I Won’t Pick Up The T*ash I Threw Away Again - Chapter 4

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#4

Having no appetite, I skipped dinner and went straight to take a bath.

Soaking my body in the hot water helped ease my troubled heart, even if just a little.

Waiting for me after I finished my bath was Baron Tail Wizard, one of the advisors who had long served the Williot Duchy.

He waited until I came out after changing clothes, then respectfully presented me with documents.

“What is this?”

“These are documents that need urgent processing.”

At his words about urgent processing, I was about to take the documents to check them when a thought crossed my mind and I hesitated.

This is originally work the Duke should do, so why do I have to do it?

The Duke isn’t absent, nor is he extremely busy with other matters.

Right now Fillen is probably eating dinner while laughing and chatting with That Woman, yet I have to work.

Just thinking about it made my stomach churn and irritation flare up.

I waved my hand dismissively and turned my head away.

“Wizard Baron. Take this to Fillen.”

“Pardon?”

Wizard Baron looked at me as if he didn’t understand what I meant.

Well, I had been handling it for nearly 10 years, so it was understandable that he’d be flustered when I suddenly told him to take it to Fillen.

“Until now I handled it because the Duke was absent, but that’s not the case anymore.”

I smiled brightly and kindly explained everything step by step.

“So from now on, take the Duke’s work to Fillen so he can handle it directly.”

* * *

The Wizard Family had long served the Williot Duchy as retainers.

Tail Wizard was the same. He had worked as an advisor to the Williot Duchy immediately after graduating from the Academy.

Though he had devoted his loyalty to the Williot Duchy for 30 years, today was the first time he felt so bewildered.

‘She told me to take the documents to His Grace the Duke.’

Could Fillen really understand these documents properly?

Tail was absolutely certain he could not. He would surely ask him various questions, not understanding what they meant.

‘It would be fortunate if he even bothered to ask.’

He could clearly picture Fillen waving his hands dismissively, saying it was bothersome and to take them away again, making him sigh involuntarily.

He wished Leilah would just handle it, but unfortunately Leilah didn’t seem inclined to do so.

‘It’s understandable.’

After what Fillen had done, there was no way she’d want to work on his behalf.

Though he fully understood Leilah’s feelings, he couldn’t help but sigh.

“Well… I suppose I should go.”

The approval still needed to be obtained.

Tail sighed repeatedly as he headed to the Duke’s Chamber where Fillen was.

And.

“Documents?”

As expected, when Fillen asked back while clearly showing his annoyance, Tail sighed deeply inwardly.

However, showing no sign of it outwardly, Tail respectfully presented the documents to Fillen.

“This matter needs to be handled today, so despite the late hour, I came to see you.”

“I understand that. But why did you bring it to me?”

“Because these are documents that require Your Grace the Duke’s approval, I brought them to you.”

Even at these words, Fillen didn’t glance once at the documents and leaned crookedly against the wall.

His handsome eyes rose with displeasure.

“As far as I know, until now this kind of work was done by Leilah?”

“Lady Leilah has been handling Your Grace’s duties because Your Grace was absent.”

“I know Leilah handled it even when I wasn’t away, so why are you suddenly coming to me?”

Back then you were so heartbroken that you didn’t do any work at all and just holed up in the training grounds!

“That’s…”

Unable to say that, Tail hesitated.

“Did Leilah perhaps send you to me?”

When Fillen hit the nail on the head, Tail nodded awkwardly with a smile.

Fillen frowned slightly and stroked his chin.

“She seemed angry earlier, so is it because of that?”

“You knew the young lady was angry?”

“With such a hardened expression, how could I not know? Though I still don’t know why.”

Ah, so he doesn’t know that.

Just as Tail, who had been secretly hoping, was about to sigh.

“Fil.”

A delicate hand reached out from inside and linked arms with Fillen.

It was That Woman.

Tail glanced at the woman’s swollen belly.

Though it wasn’t obvious from far away, up close she clearly showed signs of pregnancy.

About 4 months along, perhaps.

Tail estimated the months of pregnancy, recalling when his own wife had been pregnant.

“What is it, Sisly?”

Fillen asked tenderly while caressing Sisly’s cheek.

“Nothing much, I was just bored. Do you still have a lot to discuss?”

“We’re finished now. You’re not alone anymore, so don’t overdo it and sit down.”

At Fillen’s advice, Sisly obediently nodded and went back inside.

Fillen looked at Tail again and said.

“Take those documents back to Leilah.”

“The young lady told me to bring them to Your Grace…”

“Leilah has always gotten upset and angry easily over trivial things since she was young.”

Fillen straightened his body that had been leaning against the wall.

“But by the next day, she’d be fine as if nothing had happened. So if you take it to her tomorrow, she’ll approve it.”

“However, this needs to be processed today. So please approve it quickly…”

Before Tail could finish speaking, Fillen slammed the door shut and turned away.

“Your Grace, Your Grace!”

Though Tail called for him desperately from outside, Fillen cleanly ignored him and sat on the sofa where Sisly was sitting.

“Is it okay to just leave that man like that?”

“If he has any sense, he’ll go to Leilah on his own.”

“Leilah… That’s the young lady’s name, right? Fil’s fiancée.”

When Fillen nodded, Sisly expressed small admiration.

“The way you call her name and speak informally to each other, you and that young lady must be very close.”

“We are close. We’ve known each other since before we came of age.”

“Hmm, but still, isn’t speaking informally not quite right?”

When Sisly tilted her head and asked, Fillen looked at her with puzzled eyes.

“What do you mean not right?”

“That young lady is merely a count’s daughter and Fil is a duke, so even if she’s your childhood fiancée, I don’t think she should speak informally to you. Other nobles would surely find it strange, wouldn’t they?”

“Is that so.”

When Fillen pondered, Sisly pulled his arm closer and continued.

“So wouldn’t it be better if that young lady spoke formally to you? Otherwise, both you and that young lady might be greatly embarrassed in front of others.”

I’m doing this all for you and that woman.

Sisly whispered in a sweet voice while running her slender fingers across Fillen’s bare skin.

* * *

Though I had told Fillen to leave in anger, I already knew he would come back.

Because the Duke’s seal was in my office.

Even if Fillen wanted to work, it would be impossible without that seal.

So I didn’t sleep and waited for Wizard Baron. There was also remaining work to handle that kept me awake.

As expected, Wizard Baron returned not long after.

“Give me the documents.”

“Miss…”

At my words, Wizard Baron looked at me with tears welling up in his eyes, like someone who had met their savior.

From Wizard Baron’s behavior, I could predict Fillen’s reaction.

Fillen must have refused to do it.

Well, there’s no way he’d want to do work he’s neglected for 10 years now.

But he’ll have to do it eventually.

As long as he’s the Duke, he can’t keep neglecting his ducal duties forever.

There were limits to how much I could do his work for him.

I needed to have a serious conversation with Fillen about this issue.

…While we’re talking, maybe I should bring up That Woman too.

Thinking of That Woman made my head throb. When I held my head, Wizard Baron asked worriedly.

“Are you alright, Miss?”

“Yes, I’m fine.”

I forced myself to smile calmly and checked the documents.

My head still hurt so the documents didn’t register well, but I forced myself to concentrate.

I corrected the wrong parts and was about to stamp the seal when rumble, crash- thunder and lightning struck.

“…!”

I jumped in surprise and turned toward the window. I couldn’t see outside because of the curtains, but I could see the flashing outside the window.

Whoosh, I could also hear the sound of pouring rain. Wizard Baron looked toward the window and said.

“It’s been cloudy all afternoon and now it’s finally pouring.”

“…Indeed.”

I hurriedly stamped the seal and handed it to Wizard Baron.

“I’ve fixed the strange parts. Please just correct those and implement it.”

“Yes, Miss.”

Wizard Baron carefully held the documents to his chest and bowed deeply.

“I’m truly sorry for bothering you at such a late hour.”

“It’s fine. It’s my…”

…job to do.

I swallowed the words I was about to add and smiled awkwardly.

Words that would have come naturally before somehow wouldn’t come easily today.

Perhaps sensing what I was trying to say, Wizard Baron also made an embarrassed face.

“Then I’ll take my leave.”

After Wizard Baron left and I was alone, I stood up to go to bed.

Rumble, crash-

“Huk-.”

At another eardrum-shaking thunder sound, I covered my ears and slumped down in my seat.

As if mocking me, thunder and lightning struck once more.

My vision flashed, and I naturally remembered that day when the Previous Duke and Duchess passed away.

The events of that day that took away my happiness all at once.

The vivid memory of those two people returning as cold corpses was agonizing. I couldn’t breathe.

“Huk.”

I clutched my chest and curled up into a ball. My hand gripping the blanket tensed with strength.

“It’s… okay, Leilah.”

It’s just thunder and lightning. There’s nothing to be afraid of at all.

I tried to comfort myself and pull my emotions together, but it was futile.

Well, if it could be controlled that easily, I wouldn’t have suffered for 10 years.

Thunder and lightning continued to strike. Even covering my ears with a pillow was useless. Tears flowing down my cheeks dampened the blanket.

“Misa, Misa…”

If she had been here, I could have taken sleeping pills and slept comfortably.

I regretted sending Misa to That Woman.

Even while thinking I should ask another maid to bring sleeping pills to get through this night.

I didn’t want to show this foolish state to anyone else, so I didn’t ask for help until the end.

I had an ominous feeling that this night would be much longer than usual.

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