I Won’t Pick Up The T*ash I Threw Away Again - Chapter 10

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#10

Not stopping there, they stuck close together and chatted away.

Since they were riding in the same carriage, they must have shared many stories during that time, but I wondered how they could possibly have so much to talk about.

Sara, who had been glaring at Sisly and Fillen with an indignant expression, brought strawberries from somewhere and held them out to me.

“Miss, don’t lose to her and go feed strawberries to the master!”

“Forget it. Doing something like that would only be unseemly.”

“But, but… It’s so infuriating!”

Sara stomped her feet and shouted.

“The master is being too much! How can he show such behavior when you’re watching, Miss!”

“Fillen probably doesn’t think much of it.”

I answered indifferently while fidgeting with tree leaves.

“He’s just eating because that woman is feeding him.”

“Oh my, oh my.”

Sara clenched her fists tightly and beat her chest as if frustrated.

How enviable. To be able to get angry like that.

I wanted to do the same but couldn’t.

Fillen and Sisly’s nauseating display of affection continued until we arrived at the capital.

I tried my best not to look, but despite my efforts, they kept catching my eye.

To the point where I wondered if they were deliberately appearing in front of me.

By the time we arrived at the duchy mansion in the capital after their displays of affection and the long carriage journey, I was completely exhausted both physically and mentally.

“It’s more tiring than I expected.”

As soon as I got out of the carriage holding the escort knight’s hand, my gaze automatically turned toward the voice that reached my ears.

Fillen was helping a tired Sisly down from the carriage.

Though he called it helping, it was practically an embrace.

The servants of the capital manor, seeing Sisly for the first time, looked startled and glanced back and forth between Sisly, Fillen, and me.

Feeling burdened by those gazes and wanting to rest quickly, I strode into the manor.

“I’ll guide you to your room, Miss.”

The perceptive butler instructed a maid to escort me to my room.

It was a sunny room with large windows that let in plenty of light.

Though I liked it now, I shook my head knowing that when it rained, this would become the most terrifying place for me.

“I’d like to go to a different room. Isn’t there a room without windows?”

“Pardon? A room without windows?”

The maid asked in surprise. Just from her reaction, I could tell there wasn’t one.

Of course there wouldn’t be. Most rooms used by nobles had large windows to let in plenty of sunlight.

Since I couldn’t ask for a maid’s room, I offered a suitable compromise.

“Then please guide me to a room with small windows.”

After thinking for a moment at my words, the maid guided me to a room at the end of the west corridor.

This place also had windows, but they were smaller than those in the previous room.

“Will this do, Miss?”

“Yes, this is fine.”

My room was decided to be this one.

As I watched the servants busily moving luggage and the maids organizing, I felt a presence behind me.

“…Leilah?”

It was Fillen. Sisly was beside him too.

“Lei… no, Princess Tebesa. Why are you here?”

Fillen, conscious of other people’s eyes, asked in formal speech.

“This was decided as my room, so I was organizing my belongings.”

“I believe Princess Tebesa’s room is elsewhere.”

“It was, but I liked this place better, so I wanted to use this room.”

“…You didn’t deliberately choose this place knowing that Sisly’s room is right next door, did you?”

That woman’s room was right next door?

I had no idea. If I had known beforehand, I would never have chosen this room.

“I didn’t know.”

“Really?”

“I wouldn’t lie about something like this.”

Annoyed that I had to be misunderstood about even this, I answered curtly.

But Fillen didn’t readily believe my words.

His suspicious gaze fixed on me with no sign of letting up.

“You know, Fil.”

Unexpectedly, it was Sisly who removed Fillen’s gaze from me.

Sisly called Fillen by his nickname and spoke in a coquettish voice.

“Since it turned out this way, can’t I share a room with you, Fil?”

Her innocent eyes curved sadly.

Sisly leaned against Fil’s arm conspicuously as she continued.

“Honestly, I was a bit anxious about using a room alone in an unfamiliar place. I think it would be okay if Fil stayed by my side.”

“…Alright.”

Fillen glanced at me once, then gently wrapped his arm around Sisly’s shoulders.

“Let’s do that.”

The positions had reversed.

I couldn’t take my eyes off Fillen as he left with Sisly.

“Miss.”

Sara called to me pitifully, and though I could feel the other servants looking at me with sympathetic eyes, I couldn’t move a single step.

The word “broken engagement” came much closer.

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If I were to have my engagement with Fillen broken, I would return to being an ordinary Princess Tebesa.

What could someone like me, a plain 24-year-old count’s daughter who wouldn’t even be welcomed at home, possibly do?

No matter how much I thought about it, nothing came to mind.

I considered decent jobs that women could have, like fashion designer or embroidery work, but it was considered a disgrace to nobility for a noble lady to have such occupations.

Moreover, I was terrible with my hands.

I once received harsh criticism that the embroidery I did at 15 was worse than what a 5-year-old child could do.

There was no way I could make such work my profession.

I didn’t want to either.

What I was good at were subjects that noble ladies typically didn’t learn: philosophy, accounting, politics.

I could become a tutor using these skills, but the problem was that you had to be married to be a tutor.

Unmarried tutors weren’t preferred by nobles, who feared they might seduce innocent children.

Moreover, tutors couldn’t work when they got older.

It wasn’t a stable job with steady income either.

But why am I already thinking about having my engagement broken?

My engagement hasn’t even been broken yet.

I let out a small laugh and shook my head.

Fillen’s changed attitude over the past few days must have been quite shocking.

Countess Tebesa’s visit also played a part.

Rather than getting scared and looking for ways to cope with something that hadn’t even happened yet, it was wiser to try to protect what was right in front of me.

Let’s somehow protect my position. By any means necessary.

Thinking that way, I remembered the abortion drug that Countess Tebesa had given me.

If I used that, I could definitely protect my position… but I still didn’t want to.

“This is difficult.”

The situation where I couldn’t do this or that felt suffocating. I wanted to take a walk.

But I couldn’t readily go out because Sisly had taken over the manor’s garden under the pretext of prenatal care.

Nothing good ever came from running into That Woman, so I wanted to avoid meeting her as much as possible.

“…If I leave the manor entirely, I won’t run into her.”

Right, that would work. Why didn’t I think of this sooner?

It seemed like a good idea to go out to relieve my frustration and see the capital, so I took Sara and immediately left the manor.

Just leaving the manor relieved my frustration.

I smiled faintly as I looked outside the window.

“Miss, it’s been a long time since I’ve seen you smile.”

Sara, who was sitting across from me, looked at me with sparkling eyes.

“I think this is the first time I’ve seen it since you came to the capital.”

Had it been that long?

“They say the capital has many fascinating things. Lots of delicious food too! So let’s enjoy ourselves until your mood is completely lifted, Miss.”

Even if I lifted my spirits like that, it would all be pointless once I returned to the manor.

The moment I saw That Woman and Fillen’s faces, my mood would sink low again.

Just thinking about them made my improved mood plummet again.

There was no need to mention that fact and ruin Sara’s mood too.

“Yes, let’s do that.”

I nodded with a fake smile.

Shortly after, the carriage arrived at a street bustling with people. The street was wide enough for carriages to move around, but there were so many people that we could hardly move forward.

“Let’s walk from here.”

“It looks like we’ll have to walk for a long time. Will you be alright?”

“I’m fine.”

I had deliberately worn Mary Jane shoes knowing this might happen. Walking for a reasonable amount of time was no problem at all.

When I got out of the carriage, the guard knights followed.

“I’ll just take Sara. You two don’t follow.”

“But….”

“It’s fine. You’re not going to ignore my orders, are you?”

When I spoke with a stern face, the guard knights had no choice but to step back.

I entered the crowd with only Sara, without any guard knights.

Sara stuck close to me, afraid she might lose me.

Perhaps only the entrance was crowded, because once we went inside, it became quiet. Further in, there were hardly any people.

Puzzled by the stark difference, I looked around and finally realized this was a residential district, not a shopping street.

“We seem to have taken the wrong path.”

“That’s right. Let’s go back quickly, Miss.”

I was agreeing with Sara’s words and turning around when it happened.

“Let go, let me go!”

From somewhere came the shout of a young girl.

I turned my head toward where the sound was coming from.

Then I saw a large man with a scar on his face grabbing a girl’s arm.

“Let go of our sister!”

A child who looked younger than the girl was desperately clinging to the man’s leg.

“Why is this brat being so annoying!”

The man violently kicked the child’s stomach with his foot, which was as big as the child’s face.

“Aaah!”

The child flew through the air and landed on the ground some distance away.

“Lily!”

The girl called the child’s name desperately with a tear-stained face.

The man roughly grabbed the girl’s wrist. Because of this, the girl collapsed to the ground, but he didn’t care.

“Stop doing useless things and follow me! Do you know how much money you have to pay back?!”

Instead, he tried to drag her away by grabbing her hair.

Listening to their conversation, it seemed like the girl had borrowed money from the man.

Even so, the man’s actions were too extreme. I frowned at his merciless violence toward the child. Sara also looked at them in shock.

Getting involved in troublesome matters was exactly what I hated most. I already had enough on my plate to make my head explode.

“Wait.”

But I absolutely couldn’t just pass by this.

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