I Won’t Pick Up The T*ash I Threw Away Again - Chapter 47

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#47

One side declared the engagement broken, while the other side couldn’t accept it and was being clingy.

“…How interesting.”

Kalian’s eyes curved lazily.

Fillen Williot had extremely high pride, befitting the heir of a ducal house.

Even on the battlefield, he rarely bent that pride, which had caused trouble several times.

And now that same man was being clingy over a mere count’s daughter.

It was impossible not to laugh.

“Shall we look into this in more detail?”

Kalian pondered for a moment, then shook his head.

“No, never mind.”

Seeing how Leilah hadn’t said anything to him about this, it seemed she rather wanted this matter buried, so deliberately digging into it didn’t seem right.

So Kalian planned to pretend he knew nothing and let it be buried.

Until Leilah spoke of it first with her own mouth.

* * *

I unpacked the luggage I brought from the inn and headed to the market to buy groceries and other immediately necessary daily necessities.

Though it was well-maintained, it seemed no one had lived there for a long time, as there was more to buy than I had expected.

After wandering around like that for quite a while, my wallet had become noticeably thinner.

‘Now I really don’t have much money left.’

Far from hiring a new maid, it seemed I’d have to save money until I received my salary.

I thought I only bought necessities, but where did I spend so much money?

Thinking carefully, I recalled the luxury handkerchief and thread I bought at the embroidery shop.

Those two items accounted for more than half of the money I spent today.

Did I overdo it?

No. It’s a gift for the Emperor, so I couldn’t buy something cheap.

And compared to what I’d received from him so far, this much was nothing.

Even if I saved money elsewhere, it was right not to save money here.

If necessary, I’d have to sell the jewelry I brought. Even selling just one piece would be worth enough to cover living expenses for half a year.

I just planned to save the jewelry as much as possible in preparation for any emergency.

“What are you thinking about so deeply, Miss?”

“Nothing. Are we done buying everything?”

When I pointed to the box containing the items and asked, Sara nodded.

“Yes. We can buy other things as we need them.”

“Alright. Then let’s carry them together.”

If I asked the shop employee for delivery, I’d have to pay 2 shillings for delivery fees.

With that money, I could buy bread for several days, so I decided to save it.

It wasn’t an amount that two women couldn’t carry anyway.

“What? We’re not asking for delivery but carrying them ourselves?”

“We need to save money.”

“Ah.”

Sara blushed and lowered her head.

“I’m, I’m sorry, Miss. I did something unnecessary…”

“It’s fine.”

“I’m really sorry.”

It really was fine though.

“Stop that and let’s go quickly.”

If I left her alone, she seemed like she’d dig a tunnel into the ground, so I picked up the luggage first.

Sara picked up the remaining luggage and followed behind me.

When we arrived home, I started organizing the luggage with Sara.

Sara insisted she’d do it alone and made a fuss, but I helped until the end.

I already felt sorry for making her manage this large house alone, so I couldn’t let her organize the luggage by herself too.

After finishing organizing the luggage, I had a late dinner while chatting about various things with Sara, and embroidered the handkerchief until just before falling asleep.

The Imperial emblem was a roaring blue dragon. The dragon scales were even more intricate than roses, so if I didn’t concentrate even a little, the embroidery would become messy.

I wanted to finish it quickly, but staying up all night to work was absolutely impossible.

Still, I worked quite late before falling asleep, but at dawn, my eyes snapped open.

It was due to my habit of waking up early in the morning. Even when I tried to sleep again, my mind was completely alert. It seemed impossible to fall back asleep.

Since I’m up, should I do some embroidery?

As I picked up the cloth and needle I’d left on the desk, I saw the documents beside them and suddenly remembered what Baron Delrond had said.

He said there was a lot of work to do.

I remembered there being quite a pile of documents in the Emperor’s study too.

It hadn’t been long since the long war ended, and he had just ascended to the throne, so naturally there would be a lot to do.

But Baron Delrond was the only aide helping him…

It bothered me. They were working busily while I was leisurely doing embroidery – was that really okay?

After fidgeting with the cloth while pondering, I put it down and went into the bathroom.

Kalian had said it was fine not to come for a week, but it seemed better to go see.

I should go and help with simple document organization at least.

I washed up briefly and took out one of the few outdoor outfits from the wardrobe to change into.

I did my makeup simply and neatly pinned up my disheveled hair.

After gathering the documents and entry pass, I realized I had no means of transportation to get to the Imperial Palace.

Baron Delrond’s offer to send a carriage was starting next week.

Was there a place nearby where I could rent a carriage? I didn’t think I saw one while returning home yesterday.

It seemed I’d have to just walk.

If it’s a 10-minute distance by carriage, it would take about 40 minutes on foot.

It wasn’t that far. I could definitely walk it.

Alright, let’s walk.

Having made that decision, I checked one last time if I’d forgotten anything before leaving the room.

I left a note on the dining table for Sara saying I was going to the Imperial Palace and was about to leave the house when Sara came out of her room rubbing her eyes.

“Miss? Where are you going?”

“I’m going to the Imperial Palace briefly.”

“What? This early?”

Sara, now fully awake, exclaimed in surprise.

“If you had such plans, you should have told me in advance! Then I could have helped you prepare!”

“No. I can handle this much by myself.”

Sara looked me over from head to toe and let out a short exclamation.

“You really are all prepared. Amazing. Usually noble young ladies can’t do this.”

“Usually, that’s right.”

Usually, that is.

I smiled vaguely and turned around.

“I’m taking the key with me, so don’t go out today and stay home.”

“Oh, what about breakfast?”

“It’s fine. You don’t need to prepare breakfast in the future either. I don’t eat it.”

“Ah, come to think of it, you didn’t eat it at the duchy mansion either.”

The duchy mansion. Just hearing it made me smile bitterly.

“I understand. Then should I prepare lunch?”

“No. Prepare dinner.”

If I leave now, returning by lunch would probably be impossible.

“Yes! I’ll make the stew and mocha bread that you like, Miss.”

“Yes, I’ll look forward to it.”

“Have a safe trip, Miss.”

I left the house with Sara’s farewell. The cool dawn air that hadn’t yet faded wrapped around my body.

“It’s a bit cold.”

I had dressed lightly because it was hot during the day, but it seemed like a wrong choice.

Should I go back in and get a shawl?

No. Let’s just go. It’ll get hot during the day anyway.

Besides, the Imperial Palace had warming magic cast on it, so it was warm.

So I thought there would be no problem going as I was and headed straight to the Imperial Palace.

* * *

I walked endlessly through the quiet streets.

By the time the bluish tinge of dawn remaining in the sky had disappeared, I arrived at the Imperial Palace.

When I showed the pass Kalian had given me, I passed through from the Outer Palace to the Imperial Palace in one go.

However, I couldn’t enter the palace where the Emperor’s study was located.

It wasn’t that the pass failed to serve its purpose. It was because I had come too early.

According to the attendant who came to meet me, Kalian had just woken up and was washing.

Oh no. I thought too much from my own perspective.

Like me, Fillen was also the type to wake up early.

Not after bringing Sisly, but before that, he always woke up at dawn and practiced swordsmanship until late at night.

The previous Duke and Duchess Williot also didn’t sleep much and always woke up early.

So I naturally thought His Majesty the Emperor would also be awake at this time.

“Should I come back later?”

“Please wait a moment. I’ll check.”

The attendant asked me to wait a little and went inside.

After a while, he returned with a slightly embarrassed face and said.

“I’m sorry, but could you please wait in the drawing room for a moment?”

“Of course.”

“I’ll guide you to the drawing room. This way.”

The attendant kindly guided me all the way to the drawing room.

I drank the tea brought by a maid and looked around the splendid and antique drawing room.

The drawing room at the Williot Duchy was quite large too, but compared to the Emperor’s drawing room, it was nothing.

Well, no matter how much of a duchy it is, it doesn’t make sense to compare it to the Imperial Palace.

More than that, I should stop thinking about the Williot Duchy…

Despite leaving the Williot Duchy, I couldn’t quite escape from the duchy’s shadow.

It wasn’t that I missed Fillen. I missed the life there, the Williot Estate.

It was natural since I had lived there for over 10 years. The Williot Estate was like a second hometown to me.

…A hometown I could never return to again.

The fact that I now had two such hometowns pierced my heart.

Especially unlike my first hometown, my second hometown had many good memories in various ways, making my heart ache even more.

“Sigh.”

Feeling like I might cry, I covered my face with both hands.

The warmth of my palms gently embraced my slightly cold face.

Let me stay like this just until my wavering emotions calm down.

I absolutely had to calm down before His Majesty the Emperor arrived.

I couldn’t show him my tears in such an unsightly manner.

I was used to holding back tears and swallowing sadness.

As I was pressing my face firmly with my palms, a cold hand touched my shoulder.

Startled, I looked up to see Kalian, though I had no idea when he had arrived.

“Your Majesty, when did you…”

As I tried to stand up hurriedly in confusion, Kalian pressed down on my shoulder, preventing me from getting up.

“I remembered some urgent business.”

Kalian spoke indifferently while placing a handkerchief in my hand.

“I’ll be back shortly, so I’m sorry but please wait a little longer, Princess.”

And without giving me a chance to stop him, he quickly went outside.

Left alone, I stared at the handkerchief he had given me.

Since when had he been watching me?

Did he perhaps see me crying?

Kalian hadn’t comforted me with kind words or an embrace.

He had simply given me a handkerchief and stepped away.

But somehow, that became a comfort.

Really, strangely so.

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