I Faked a Pregnancy, but My Husband Returned - Chapter 103

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And like a madman, he abruptly opened the door to the secret passage.

The dark, narrow passage where they had shared their first kiss.

The narrow, heated space from that night when they pressed their lips together again and again, yet yearned to touch even more.

Ekian walked into that corner space of the secret passage where he had pushed her against him, pouring his body heat into her again and again.

With each step he took inside, he felt breathless and his chest seemed to tighten.

Sure enough, the black ribbon he had used to cover her eyes was lying there, neatly folded.

Being black, it was barely noticeable unless examined closely, and it was placed in such a corner that one would easily pass by it without looking carefully to find it.

Ekian picked up the ribbon with trembling hands.

With a soft sound, a letter that had been folded inside the ribbon fell out. Unfolding the small paper, he saw Judith’s round, neat handwriting filling it completely.

[Dear Master.

Just in case, I’m leaving this letter before I go.

First, let me apologize. I said with my own mouth that the possibility of pregnancy was low, but I conceived a child that day in the annex.]

It was the moment when the suspicion he had harbored only as intuition became certainty.

Ekian felt his heart pounding.

When she first came to the Meius Mansion, the words “pregnant with Ekian’s child” had felt so foreign, but now those words had truly become reality.

‘But why…’

Ekian felt numb to his fingertips.

‘Why start with an apology… why on earth…’

[Even if Master doesn’t want the child and doesn’t want to look for me, I think that can’t be helped.

That would be pretty trashy, but still, it can’t be helped. How could I, who doesn’t even know Master’s face, understand Master’s heart? Of course, I will take responsibility for our child to the end.

But even so, I’ve decided to live carefully for the rest of my life so as not to cause any inconvenience to Master’s life. I’m good at that sort of thing.

One child like me, born to parents who didn’t want children and having no choice but to read others’ moods, is enough.]

The tone of the letter was cheerful. Just like her usual self.

However, within it was mixed a strange resignation along with somehow low self-esteem.

[Of course, if Master comes to find me and the child, we could have plenty of conversations.

So even though this letter has reached your hands, I write this letter imagining the worst case where you don’t come looking for us. What follows is truly what I want to say, so please keep it well in your heart.]

Curious about what would follow, Ekian held his breath.

Judith seemed to have no intention of telling him to take responsibility for her and the child.

[Master, you were the second desire and fear that came into my life.

The first was my parents. As a child, I wanted to be loved by my parents, but I behaved obediently, fearing I would be cast aside as a bothersome child.

While doing so, I think I vaguely understood. That this kind of relationship couldn’t last long and that someday my parents would leave me.

So one day when I was seventeen, when I became alone, I was scared but had been preparing myself all along, so I could accept the situation with a brave heart.

The second is Master. I was curious about you, but fearing that you would leave if I learned your identity, I couldn’t even see your face in the end.

So this is my second time being abandoned. But since I’m not alone now, I’ll be able to live my life more bravely.]

At the content about being accustomed to being abandoned by precious people and that it was okay, Ekian’s chest began to churn.

How could that be okay? It was pain she had already experienced.

At the same time, being treated the same as Elizabeth began to feel insulting to himself.

How much did this woman not trust him, or rather, how much did she think she didn’t know about him?

But in fact, all of that was his own karma.

There had been plenty of opportunities to tell the truth, but because of his greed to provide a better image and better environment, he had made her unable to come closer.

It was all his fault. Ekian breathed roughly at the feeling of his heart being scraped.

[Before, Master once evaluated that my accepting everything well was merely being good at resignation.

I was grateful that you said that then. Master was the first person in my life who tried to understand me like that and tried to protect me to the end.

With that memory, I desired you to the limit of what I could do, and I’m satisfied with that. I will resign myself to the disappointment of not knowing all of you.

Even if you’ve decided not to look for me and my child, please live well. I too will live well with my child.]

In that letter, Ekian saw a girl who had no choice but to swallow many things inside.

Even Judith’s heart on that day when she left without seeing his face to the end.

She had left without saying anything not out of consideration for him, but because she was afraid of crossing some line.

Therefore, she really seemed like she would live well without him. Even if she had loved deeply, she was a woman whose specialty was resignation, able to turn away without any lingering attachment.

But the very fact that he was included among the objects of that resignation made Ekian’s heart feel suffocated.

He felt like he would never be able to resign himself to her, no matter what happened.

The not-so-short letter now had only the last paragraph remaining.

[But to protect this child, I’m going to leave on a long journey for now. I don’t know where I should go, but for now, I’m going to visit the shrine of the Last Shaman.

The Last Shaman told me to come back when things were difficult and I had nowhere to go. I think she will surely provide some path.

P.S. Do you happen to know about the Last Shaman’s son?

The Last Shaman said she had wronged her son and asked me to please make him happy.

I should have agreed immediately, but I was too busy living and forgot. Looking back, I’ve been quite shameless all this time.

If you do come looking for me, I hope you’ll also find out about the Last Shaman’s son.]

Ekian blinked at the unbelievable content of the letter.

It was surprising enough that she had left without a destination. If some supernatural power had been at work at the Last Shaman’s shrine, it made sense that everyone couldn’t find Judith.

And… the Last Shaman had asked Judith to make her son happy?

Then what was his birth mother thinking when she left behind her last strength? Could hiding Judith also have been her arrangement?

Ekian immediately stood up after finishing the letter.

Originally, when he arrived in the capital, everyone had expected such disaster that they watched his mood.

But Ekian didn’t actually cause as much of a scene as they had worried.

Because he had actually been anxious and restless for months, sensing that something like this would happen.

Somehow he felt that terrible things would be waiting for him when he went to the capital.

He had deliberately ignored it, calling it illogical and irrational, but after hearing the news of the divorce, he realized that his baseless anxiety and restlessness had been true.

He was the son of the Last Shaman, who was famous for seeing the future. Could that bloodline have been passed down to him as well?

The auditory hallucinations he had experienced and the visions that had flickered in his sight without reason had all become reality now. He even thought that all of it might have been warnings from his birth mother.

That if you continue to cling only to unimportant things like this, this kind of future where you lose what’s truly precious will unfold before your eyes.

‘…Mother.’

Ekian immediately rushed out of the room.

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