I Made a Mistake in my Confession. Can I Cancel it? - Chapter 59

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Chapter 59

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Kartan fell into despair as he looked at Lillian’s surprised eyes. When she hadn’t avoided his lips, he had been filled with hope that perhaps she might have opened her heart to him.

For a moment, he had been excited and happy as if he owned the entire world. That was, until he saw the two people embracing.

‘Is it because you fear the Archduke?’

That was right. Logically, thinking that way was more reasonable, so why had he harbored such ridiculous hope?

He was disappointed as much as he had expected,

He despaired as much as he had been excited,

And he suffered as much as he had been happy.

‘Right, I knew everything from the start anyway. There’s no need to get hurt.’

But the reality he awakened to from his dream was too cruel. Even so, he could never let go of Lillian. Even though it was a relationship that would end if only he let go.

Something inside him was gradually crumbling down.

“Lillian, why are you so tense?”

“Pardon?”

Seeing Lillian’s momentary confusion, he suddenly had the urge to strangle that slender neck before his eyes. No, rather than that, if he dragged her to his room and left marks proving she was his, would this feeling like his insides were about to burst finally subside?

Kartan struggled to hide his burning thirst and let out a soft laugh.

“Dr. Sellie said she wanted to go on a picnic together. She told you to go when the weather gets warmer.”

“Ah, you mean that.”

Lillian was visibly relieved. That sight was so lovely that Kartan resented her. No matter how much he struggled, he couldn’t have her. So he hated himself for not being able to win her heart.

‘I love you.’

When he saw her face smiling brightly at him, his insides burned as if he had swallowed seawater. So he wanted to vomit out the burning mass inside him as quickly as possible.

‘But the moment I speak it out, I’ll never be able to see your smiling face again.’

Soon a lonely smile appeared on Kartan’s lips. Lillian, who was watching this, blinked her eyes.

“The picnic can wait for another time, so please don’t worry too much about it.”

“Right.”

At her spirited voice, Kartan unconsciously placed his hand on top of Lillian’s head. Then he suppressed the narrow-minded emotions rising from the deep abyss of his heart.

‘Right, it doesn’t have to be love. Fear, or even pity would be fine. As long as you just stay by my side for a long time.’

“By the way, the Doctor clearly said she wouldn’t go back then, so this is unexpected.”

“Indeed. It’s getting late, so hurry up and go to bed.”

“Pardon? Aren’t you going to sleep, Your Grace?”

“Ah, I have things to do.”

Lillian stood there looking at him with a puzzled expression for a moment before turning around. Watching her slowly move away, Kartan clenched his fists.

‘I need to find the bastard who cast that damn sorcery on Lillian as soon as possible.’

Lillian’s life was like a burning candle. He didn’t know when it might melt away and disappear.

‘No matter how I look at it, Jeffrey, that bastard is suspicious.’

A guy who only sat at his desk working suddenly disobeyed orders and returned. Looking back, it was also suspicious that he gave Lillian a job at the Imperial Garden. The garden was a place connected to every part of the palace.

Therefore, it was also connected to the place where the Former Emperor performed the Sacred Ritual.

Moreover, since he sat in a position where he could access Imperial Secret Documents, there was a high possibility that he knew about what the Former Emperor had done. Also, since he had maintained a friendship with Lillian for a long time, perhaps he too, like himself, might know about Lillian’s Ability.

‘I should have dealt with that bastard from the beginning.’

He was nothing if not troublesome in many ways.

Kartan watched Lillian until she became a black dot and disappeared, then reached behind the pillar.

‘I can handle the dirty and ugly things as always. There’s no need for you to peer into such deep abysses.’

Soon Kartan left through the main gate of the Archduke’s Residence. Before he knew it, an axe was in his hand.

12. Conflict

“Hello, Lady Lillian.”

Not many days later, an unexpected guest came to visit. It was John, the direct administrative officer of Baron Jeffrey.

Lillian spoke in a somewhat cold voice.

“What brings you here?”

In truth, she wasn’t particularly pleased to see John, who had publicly spoken ill of His Grace the Archduke at Jeffrey’s farewell party. But she wasn’t heartless enough to turn away a guest who had come all this way.

“Well, that is… I’m truly sorry about that time. I couldn’t help myself because I felt so sorry for the Baron…”

He continued with an embarrassed expression.

“The truth is, the Baron’s youngest sister is very ill. There was even a doctor’s opinion that she might not make it through this year. In the midst of all that, thinking about the Baron being banished to such a distant remote island made me emotional. Please understand generously, Count’s Daughter.”

Lillian asked back in surprise.

“The Baron’s youngest sister is sick? Alice?”

“Yes.”

Upon hearing the answer, Lillian was left speechless by the shocking news. Alice was the only one among the Baron’s family members with whom she had any contact.

‘This can’t be. Come to think of it, I thought it was strange that I didn’t see her when I visited last time…’

“She’s only seven years old now…”

“That’s right. Such a pitiful young lady. So, about that… though it’s a shameless request, couldn’t you perhaps mention the Baron’s situation to His Grace the Archduke? Ask him to at least postpone the assignment. Since you’re close, he might listen if it comes from you, Count’s Daughter.”

Alice, who had no father, relied on and followed her brother Jeffrey as if he were her father.

‘I should have looked after her while the Baron was away, but I was too indifferent. To think I didn’t even know she was sick…’

Soon John held out a well-wrapped roll cake. Looking at the famous bakery logo on the wrapping paper, Lillian could tell how much he worried about Jeffrey’s family.

‘John is going this far, but what have I been doing all this time…’

Looking at the roll cake now in her hands, Lillian fell into self-reproach. It was more precious and weighty than any bribe offered by all the people who had come to her with requests.

‘But His Grace the Archduke definitely won’t grant this request. There’s no reason for him to.’

Remembering his lonely smile from last time, Lillian bit her lip.

‘Right, there’s no need to mention it to him. This is a debt of the heart that I owe, so it’s right for me to resolve it.’

Having the Baron by sick Alice’s side would be comforting, but it wasn’t a fundamental solution. Rather, treating Alice should come first.

‘If I show her to Dr. Sellie, we might find an answer. If that doesn’t work…’

Lillian clenched her fist.

After John left, Lillian explained the situation to Dr. Sellie and asked for her help.

Even if she used her power to save Alice, it had to be kept secret from the outside world. So for now, her help was absolutely necessary.

As soon as she heard Dr. Sellie’s agreement to cooperate, Lillian immediately wrote a letter to Jeffrey’s mother.

Hello, Madam.

I heard from John, Baron Jeffrey’s administrative officer, that Alice is ill.

I know a medical doctor who is a capable person that served as the Former Empress’s personal physician. If that person examines her, there might be a way to save Alice. No, I’m certain they will find a way!

I have a small desire to repay the kindness I’ve received from Baron Jeffrey, so I would be grateful if you could allow me to show Alice to the doctor.

-From Lillian-

The mother’s reply letter arrived in less than half a day. The content expressed that since Alice’s condition was critical, she wanted to meet with the doctor as soon as possible. In response, Lillian immediately visited Jeffrey’s house together with Dr. Sellie.

Alice’s mother welcomed the two people warmly.

“Thank you for coming all this way.”

“Not at all. How much heartache you must have endured all this time. Now that I’m here, please don’t worry about anything.”

Dr. Sellie readily took the mother’s hands and reassured her. Soon after examining Alice’s condition, the doctor’s expression hardened.

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