, why had Lyos gone that far into madness?

 

“And Lord Viego earnestly requested this. That everything must be reported to Lord Viego himself.”

 

“…”

 

“So I did so.”

 

And it was Lyos who had assigned Lete, the boy who was a Shadow, to Dana.

 

Lete hung his head low.

 

“I’m sorry.”

 

A child who was experimented on. A child who became a tool. A child who was used.

 

Looking at it this way, he was in a similar situation to her.

 

But she wasn’t foolish enough to sympathize with him here.

 

“Are you sincere about wanting to work for me?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“But I can’t pay you money like before. I have nothing I can give you.”

 

“I don’t need such things.”

 

“Then tell me. The reason you want to abandon Viego and Lyos to become my subordinate.”

 

“Miss, you are.”

 

Lete spoke in a very low voice, then swallowed it back down.

 

Then he barely moved his lips again.

 

“Miss, you.”

 

That was all.

 

It seemed impossible to continue further.

 

But Dana understood.

 

In that single word ‘Miss’, such fierce heat was contained…

 

“Lete.”

 

She smiled brightly.

 

“Do you love me?”

 

As if struck, Lete’s jaw stiffened. After a moment, he answered.

 

“…You told me to find things I liked.”

 

That’s right.

 

When she had truly trusted him.

 

“I couldn’t find them.”

 

“What?”

 

“There’s nothing. Nothing for me except you, Miss.”

 

For a moment her heart sank, but Dana soon sneered.

 

Well, that could be possible.

 

An unhappy boy. A kind woman who appeared in that boy’s life. A woman who told him to find his happiness.

 

He could have come to love only that woman.

 

“Oh, right. So despite all that, you watched me way too diligently, didn’t you?”

 

“Well, it was something related to Miss, so…”

 

“As long as it’s related to me, anything goes? Even secretly spying on me and following me around?”

 

It was blatant sarcasm.

 

But incredibly, Lete didn’t deny it. He just opened his lips, painted as if with a brush, very slowly, very slowly…

 

“I…”

 

Slowly.

 

“I’m sorry.”

 

He admitted it.

 

Dana was completely dumbfounded.

 

What was even more bewildering was that even as Lete confessed his impropriety, he didn’t avoid her gaze.

 

Those pitch-black eyes staring straight at her…

 

‘I.’

 

Dana’s throat bobbed greatly.

 

‘I clearly asked if he loved me.’

 

What came back was twisted and warped attachment.

 

This couldn’t be wrapped in the brilliant word called love. His emotions belonged to an excessively dark shadow.

 

‘And… he’s also a man.’

 

Dana glanced down at Lete’s knees.

 

Lete had even been aroused since earlier.

 

Of course it would be the aftermath of the worship ritual, but it was laughable.

 

Her passion had completely died down because of this maddening sense of betrayal, but that guy seemed to be the opposite. He seemed to be burning more and more intensely.

 

“Lete. Are you excited right now, by any chance?”

 

“…”

 

He didn’t deny it. No, he couldn’t.

 

“This is… because of the worship.”

 

His cheeks were red with shame.

 

“This happened because of the worship, Miss. It has nothing to do with my will.”

 

“Still, if you’re really sorry, you should somehow cool down the heat. What if you stay in that state? It’s so humiliating I might cry.”

 

Since things had come to this, she shed tears for him. A drop, a stream of water fell down her cheek.

 

While hurting Lete with tears, Dana thought coldly.

 

‘Lete would know very well about the Sanctuary and the Grand Cathedral.’

 

He was the person she had been looking for.

 

And didn’t she know Lete’s competence better than anyone?

 

Moreover, he had gained the trust of both Viego and Lyos.

 

But she felt spiteful to just accept him obediently. Dana maintained a pitiful expression for now and asked.

 

“That letter the eagle brought, you let the wind blow it into the pond, right?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“Lete, are you a holy mage?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“Good. Then can you use the forbidden magic called Soul Judgment?”

 

“Yes.”

 

Dana was quite surprised inwardly.

 

That was incredibly high-level magic, yet he could do it.

 

He would be that useful then.

 

Dana suggested sweetly.

 

“Would you cast Soul Judgment magic in front of me once a week to prove your innocence?”

 

Soul Judgment.

 

The punishment where one’s soul is annihilated if they speak lies.

 

“If you periodically prove that you haven’t betrayed me, I think I’ll be able to trust you.”

 

“Yes, I’ll do that.”

 

“…”

 

No hesitation either.

 

Was this settled?

 

‘I want to finish this a bit more solidly.’

 

Dana carefully observed Lete’s face.

 

That delicate face was the same as before, but felt completely different from before.

 

Someone who liked nothing in this world except Dana…

 

“…I said before that I had nothing left to give you.”

 

Dana slowly bent her waist. She whispered in his ear.

 

“Perhaps.”

 

At her breath, all the fine hairs on Lete’s nape stood on end.

 

“There might be something I can give.”

 

The bait was herself.

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