I Won’t Pick Up The T*ash I Threw Away Again - Chapter 34

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#34

Even after that, the cold war between us continued.

We didn’t eat meals together, nor did we have any meaningful conversations.

It wasn’t like we were ready to devour each other or anything like that.

We just acted awkwardly since there wasn’t much to say, but people whispered when they saw Fillen and me.

“Fil! Look at this!”

While things were like that between us, Sisly and Fillen were getting closer.

Not wanting to see that, I holed up in my room reading books.

Part of it was to study for the exam, but even this seemed like an excuse to people.

“Do you know what everyone’s whispering about?”

Sara said irritably.

“They say the reason you’re taking the administrative exam is because you’re going to break off your engagement with His Grace soon! They say it’s to secure your livelihood!”

So even such rumors had spread. It was amusing.

When I just smiled silently, Sara asked me in panic.

“That’s not true, right? You’re not breaking off your engagement with His Grace, are you?”

“Don’t worry, Sara. I won’t be the first to bring up breaking off the engagement.”

“Even after you become an administrator?”

“Hmm, I haven’t thought that far ahead.”

“If, just if you were to break off your engagement with His Grace and leave the manor, I would follow you!”

“That’s nonsense. You’re a maid of the Williot Duchy.”

“I’m a maid, not a slave! I have the right to choose where I work!”

That’s true.

“If you don’t want to see me quit the duchy, then never break off your engagement with His Grace!”

But that’s not something I decide—it’s something Fillen decides.

“Alright. I’ll try.”

“Not try—you must!”

It was unreasonable, but it was the kind of unreasonableness I didn’t dislike.

Rather, she was cute like watching a childish younger sister, so I smiled and agreed.

People felt sorry about the lack of interaction between Fillen and me, but I was actually fine with it.

I don’t know how Fillen felt, but I was satisfied with my current life.

This was much better than facing Fillen and having unnecessary arguments.

I could read books as much as I wanted.

Whatever others might think, at least for me, peaceful days continued.

Time passed like that, and the day came when we had to go inspect the domain.

I got up early in the morning and went to the bathroom.

Even though they were maids, I preferred not to show my naked body to others, so I usually bathed alone, but on days like this, I needed help.

Misa always took on that role. Misa carefully attended to my bath, applying fragrant oils to my body.

“Since you’ll be walking around all day today, how about wearing a simple and practical dress rather than a cumbersome and fancy one?”

“That sounds good. Let’s do that.”

With my permission, Misa instructed the maids to bring the dress and accessory box.

While Sara dried my hair, the maids brought the requested items.

They moved in perfect coordination under Misa’s direction, helping me dress up.

The pure white chemise dress with lace and ribbons near the chest was practical yet neat and elegant, just as Misa had said.

Once I was fully dressed, the maids did my makeup accordingly and put a spencer over me.

My hair was braided to one side, then I wore a shawl with a large ribbon, and carried a reticule with a handkerchief.

This is usually a style for young princesses.

Now that everything was ready, it seemed like I had dressed too young for my age.

I was looking in the mirror with some concern when Sara clapped her hands with sparkling eyes.

“You look so beautiful, Miss! You look like you’re my age!”

Sara is 19 years old this year, and she says I look her age.

“You’re flattering me too much.”

“No! You really do look young! Right?”

“Of course! You look really beautiful, Miss!”

The maids nodded vigorously in agreement with Sara’s words. I felt a bit embarrassed but happy.

I thanked them for helping me dress up and headed to the foyer.

Fillen was already prepared and waiting for me. Behind him, I could see Wizard Baron along with other advisors and guards.

Fillen, who had been talking with the advisors, paused when he spotted me.

His expression subtly hardened.

I guess it is strange. I stood awkwardly in front of Fillen.

Fillen stared at me for a moment, then cleared his throat and spoke.

“You look beautiful.”

…Huh? I thought he would scold me for dressing inappropriately, but he complimented me instead.

I felt a bit shy. I smiled somewhat awkwardly and curtsied lightly.

“Your Grace looks very handsome as well.”

It wasn’t empty flattery but sincere. With his bright blonde hair neatly styled up and wearing an overcoat, he truly looked handsome.

“Let’s go, Princess.”

Given how cold things had been between us, I thought spending the day together would be awkward and difficult, but surprisingly, it started well.

Hoping this state would continue until the domain inspection was over, I gently placed my hand on Fillen’s outstretched hand.

But my wish was thwarted from the start.

“Welcome, Princess.”

Sisly was sitting in the carriage.

Why is this woman sitting here?

I looked at Sisly in confusion.

Fillen, on the other hand, was calm. Rather, he looked at me as if asking what I was doing not getting in quickly.

Apparently, he had no intention of explaining why Sisly was in the carriage.

“…Why is she sitting in the carriage?”

When I finally spoke up, Fillen answered as if it were obvious.

“Sisly said she wanted to go sightseeing in the domain, so I suggested we go together. Is there a problem?”

There was no problem. There wouldn’t have been if she were an ordinary guest rather than his mistress.

But she was Fillen’s mistress.

What would other people think if they saw the three of us going on a domain inspection together?

It was so terrible I didn’t even want to think about it. The thought of the stares and the things they would say made me dizzy.

I pulled my hand away from Fillen’s grip and said.

“I won’t go.”

Even if I didn’t go with them, people would whisper, but it would be better that way.

At least I wouldn’t have to hear those words.

I wouldn’t have to see them looking at me strangely.

At my words, Fillen frowned, and Sisly looked at me in surprise.

“What’s the problem now?”

“There’s no problem.”

Right. On the surface, there was no problem.

“Then why are you suddenly acting like this?”

“Do you want me to come with you?”

“What kind of question is that?”

“Then tell that woman to get out.”

Suddenly pointed out, Sisly looked at Fillen desperately with a face that seemed ready to burst into tears.

Fillen’s expression twisted even more grimly.

“Leilah. That’s enough.”

He growled in a low voice that I could hear.

But I stated my opinion without batting an eye.

“If that woman comes along, I won’t go.”

At any other time, I would have compromised moderately, like Sisly absolutely refusing to get out of the carriage, but this time I didn’t want to do that.

When I refused to bend my opinion to the end, Fillen let out a deep sigh and looked at Sisly.

“I’m sorry, but you’ll have to give in.”

“It can’t be helped.”

Sisly obediently got out of the carriage.

“Instead, you have to spend a long time with me when you come back,”

“Of course.”

Fillen lightly kissed Sisly’s cheek. Sisly giggled and nestled into Fillen’s arms.

Anyone could see they were lovely lovers.

And I was the wicked intruder who had separated such lovers.

How ironic. I’m his fiancée, so why should I feel this way?

Not wanting to watch their lovey-dovey display any longer, I climbed into the carriage with large steps.

Fillen personally escorted Sisly to the manor, then got into the carriage.

Soon the carriage started moving with a rattle.

“Send Sisly an apology gift later.”

Fillen, who had been quiet, suddenly brought up something completely unreasonable.

I raised my eyebrows sharply and turned to look at him.

“Why should I?”

“Because of your strange stubbornness, she’s depressed about missing out on a rare outing. What if that affects the child?”

So he’s telling me to give a gift to soothe that woman’s depression.

It was so absurd that I couldn’t even let out a hollow laugh.

“If you feel so sorry, you should have gone with that woman.”

“You know that’s impossible, yet you’re being stubborn again.”

“The one being stubborn isn’t me, it’s you. Do you think it’s right to bring your mistress when going on a domain inspection, not even for fun?”

Fillen closed his mouth, knowing that wasn’t right. That was even more ridiculous. It meant he deliberately did such a thing while knowing it was wrong.

Like someone who wanted me to get angry.

Though that couldn’t really be what he wanted.

Fillen looked like he still had much to say to me, but unfortunately, I didn’t.

I didn’t want to have any more conversations with him.

I blatantly turned my head away, and Fillen could only let out deep sighs repeatedly.

* * *

Though the beginning was quite rocky, the process afterward went smoothly.

Fillen, who seemed a bit nervous since it was his first time doing this, soon adapted and carefully looked after the domain’s people.

I had secretly worried about what to do if he showed a clumsy side, but fortunately that didn’t happen.

I finally felt relieved and took a long look around the Williot Estate where I had lived for 10 years.

The Williot Estate, located in the south of the Empire, was quite a pleasant place to live.

The weather was mild all year round, and there was a large river on the outskirts of the domain, so there was no need to worry about water.

The soil was fertile too, so crops grew well.

“Excuse me.”

As I was looking around for a while, someone tugged at my sleeve, so I turned my head.

Then I saw a small child who was only about waist-high to me.

Her bright, round eyes were full of worry.

What kind of worries could such a young child have to make such eyes?

Concerned, I bent my waist slightly to match the child’s eye level.

“What’s wrong?”

“I, I have something to tell you.”

Behind the child, I could see Fillen, who had been talking with his advisors, approaching this way.

“To me?”

“Yes.”

The child nodded her head vigorously and looked at me as she spoke.

“I hope the lord will definitely solve it.”

Fillen, who had approached right behind the child, stopped abruptly.

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